Ok I have been getting much better reviews, but still not as many as I should! (whine whine whine!). Anywho….miss kirsty-4-life is a freaking rockstar…she basically left me a soft porn as a review! *wink*….. and made me laugh my ass off…so in her honor I am posting chapter 17….i love his chapter even though its short, it sets the stage for much more to come! Bear with me people! And review when your done reading! Thanks and enjoy…….oh and I don't own the characters or the songs used, but I do have an amazing sense of humor…so that's something right?

Chapter 17. Soaring

As I drove onto the back lot, I was listening to a new favorite band of mine "Bright Eyes". I was really in love one of there songs "First day of my life", it was the first song to play when I turned on my I-pod this morning. It fit perfectly "First day of my life", so true! It's sweet sound, calmed my nerves, which I had plenty of. Today was my first real day onset, and a lot of first would happen today. I had no idea what it was going to be like, or if I was going to do anything correctly, but I kept telling myself that it was going to be ok; I mean at least I had an ally, right? Yeah, my "new BFF" (rolls eyes), he would be here today, and we would be "acting" together. Well, he will be acting, I will be pretending to be a real actor! I still wasn't sure what Anthony had talked to Emmett about, but I still was dying to know. I was so nervous as I parked my car, I placed my ear buds in, and continued to listen to bright eyes on a loop, willing the song to calm me. However the song just reminded me of Anthony.

I was ashamed that I fell so hard and fast, in lust with him, but guess I technically had lusted after him for the last few years, so maybe it wasn't that big of a deal. But, now that I had actually met him and spent some time with him, I wasn't falling anymore I was flying. The way I felt when I thought about him, was exhilarating. But, I had a job to do, and I really didn't want to seem like a silly little girl, who had fallen for the big movie star; so, I decided that I wouldn't embarrass myself, and in doing so I would have to push any feelings I had for him to the back of my mind. It was ridiculous anyways, he would never want someone as boring and plain as me. He would want someone fake and plastic like Tanya. Hell, I was pretty sure their relationship was more than he said it was.

I sighed as I turned off the engine to my car, a wave of panic hit me as I looked around. But, I only had two hours before having to be on set so I really needed to get ready. I grabbed my bag from the passenger seat and stepped out of the car, and then head towards my trailer. As I neared my trailer I noticed a piece of paper that was taped to the door. Once I got closer and saw the first words I gasped. I ran to the door ripped the letter off the door and began to read:

BFF,

I just wanted to write you a little note to tell you that I had a blast yesterday. Thank you it was nice to be "real person" for once. I also never thanked you fully for being my body guard, so thank you! Good luck today, and if you get to nervous or have no idea what to do, don't worry, no one really knows what they are doing! Just wing it Baby! Anywho, I'll see you later. Maybe we can eat lunch together today, your trailer or mine? (That's sounds kina dirty, huh? Sorry) Anywho, see ya on set.

Love Anthony.

I re-read that letter five times before I entered my trailer, I couldn't get passed "Maybe we can eat lunch together today, your trailer or mine?" I could swear that Anthony Masen was flirting with me and possibly asking me on a lunch date. But, he had begun the letter with BFF, instead "Love of my life", or "To whose pants I would like to get in".

As I sat down in the makeup chair, I was bombarded with a millions questions and squeals of delight. I just shook my head closed my eyes and turned up the volume. I thought about the meaning of this letter, while the miracle workers did their magic. The lyrics to the song continued dancing through my ears.

This is the first day of my life,

I swear I was born right in the doorway,

I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed

They're spreading blankets on the beach.

Yours is the first face that I saw,

I think I was blind before I met you.

Now I don't know where I am,

I don't know where I've been,

But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I'd let you know.

That these things take forever,

I especially am slow.

But I realize that I need you,

And I wondered if I could come home.

Remember the time you drove all night,

Just to meet me in the morning.

And I thought it was strange you said everything changed,

You felt as if you'd just woke up.

And you said "this is the first day of my life,

I'm glad I didn't die before I met you,

But now I don't care I could go anywhere with you,

And I'd probably be happy".

So if you want to be with me,

With these things there's no telling,

We just have to wait and see.

But I'd rather be working for a paycheck

Than waiting to win the lottery.

Besides maybe this time is different,

I mean I really think you like me.

I was pulled from my "happy place" where Anthony was madly in love with me and such, by a tug to a strand of my hair. I opened my eyes only to see the annoyed faces of Jane and Alec. "Spill it!" they said in unison. All I could think about at that moment was them riding on tricycles and saying "Redrum Redrum!" I shivered at the creepy movie resemblance recall.

"What?" I asked innocently, only to be betrayed by the ridiculous puppy love grin, that spread across my face.

"Oh come on girl! what happened?" Alec whined as he hit my arm.

"Oh, you saw the note did you"

"YES….is that Anthony? As in Masen?" they both said in creepy Unison again.

"Look all I know is that I spent two hours yesterday talking and jamming with him yesterday. He is really cool, and amazing in person! We hit it off and he calls me his BFF now, and he promised to be the president of my fan club. Then I found out that he called Emmett on the phone and talked about me….I don't know what he talked to Emmett about, so don't ask!….ok?….that's it twiddley dee and twiddley dumb, I got nothing left to tell you"

"So your trailer or his?" Alec's asked with an eyebrow raised.

"I don't know…I am not sure what the "meaning" of the letter is yet…"

"He did start the letter with BFF" Alec said, more to himself than to me.

"Yeah, but he also thanked her twice and asked her to have lunch with him" Jane said speculatively.

"yeah but-" I cut him off.

"yeah, but nothing…it doesn't mean anything…there is no way that Anthony Masen "wants" me….we are just friends, no matter how much I wish and pray and hope that we could be or will be more." I said as I stood up and changed into my "costume". They continued to bicker between each other. I gave them both a peck on the cheek before bolting out of the trailer to head to the set.

Once I arrived on set I was directed to a small stage. I took a seat on the stool that was there. The director explained to me what he wanted my character to "emit" through the emotions that were to pass across my face while singing. I took a deep breathe and thought about how pissed off and hurt I would be if I came home to my boyfriend and he was in bed with another woman. The director yelled action, and I began strumming my guitar. "this song was written when I found my boyfriend in bed with my roommate" I spoke softly. I began the singing the song, feeling each and every word.

I always said that be it,

That I wouldn't stick around

If it ever came to this,

Here I am, so confused,

How am I supposed to leave,

When I can't even move,

"CUT! Marie, you need to open your eyes. Lets see some moisture in them too! You need to be a little more Pissed than hurt….ok?" I nodded, and the director smiled.

"Alright people lets do this right, I have an idea! I want this to be done in one take, I want the roughness of it! Cameras two, four, and five I want close ups choose a good angle. Camera one, stay front and center, slightly high to low. Camera three span…ok? Camera six, stay with Anthony…trail him till he sits, then close up as he is intrigued……ok? ALRIGHT…..ACTION!"

I began strumming again, and then began singing again.

I always said that be it,

That I wouldn't stick around

If it ever came to this,

Here I am, so confused,

How am I supposed to leave,

When I can't even move,

Anthony walked in and my eyes followed him as he sat a small table and ordered a drink from the "waitress".

In the time it would have took to say,

Honey I'm home, how was your day,

You dropped a bomb right where we live

And just expect me to forgive……….

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man

And I'm not sure I can…..

Cuz I don't even know now who I am

It's to soon for me to say Forgive…..

He finally looked at me and our eyes met, everything and everybody just disappeared. It was just me and him, starring into each others eyes, nothing else. My heart soared and the butterflies in my stomach started to flutter, not because I was nervous, but because I was in love, for the first time I was in love. I was in love with a God with green eyes and bronze hair, I was in love with someone I barely knew, I was in love with Anthony Masen, the biggest and most recognizable star in Hollywood. And I wanted him….NO I NEEDED him. I needed him to breathe, I needed him to laugh, I needed his face, I needed his smile, I possibly needed something in his pants…..and HELL, I needed him to just live. So, I sang to him. I sang to him from the tip of my toes, to the top of my head, I sang to him from the depths of my heart and soul, giving him everything I had. My heart was soaring as I was entranced, not only by my own epiphany of Love, but because I hoped that the emotions that were playing in his emerald orbs, were the same as mine.

I should ask but I won't

Was it love or just her touch

Cuz, I don't think I want to know

So get you some things and get out.

Don't call me for a day or two, So I can sort this out

Well you might have well ripped the life out of me right here tonight

When through the balling tears you said

Can you ever just forgive……

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man

And I'm not sure I can…..

Cuz I don't even know now who I am

It's to soon for me to say Forgive…..

You know what they say,

Forgive and forget

Relive and regret……..

Forgive…

Well that's a mighty big word for such a small man

And I'm not sure I can…..

Cuz I don't even know now who I am

It's to soon for me to say Forgive…..

Then he winked at me; Fucking winked at me! And of course, I blushed. But, once his penetrating emerald eyes had broke contact with mine, I remembered that I was filming a scene and that there were other people watching. The director hadn't scream cut yet, and I was feeling really confident all the sudden. I cast my eyes down to the floor and then right back up, to meet his again. I bit my lip, then I winked back and raised my left eyebrow seductively.

Ooohh, It's to soon for me to say Forgive…..

"And cut! BRILLIANT, just brilliant." The director rushed to me and Anthony followed him. The director patted me on my shoulder, and smiled. Anthony just stood there starring at me grinning. "Marie, Anthony, that was perfection! The chemistry between you two is, indescribable! I can't believe we got all that in two shots!!!! Mary was right Marie, you are going to be huge!" And with that the director walked over to the monitors. Once he began watching the scene again, on the small screens; Anthony bent down and whispered in my ear.

"Congrats Marie, you cease to amaze me" and with that he sauntered over to were the director was. Once I caught my breath, I joined them. It was freakin cool to see myself on a monitor! I didn't look like the Bella I knew, I looked like this beautiful entity, who was capable of stealing the bronze haired beauty's heart. But, that was on film, not in real life.

Once the director had watched the scene in its entirety he announced that Anthony and I could take a break until four; and that they were going to film the club and the other "open mic night" people.

So what do you think about that? Flirty McFlirty eyes!!! And Bella wants something in Anthony's pants….hell I want to get in his pants!

Reviews are almost as good as what's in Anthony's pants *wink*, send me some love….I am lonely!