The DiNozzo Diaries 3

by rekkidbraka

Sequel to "The DiNozzo Diaries 1 & 2." Special Agent Tony DiNozzo's most private thoughts and desires revealed, chapter by chapter. TIVA. Warning: Intense sexual content in some chapters. No slash. PERMANENT HIATUS FOR NOW FROM THIS AUTHOR. IF YOU CAN WRITE THIS WHILE MAINTAINING HIGH STANDARDS, PLEASE TAKE IT OVER. ALL MY BEST TO YOU! THANKS! :-)

24. The Man With One Red Shoe

Title: The DiNozzo Diaries 3: The Man With One Red Shoe
Author: rekkidbraka
Rating: T
Pairings: Tony D. and Ziva D.
Category: Romance; humor; angst
Disclaimer: No infringement intended.
Spoilers: From final two eps. of Season 6
Summary: Sequel to "The DiNozzo Diaries 1 & 2." Special Agent Tony DiNozzo's most private thoughts and desires revealed, chapter by chapter. TIVA. Warning: Intense sexual content in some chapters. No slash.

-------------------- The DiNozzo Diaries 3: The Man With One Red Shoe ---------------------

I've gotta get out of here, get out of town. Fast.

Wouldn't be fair to drag Ziva down with me on this one. She didn't shoot Jeanne, I did. No reason she should take the fall, too. She's still got a chance to get back in with the NCIS team. She's at the hospital now with Gibbs, explaining everything -- how she's alive, why she didn't tell him, what her father had us training for. Better to come clean. For her, anyway.

Me, I'm done. My NCIS future is... hell, WHAT future? I just put about three bullets in that. My future with NCIS is lying back there in Jeanne's apartment, bloody and dead on the floor.

Everything I've worked for... I just chucked it. For nothing. Because I hated Jeanne so much.

She was gonna shoot me. I know she was. I had to take her down first. I mean, I know that. I KNOW it.

But Vance isn't gonna buy it. Gibbs isn't gonna buy it. Too much history between Jeanne and me for Gibbs to buy it.

Ziva... she'll believe me. She's always got my back. She loves me.

But this time she can't save me.

God, there's blood all over me -- clothes, shoes, everything. Hell... gotta ditch it all. And this was a new suit.

What am I gonna do?

What the hell am I gonna DO without Ziva being there to help me?

I don't know what it is to be without her anymore. I don't think I can...

"Tony? Tony, are you home? I've been trying to call you but you didn't... TONY! My GOD, what has HAPPENED?"

Looks like I won't be finding out after all.

Damn. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I wasn't supposed to ruin her life, too.

"Jeanne... She's dead, Ziva. I killed her. I shot her. She's dead."

This is a nightmare.

It's just that there's no waking up from it.