Chapter 9: Can You Read My Mind?
Day came and went and soon nighttime was before us. I remember when I was human I would stay up as long as I could because the night felt right to me. I felt safer and calm and could get things done that needed to be done. Night is when I can be me and not be afraid to show my true colors. So being a vampire is the best thing to have happened to me. But I always wish that my mother could be with me and see how much I have changed. But without her death I'm not sure if David and I would have met or how we would have met.
David and the boys got more blood tonight and Lilly, Sky, Effy, and I all talk and drink. Willow stays with the guys but by the looks on their faces it seems like they don't want her there. I wish everyone could get along, I do miss Willow but I don't like her treating my cousin like shit when alls she is trying to do is help me or rather all of us.
"So should we party again", Effy says in excitement. Her electric blue eyes shining with hunger. Hunger for the right to party and be crazy and wild.
"No." That's all I can say. I know she is disappointed but I need time to think about what is going on. I need time to figure out how we can get along. I just need peace and quiet so I can find out what David and Willow are thinking.
"But Rainy", She whines and hugs me. I look at her and she is giving me the puppy dog face. The one no one can say no to. But sorry to say I have to say no.
"Not going to work Effy", I say calmly. She goes back to her place with a sigh and a sad face. Sliding over to her I hug her tight and whisper in her ear, "I promise we'll do whatever you want tomorrow but right now I need to think."
She smirks at me which then turns into a smile. A huge smile, I can't remember the last time I saw that smile on her face. God how I missed her and all the times we had with one another.
"You're the best Rayne!" She hugs me with so much force she knocks me over. But I laugh right along with her knowing that tomorrow is going to be one hell of a party.
As I walk past Sky and Lilly they giggle. I smile to myself and curl up in my bed. With the blankets on I look around the room before I start to figure things out. Lilly and Sky both sit on Sky's bed reading with candles all around them. From my great eyesight I can see Lilly reading City of Bones by: Cassandra Clare and Sky reading The Bell Jar by: Sylvia Plath. I have to roll my eyes at Sky because that book is one of my favorites and Sylvia Plath is my favorite writer but Sky loves it and never buys her own copy and never tells me she's taking mine. So I always get a surprise when I go to read it and find it tucked under Sky's arm.
Effy is with Paul and Marko, telling jokes and being stupid. But they do it quietly so I can concentrate on what I'm doing. Dwayne is sitting on one of the couches quietly strumming my black acoustic guitar. Dwayne never has to ask me if he can borrow my electric or acoustic guitars because I know he will treat them right. He knows how much they mean to me. I look over at David and find him once again deep in thought and also checking in on what Willow is thinking. Perfect, that is what I needed him to be doing for this to all work.
Lastly I check on Willow. She sits alone on a red, dusty armchair with music blaring from her iPod. She looks so lost and anger and I want to know how I can make everyone happy and feel like they can trust everyone.
I know David will tell I'm reading his mind and Willow's but then again I know he will allow it and not tell anyone. David wants everyone as one just as much as I do and he knows I'm the one who has to piece together this crazy, messed up puzzle.
I hope David knows how much I miss him and love him and want everything to be fixed and I hope he still loves me.
Closing my blue eyes I let myself be carried away. Like a sailboat floating in the sea I drift into David's mind. First all I see is blackness but then everything comes together. A smile comes to me when I see he still loves me and has faith that I can solve everything. I also see him starting to like Effy a little more and starting to believe that she wants to help us. But I also see the rage he feels against Ash and how much he wants to kill him and anyone else who tries to take me away from him. Then I see how he is torn about Willow, he knows that when he truly trusts Effy that Willow will freak out and feel unimportant but he also doesn't want to lie to the group.
Darkness comes again as I leave David's thoughts and go to the part of his brain that is filled with Willow's thoughts. Right away I see how torn she is and how heartbroken she feels. She wants to hate Effy so bad as well as the rest of us but she can't fully no matter how anger she looks on the outside. She wants to be with us again and see also sees how Effy makes me feel and well as everyone else. Deep down she wants to trust Effy but she doesn't want to because she doesn't want to be tricked. To trust her and then be killed or hurt because she left her guard down and invited someone in.
I go back to David and thank him and tell him how much I love him. Without him I would not have been able to do this. I guess that's why he's been thinking all the time because he knows that I was going to do this.
I go to leave but David pulls me back into his mind and alls I see is him thinking of me. How he wants to hold me, kiss me, and make love to me again. I send back those same thoughts as a tear rolls down my face. He lets me go and when the darkness comes I sit there letting the darkness hold me tight as I cry silent tears.
I squint when I open my eyes and once I adjust I look over at David. He smiles at me, not a smirk but a smile. I smile back and blow him a kiss causing that smirk I love to show. We stare into each others eyes from across the room for a full minute then look away. Knowing that we still care for one another, that nothing can break us apart.
I lay back on my bed listening to my iPod and close my eyes. Greeted by the darkness once again. Where I think of my mother and how she would stay up with me all night. She loved the dark too so we would stay up listening to music doing whatever we wanted. I guess the main reason I like the dark is that it's like another mother to me. It makes me feel safe and protected just like my mother was. But I always have that feeling like she is still with me and protecting me not just with my necklace but in the dark as well.