Getting on a rock to stare at the white snow my cheeks tint a gentle pink at the cold, the sky above starting to grow darker than usual as the snow start's to grow into a blizzard. [I'm sitting down here but hey you can't see me, your words cut deeply - they're just some other lies. I'm hiding from a distance, I've got to pay the price defending all against it. I really don't know why you're obsessed with all my secrets, you always make me cry, you seem to wanna hurt me no matter what I do] I mumble just low enough not to echo the song about, the last thing I needed was someone to hear me.
[I'm telling just a couple but somehow it gets to you, but I've learned to get revenge and I swear you'll experience that some day. Hey you can't see me, kinda invisible, you don't sense my stay but I'm not truly hiding, not like a shadow. Just thought I would join you for one day, I'm sitting down here but hey you can't see me] pulling the black cloak my eyes trail about before catching Hidan before he goes back behind the large stone close by making me groan slightly.
[I'm not trying to avoid you, just don't wanna hear your voice but when you call me up so often I don't really have a choice, you're talking like you know me and wanna be my friend but that's really too late now. I won't try it once again, you may think that I'm loser but I don't really care, you may think that it's forgotten but you should be aware,cause I've learned to get revenge and I swear you'll experience that some day] dropping back to sprawl along the rock my eyes trail the upside down ground towards the base, who would attack a place no one knows about at Christmas anyway?
Stretching and closing my eyes the heavy weight of each muscle takes a side just making it more uncomfortable, just how I liked it. Hearing footsteps my eyes start to crack open to look at my sister, something behind her back while I just watch, the sound of midnight ringing me round like a guard when it dawns on me. Their little 'friendly' act was over making me slide off the side to roll onto my tiptoes like a cat when I land, a heavy and rather sharp smack to the side of my head smashes the other side against the rocky stone.
"Hidan-kun~ I wanted to get her with a snowball first!" my sister plights through the heavy ringing in my ears, everything spinning as I catch blood dripping and trickling hotly down my cheek. They weren't throwing snow, more like ice and rocks making some village memories come back in floods.
"come on then fucker, fight back!" the albino snaps bitterly watching me starting to slide down the rock, I'd like to see him do same but when something shines like a weapon it didn't take long for me to dizzily turn on my heel and run in any direction. Falling over every so often as everything seems to be getting colder, hail and snow all around me as my legs just keep going. Another heavy thunder to the back of my head as my body hit's the snow, a cheer from behind hidden by the echo and misty blizzard all around me.
"well that was no fun, she's knocked out now…lets go back in. It's cold out here" Stella states as the crunching of only one pair of feet starts to shift. "Hidan-kun?" the fritz's voice enquires as my eyes open slightly to look at my hands digging into the settiling white.
"what about the fucking heathen?" that was a weird statement coming from his lips but what sounds like him being dragged starts to form about like a muffler.
"she's immortal! Vesta will live" the sister laugh's in a nonchalant manner seeming to bound while Hidan mutter's following behind, for some reason I think the only reason he calls me a heathen is because I tried to take something Jashin gave him. He probably doesn't know that perhaps what he has taken to be a gift from our god is what has made him lose something more precious, be that his soul or his heart and in the end he's going to regret every minute he ever bothered because everyone but him can see that Stella will only hang about until he's given himself to her because then she's slept with every guy, even if that where behind his back also.
Everyone was probably trying to stop me from saying something because they are all guilty of it and don't want that scythe turned on them after seeing what he did to the one trying to break the pain from getting it's claws on him. What a fool I am, to have loved such an idiot, a fool for even thinking he was worth being friendly to. Suppose I'll blame it on the moon since that was the reason I fell for him, just watching him ritualise under its radiant beam with a carefree smirk.
The butterflies in my stomach churning at every elegant movement he did for Jashin, even if it may not have seemed very beautiful to anyone else it was like a song for me. For some reason his rituals just aren't the same but perhaps daylight licked me into shape because I must have been asleep for days after finding out my sister started dating him.
Moving my lips to breathe his name makes me open up my eyes to stare about again, I felt really warm now making me think someone was hugging me again and found myself alone. Alone above a raging sea that stole the only boy I loved and drowned him, it really does feel weird saying that I loved that egotistical, arrogant, foul mouthed moron. I suppose when him and Kakuzu found me in a cave alone and shit scared of everything around me they took some sort of pity, or perhaps that was because I was naked in the centre of a Jashinist's symbol with blood all around me and weapons scattered around the place.
That day as I sat curled up against my knee's rocking back and forth begging for Jashin to forgive me, the sight of the two of them sending me into faster begging while nails dug through my hair to claw deeply. Once I saw that symbol my eyes bore into it then into Hidan's eyes without being unlocked, hoping Jashin had sent him here to speak to me. To show me I wasn't alone in an immortal coil, the only one praying for a saviour.
When I went to find him after Pein let me join all I wanted was to feel him close to me, all I wanted was to hear Hidan, see the albino's light that was leading me to a place where I could find peace again.
Until Stella came about my choice words and prayer's for Hidan were 'you are my strength that keeps me walking, you are my hope that keeps me trusting. You are the light to my soul and you are my purpose'. Hidan was pure and untainted by pathetic things but that was lost, the words 'you're my everything' crumbled to nothing more than 'were my'. Which was probably why I fought so much to try keep it that way but once I saw he was lost my soul just gave up fleeting, my heart beating.
Now all that runs through my mind is the relevant question, how can I stand here with you and not cry?, Hidan was my first and only so why haven't I chosen to cry up until this point? It's like my mind has been trying to block it out up until those heavy pieces of ice shattered that wall and let it all out. My mind was once calm from the storms, and gave me rest but Hidan had stolen my heart without me realising it, sucked up every one of my breath's to exhale them out into abusive shouts against me because the love was too strong, too genuine.
Would anyone take me in or take me deeper? now? Of course not because I'm a bundle of raw knuckle that will never reform, I'm the child of the family that has everything taken and given to my sister just to spite me but that's what made me the better person. Laying here in the snow my body start's to twitch as I get up to stand to an angle, I may as well get inside before the frostbite and hypothermia got worse, not that I was afraid of it, it's not like I'll lose any bits or die, I'm immortal.
Inside everyone was asleep making it easier to get to the dungeon without being seen, after a hot water bath to unfreeze my limbs I get on with my Christmas ritual. Upstairs everyone was awake opening their present's as people run from Kakuzu's room with money, walking in his double eyes stare at me.
"you're here to steal my money too?" his voice grouchy while I come to stand in front of him.
"no, it's your Christmas present…" I mumble watching his expression change as my arms wrap around him, the pale of my icy cheek nuzzled into him. "it's the most I can give you" I smile staying there for a while feeling his large hands run over my spine, moneybags could give as much of an annoyed stare as he wanted I knew he enjoyed it. Holding up a small parcel he glances at it before opening the terribly wrapped paper, a sweat drop rimming his forehead slightly.
"this is the money I gave you to Buy a present" smiling sweetly up at him I nod gently.
"merry Christmas!" hearing him chuckle I wave softly, may as well give everyone else their gifts. Everyone raising their eyebrows to being given mistletoe in a box from me, they seemed happy enough with the presents.
"you really don't get the idea of Christmas, do you Vesta?" giving a confused expression I look about.
"I thought you had to give Christmassy things at Christmas time? It was either mistletoe or tinsel but you guys seemed to have plenty of that" I pout looking about again, they seemed rather disappointed with the presents now.
"I think it's a good present, un. Now I can go out and find a cute girl to kiss" the blonde smirks planning in his head, everyone glancing at the branch before giving their own kind of smirks, Kisame and Zetsu seeming the most pleased.
"since you don't celebrate Christmas I got you this" Deidara holds out a clay Jashin symbol making me brighten up and take with awe, the look on my face seemed enough to make the bomber smile at the achievement. "the best bit being it won't blow up, even though it should un" putting the baked symbol into my pocket I give him a quick cuddle before opening another one, inside was a pile of baked cookies with the symbol encased in chocolate chips.
"that's so sweet, thank you Tobi-chan" I smile nibbling into one, they tasted great, the childish nin cuddling me again. Glancing into another box the lid it put back over as I glance at Kisame, my cheeks tinted pink out of embarrassment. "t-thank you, Kisame. I'll…try it on later" him smirking but no one seemed to want to know what the perverted shark had given me, apart from that the rest were more baked goods and a new Akatsuki ring to replace the one that looked about ready to snap along with a few new weapons.
Apparently Hidan and Stella where off doing something down in the dungeon, no one bothered giving them presents since they didn't want them and only started fighting if they did. That however never stopped me hiding one under Hidan's pillow, I had bought the moron a Jashinist band to tie around his weapon; he'd probably think it was Stella who gave him it anyway. Hearing someone coming my eyes dart about before my body is launched at Kakuzu's coat to pick it up when they enter.
"the fuck?" Hidan questions with blood all over him as Stella glares suspiciously.
"Kakuzu needed his coat" I state calmly walking past them with it drooped up in bundles, clearly it was too big for me to even carry. Sighing relief at the escape as I put it on the back of the miser's chair, the tanned man giving me a strange look as I make a face at him, the questioning expression fading.
Inside the ritual room again my body nuzzles into the warm nectar of blood as yelling comes closer towards the metal door, cursing myself for not locking the dam door as someone enters. All of the Jashin symbols everyone gave me scattered in the blood as my sun bathing manner is broken by them stomping closer, being kicked over the lilac in my eyes turn up to stare at the glaring Hidan then towards the door now shut and locked.
"bitch, make room" he glare's sitting down making me stare at him in a confused manner, rolling his eyes I find him push me to one side so he can get into the circle.
"…Hidan. Go find your own circle" I mutter wincing when he stabs himself to add the blood to the circle, trying to push him back out before pausing when someone else starts hammering at the metal door.
"Hidan! Hidan-kun~ come out…I'm sorry~", Stella. Shoving at him harder he start's to scowl about something. "it was only a mistletoe! I know you hate kissing me" pausing at pushing the albino again I could feel that if I had cat ears they would be twisting all about the place just to listen. "f-fine! Then I'll go kiss Itachi instead, see how I care" that probably wasn't the best thing to say, Hidan's body tensing up on every side as he readies a weapon out of rage.
I'm not sure if it was the adrenaline running through my body, the want to protect Hidan or pain turning into pleasure talking but my body lunges up onto him as the weapon penetrates my back. Claws dug into him as a stiffened groan is leeched from my mouth, Hidan's eyebrow scrunching up when nothing hit's him. Peering down at me as he wriggles the kunai away just sending more pleasure down my nerves forcing another low pitched groan to vibrate my throat. I just manage to gasp out a breath expecting some sort of yell or shove, the albino just mutter's something.
"shouldn't you be happy you got a kiss? You have been dating each other for about 2 years?" I mumble getting over the stab to slip off of him onto the strewn blood again.
"Stella knows I fucking hate showing affection in fucking public, it's gross!" he bitterly snarls sounding much like a child, I was used to that since that was all he used to sound like when he complained to me about something. Come to think about it, why was he in my chamber to complain about it?
"then go complain to Stella?" as harsh as it sounded I really couldn't be bothered helping someone who never listens to the truth or accepts point blank evidence before him, Hidan glares for a moment as I sit pondering something, I had actually without thinking about it helped the stupid Jashinist.
Watching him stand up and storm off I do not expect to hear a fight because he'll probably kiss her ass, say sorry and get on with life, flopping back into the blood my lips pout because it had gone cold. Glancing to the other side my eyebrow hitches ever so slightly, Hidan's crimson liquid was darker than my own blood. Peering about my finger dips into the blood to swirl it into a heart shape making me smile lightly, getting cleaned up once again I had decided to have a walk about the base. Hearing yelling my ears and feet trail it towards Itachi's room, I could only guess what was going on in there as Hidan comes storming over.
"bitch, have you seen--" glaring for a moment his eyes shift to Itachi's door, hand shifting up for the handle while I walk away quickly towards anywhere but here, running when I hear a thundering screech from Hidan.
Skidding another corner with my heart racing as my body lunges for the first door I could get my hand on, I wasn't the one being targeted but for some reason my body told me to run, hide, fade into the background right now. Finding myself in a closet I grab and push past the spare coats, shoes, umbrella's, hats galore to pile up and duck myself further away. Screaming and shouting passing while more than the usual explosion happens until eventually, nothing.
No shouts, no screams, no footsteps, no bombs. Pulling away from the corner to push open the door with a creak my head comes out to glance about, stepping slowly down the charred corridor, the sight of blood alarming me.
Peering about the living room was one giant gouging wreck as if a meteor had struck, tied up in Kakuzu's thread is Hidan whom has his hair ruffled and soaked in blood, the cloak gone to reveal gashes and blood everywhere. Stepping closer he does not move but of course he isn't dead, the miser's thread tying him into a star shape with more constricting every other part of him over and over until a knot of tangled spider web straddles everywhere between the two pillars. No one seemed to be around as I do a search and then come back, the Jashinist now awake and glaring at my approach.
"bitch untie me!" Hidan snaps while I just look about, why did everyone evacuate and leave the idiot behind? Hands reaching up then retract cautiously, if he's been tied up then there's something dangerous about him.
"where is everyone?" I mumble peering about then back at him struggling again.
"they fucked off! Let me go so I can fucking rip that weasel apart!" he savagely snarls making my eyes widen, there was no way I was going to untie him if that was his reaction, there is his usual angry growl and yell than there is that.
"what did he do?" I enquire staring at a symbol close by cautiously, Hidan had grown silent as I turn to look at him.
"your slut of a sister was fucking banging that asshole!" there it was, that huge grin I knew I would get, the sadistic eyes in place, the snigger through my teeth that stops his anger to become alarmed. "why the fuck are you laughing you bitching heathen? Your fucked up sister was cheating on me!" I do not reply because as of now I was actually in a world of my own, the laughing getting stronger and stronger knocking me to my knee's. For once the albino looked slightly frightened of me, words spilling it like a waterfall of hatred.
"you deserved it" and there it was, my revenge, my resolve. Standing up to look him in the eyes this time his own eyes where dulled, my own brightened as I sigh out the giggles to just grin like a Cheshire cat. "I should just leave you here.." stepping closer his head shifts back while I pull his chin down to be eye to eye. "mm? Hidan-sama…you've gone quiet" the petal pink of my lips gleaming towards his own that are just an inch apart. "does it hurt? Knowing you're alone?" more silence.
"knowing that every time you sliced me, told me I was worthless, a liar. That I was the only one telling you're the truth?" staring him right into the eyes they shift away gleaming with a guilty realisation. "figuring out everyone was lying to you because they where all guilty of touching her?" his head turning back to stare into my eyes. "they didn't tell you, did they?" smiling my eyes show a thick sadness as my cold hand lets him go.
"sorry, Hidan-kun" taking a kunai I start to cut him down from the binds, obviously the minute he got down he'd let his rage out again. Watching him drop down my eyes trail off to try figure out where everyone else might have gone, the flash of a shining scythe makes me turn around to glance at it high up in the air. May as well let him get on with it as I just stare patiently waiting into his eyes, obviously unafraid of the strike before watching it move down and twist around to so the shaft hits my back sending me forwards into the albino's chest.
Eyes becoming completely entranced when the hit brings out lips together, a hand sliding up to grip a good clump of my hair to keep me firmly in place. Problem was I wasn't struggling against it as my eyes where still shut from the impact, opening to a slit to look at his cheek and tattered white hair that was usually clean and striken back. I was supposed to be fighting back against him, not giving in to temptation!
Stupid enough that my lips actually part to let him shove his tongue in, for someone who apparently sat kissing my sister he wasn't very good at it, probably another thing that Stella put up with until getting what she wanted. Not like I had ever kissed someone myself, I was too shy for that apparently since I always tried to stay away from men, they where bad news.
"Hidan-kun! What the hell?!" someone snaps breaking the moment like a hammer to a house of mirrors, the albino's scythe still locked to my back and his lips still against mine as he stares at Stella close by. "I come here to apologies and this is how you treat me?" I hadn't realised up until now Hidan had my tongue between his teeth so I couldn't move without doing an erotically cheesy movement away from him.
Stella watching my tongue slide past his teeth and graze his lips until the tip is out, free I suck my tongue back into my mouth to protect it. Growing alarmed to Hidan's hand trailing down behind my cloak to grip my ass sending a squeak from my lips, the wolf grin on his face was creepy. "Hidan-kun, you can't be about with other women. Jashin-sama would be really angry!" she snaps with a scowl, the masochist just smirks.
"fuck off, seriously. After I watched that weasel faced bastard of yours I couldn't give a fuck…I'd much rather fuck your sister anyway" my eyebrow twitching at the open statement, the wolf grin just getting even bigger on his own face while Stella's only drops to shock.
"but she's a Jashinist heathen! She's not even good looking" the raven haired sister complains with arms crossed.
"like fuck asshole, at least the bitch stays true to the book of Jashin and doesn't fuck everything that moves!" being stuck in the middle I just stare at his chest absently as his grip tightens.
"she's my sister, what makes you think she's going to be different?" blinking my eyes glare slightly, I'm nothing like her in the first place.
"because she isn't like you, fuck-tard" he retorts holding me closer to him so the warmth of his chest goes through my cheeks and hands, this was just getting cheesy. "I'm just fucking pissed off I didn't grab her before you fucking came along" the pale hand gripping the clump of my hair releasing so it just lies flat against the back of my head. "go bang Itachi" his eyebrow curved in annoyance while Stella complains further.
Rolling my own eyes I give him a look from the top of my eye-lids to let go of my bum before I killed him, escaping his clutches I head towards the broken hallway while he follows, my sister trying to catch up as I disappear into my room. Eyes casting onto each and everyone of the group staring back, hands in my broken lock drawers, Kisame with my underwear on his head while Tobi had my bra's.
"h-hello, Vesta. Un" Deidara laughs nervously putting the clothes back and shutting the drawers swiftly, glaring sternly they try to escape but Hidan stands blocking the door subconsciously.
"give me my clothes, Kisame put everything you've stolen back. Pein…I thought you knew better and moneybags? You're buying me new locks" my eyes glare, I wasn't in the mood for this as they drop everything and run. Kakuzu handing back my piggybank with a pout. Groaning my room looked a complete state, I had completely forgotten about Hidan up until now as I turn to peer at him.
"you're going to need a bigger fucking room" he mutter's glancing about before peering down at my confused stare. "maybe that dungeon room of yours would be better" Hidan mumbles creeping closer. "then I could fit all my shit in it" the albino sharing a bedroom? The unsocial idiot didn't even let Stella in his room for a second let alone consider sharing one, my eyebrows creasing suspiciously as he kisses me again yet more passionately. Still a bad kisser, at least he didn't drool I suppose.
"fucking love you" another thing Hidan just-did-not-say, even when with my sister for 2 years, even if they where alone I'm sure he never said it to her because I always remember hearing her complain about it countless times. Looking up at him from my daydream he was staring back expectantly for me to reply, mouth ajar to say something but it felt like I couldn't actually say it.
"l…love you too…asshole" I smirk into the last bit making him scowl and smirk like a wolf again, my eyes glancing at his pale chest again. "you should wear your cloak, you'll catch a cold" I mumble trying to make up an excuse for my eyes staying locked to the abs and well built stomach.
"you look too busy staring, to want me to bitch" breaking the daydream I let go of him again with a sweat drop on my temple and a fuming blush.
"sh-shut up...asshole" I mumble nuzziling into him again, his chest vibrating with a chuckle.