Hey, sorry for the delay! I've been updating my other story Just Play the Melody but I like updating this one more. I told you, I love Yui and Hotohori. I'm sorry if the last one was such a cliffhanger. I didn't know you wanted them to do it so soon. Heck, I wanted them to do it soon too! But, you know, the best things can wait. Would there be lemon here? Probably…depending on my mood. *wink*

Thanks to leah_lover for the review in last chapter! :)

Disclaimer: Yui and Hotohori would never do the deed in the anime! So obviously, I made it up. Hope you enjoy reading it!

Chapter 5: I Will Hold Your Hand

By Slavedriver2008

Sex.

I don't know if it's normal for someone my age to think of the three letter word. I'm of legal age, by the way, and already in my senior year in high school. They say only adults should do it or even think about it. But when exactly was the right time? Some of my classmates have done it even before they reached 18—in the car, her parent's room, the kitchen table, on the stairs… Some would even do it in the girls' bathroom during breaks. I can sometimes hear them, two girls pleasuring each other inside the cubicle. Oh, Jounan was an all-girls school by the way.

Heck, Miaka's even doing it with Taka. Miaka had done it with Tamahome at the age of 15. But they're in a relationship and that fact somehow made it normal, common for a couple. I don't have a boyfriend so I'm not sure if it's normal for me to think of sex. But after Hotohori touched me three weeks ago, I can't stop thinking of him, fantasizing him doing to me what lovers do to each other privately. Of course I haven't told Miaka about Hotohori and what happened. How can I tell her when I can't even look at him in the eye after the incident?

It was not my fault he kissed me and touched me and left me wanting more. It was his cat's fault. But I couldn't look at him, can't be in the same room with him. It's as if there's something between us that burned if we get too close to each other. We both wanted it, I know, but should we do it? The irony of the situation was that we're not in a relationship. He's a prince, royalty, and I'm just his brother's tutor.

When Miaka and Taka engaged in, you know, that, I somehow knew it was out of love. She told me so herself when I asked her about it. Some would do so too. In my age, it was all about love, I guess. But if Hotohori and I were to do it, would it be for love? When exactly do people know if sex was out of love and when was it simply hormones talking? Were hormones behind that night when he forcedly touched me and made me feel so downright good? Or was it…something else?

Boushin didn't seem to notice what was between me and Saihitei but he reacts weirdly when we're together. He started to say things like It's hot or The air is burning. Was he doing that on purpose? I don't know. I don't want to know.

All I know was that when I look at him and our eyes locked, or when our fingers accidentally touched on the table during dinner, or when I smelled his newly-washed hair in the morning, I knew I wanted him to touch me. I wanted to make love to him. Bless Seiryuu, I wanted to sleep with a Suzaku sei.

I want him.

"Boshin will be going to Kyoto to stay with out grandparents until next week," my heart beat wildly when I heard Saihitei's voice. I turned to find him standing at the doorway of the reading room. I was looking out to the garden before he arrived, thinking of our situation. He no longer has that arrogant aura in him after that fateful night.

"Okay, I won't be coming next week then," I said plainly and I thought I saw him frown. I wanted to frown as well. I won't see him for, what? Two weeks? "The timing's perfect. I'm going to my doctor to have this removed." I was pertaining to my cast. It's finally been a month since I had the accident and since I started tutoring Boushin. One more month and I can skate again. Finally.

It also meant I have to stop tutoring. I sighed and looked out into the beautiful rose garden. I won't see him again after a month. I can finally put this nagging emotion to rest. I didn't know what I was thinking but my eyes widened when I felt him standing a few inches behind me. He's bridging the space, that space we placed after the incident in his room. I swallowed hard. We were alone. He placed a hand on the wall, a little above mine. He was closer than I thought. Oh, please let him say what he wanted to say.

"Yui…" He whispered my name and I blushed. He never called me by my name before. It was always Ms Hongo this and Ms Hongo that. I also realized one thing when he said it—his face was near my ear. I know so because I felt the warmth of his breath on my skin.

He raised his other hand and hesitantly touched my hair. I closed my eyes as his fingers brushed through the strands of my long locks. I let it hang down today, I forgot to tie it up. I swallowed hard when he lifted a few strands and raised it to his nose to smell it. He was flirting with me! I blushed at the thought.

"Are you going with Boushin to Kyoto?" I asked softly, my heart hammering hard in my chest.

"No," he whispered. I wanted to faint. He was hinting! Oh no! I turned red and I swallowed hard again. "Yui…" he started again. I held my breath.

"Are you busy next week?" I asked and he shifted. I wanted to slap myself for continuously cutting him but I don't know if I wanted to hear it. Damn, I was scared he might say something I don't want to hear. Or say something I wanted to hear.

"No, I'm not," he said softly. I wanted to turn around and kiss him. Really, it's the option that's been eating me at that instant: to kiss him and make love to him the whole night or to continue being aloof and cold to him. And of course, no sex. Ever.

I placed my hands together, they were cold and trembling. "Can you accompany me to the doctor?" I closed my eyes after I said it. I wanted to slap myself hard. What a foolish thing to ask!

"Yes, of course," he said and I couldn't control myself. I turned toward him and his eyes widened in surprised. But even so, he looked at me intently. There was no smirk on his face and I thought he should get rid of it. Permanently.

"Great…" I stammered. I was having a hard time breathing. "I…I needed to hold someone's hand when…" I swallowed hard as I looked into his deep hazel eyes. "…they take off my cast."

He smiled and looked away, as if he was ashamed to show me he was capable of smiling. I thought I'm going to faint. "Okay." He nodded then looked straight at me. "I will hold your hand."

"Great…" I said. I was probably blushing like hell. "I guess I'll just see you on Saturday…" We're going on a date! It's going to the doctor but that doesn't mean we can't go out together after, right? And he said yes. Oh, pathetic, I'm the one who asked. I sighed. It will forever go down in our history that I was the one who asked him first. Bugger.

"Yes, Saturday," he said and I almost melted in his eyes. He was staring into mine and I thought the whole world stopped moving for a while. A sound came from behind him and we both looked at the source of the sound. It was Boushin, standing at the door, looking at us with a wide smile on his lips.

I blushed. "I thought I'd say goodbye to Yui-chan before I leave for Kyoto," he said and Saihitei shifted.

"Very well. I'll go ahead," Saihitei said, his usual demeanor coming back. He looked at me and smiled. "I'll see you…soon," He said and I nodded, my eyes looking away.

"What do you want from Kyoto, Yui?" Boushin asked as my eyes followed Saihitei out of the room.

"Nothing really. My grandparents also live in Kyoto and they visit me once in a while to bring me things," I said and smiled at Boushin.

"So you have a date on Saturday, eh?" he noted and I blushed. "Don't go to crowded places. My brother easily gets mobbed in those areas." He winked and I felt my cheeks burn redder.

Oh my, he knows.

Author's Notes: Sorry, no sex here. But I think the part where they tried to control their emotions (and desire) for each other was equal to doing the deed. What? Not enough? Oh well, there's still next chapter. Enjoy reading!