I OWE YOU A BFA, as in a Big Fat Apology! I've had loads of coursework :( but I've finally done my english and my RS, I have some more in the tuesday but it can wait. Hope you enjoy it.
Edward's POV
"Edward get up!" Emmett shouted. I moaned, I didn't want to go to school today. I couldn't face Bella, or anyone for that matter, not after what she said.
"Get out of bed or we'll be late and trust me you don't want to be late today," Alice said. What was she going on about? She was in her own little world Alice. I got ready not caring what I looked like and got in my Volvo. We picked up Rosalie and Jasper along the way, who were soaking wet, which amused me. I made my way to school blocking out their conversations. I didn't get much sleep last night, I was mostly thinking about Bella. Today in Biology I was going to apologise to her and I would make sure that she would see me apologising to Angela aswell.
"Hey park next to that black car over there," Alice said as I was pulling into the parking lot. I looked at the car and saw someone on top of it.
"Is someone on top of it?" I asked.
"Yeah, it's Bella," I parked the car and saw her. She seemed to be concentrating on something, but what? So many questions unanswered! Why was this girl such a mystery? And why the hell did I like mysteries so much? The rain was falling onto her, although she didn't care, I think she liked it.
"Bella?" Alice asked. She had got out of the car and so did Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett. She opened her eyes and quickly jumped off of the roof. I stared at her, she looked beautiful with her pale skin and her black clothes, which suited her. The rain made her look even more beautiful. Alice was right, I didn't want to be late.
"You okay Bella?" Alice asked her. I started getting out of the car into the pouring rain. The others started to take cover from the oncoming torrent of water.
"Yeah, I'm fine, I erm like the rain," and it makes you look beautiful I wanted to say. I locked my car and headed to my first class, ignoring the urge to tell her my thoughts. Well I have and it's like someone ripping your fucking heart out and then setting fire to what's left I kept hearing these words in my mind, like a constant wheel of tape that couldn't be paused or fast-forwarded. I couldn't imagine the sort of pain Bella was going through. I yearned, though, to comfort her, to help her. I could at least try and heal one broken heart for all the others I have broken.
The morning went by in a boring, unmemorable phase and quickly lunch came. I chose some pizza, which looked like vomit stuck onto a piece of cardboard.
"Eddie! Heyyyy! You wanna take me out tonight?" Lauren said. Couldn't she leave me alone?
"Don't call me that Lauren," How many times have I told her not to call me that? Well I lost count, lets put it that way.
"Oh sorry, Edwarrdd, pick me up at seven okay?" So that's why she calls me Eddie, because she can't actually say my real name.
"Yeah, whatever, I gotta go," I quickly said. I was going to sit next to my mates from the football team, before Alice steered me towards yesterday's table.
"Come on, Eddie, stop sulking and sit with us," Alice said, doing a perfect imitation of Lauren's voice when she said Eddie.
"Sulking? I'm not sulking. What is there to sulk about?" I said.
"You're sulking about Bella again,"
"No I'm not,"
"Yes you are, and you haven't made-out with anyone today, so she's clearly having an effect on you," And with that she sat down next to Bella, who had another apple. Effect? What effect? I sat down and stared at my food, avoiding looking at Bella. If I did look her, which I did want to, she'd probably run away again.
"Hey Bella," I heard Emmett say.
"Hey Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, Alice," she paused for a moment, "Edward." They all greeted her back, but I didn't. She clearly hates me. I honestly hate myself aswell.
"So you wanna stay round after the party?" Alice said.
"Sure, why not?" Bella said smiling. It was a beautiful smile, but as soon as she did it she put her hand on her cheek, and she looked surprised.
"Yes!" Alice squealed again. Alice began ranting, like her usual self. I didn't know how Bella could cope, but she did and very well I might add.
"So should I have a fancy dress party?" Alice asked Bella.
"Erm, I dunno, do you normally have fancy dress parties?" The Cullens were famous for having the best parties within a hundred mile radius. Only important people were invited and a few of Emmett's friends came all the way from Seattle for the party.
"Well, I thought we could do something different for a change," Alice said. She always wanted them to be even better, more exciting than they already were. She couldn't throw a party that was worse than the last. That is just wrong, I imagined her saying.
"Okay, is there going to be a theme?" Bella asked. She was wearing a hat today instead of a hoodie that covered most of her face. Again she was wearing all black which definitely suits her. Hold on, haven't I already thought that?
"What about mythological creatures?" I'm sure Alice would have fun with that.
"Yeah, that sounds great," Bella said, she seemed happy. I wonder what she was thinking.
"I think you should be Big Foot, Emmett," Rosalie teased, although it would definitely suit him.
"Well I think you should be a mermaid," Emmett said. I'm sure that every other girl would dress as some sort of fairy slut. They would usual dress as slags but this time they had an excuse.
"Okay then Big Foot,"
"Okay then mermaid," In the end Alice decided to be Moricia from the Adam's family and Jasper Gomez. Me? Haven't decided yet.
"So what are you going to be?" Alice asked Bella. I wondered what she could be, maybe some sort of goddess.
"It's a surprise," Bella said, laughing. I kept staring at the table to stop myself from looking at her. My sister huffed when Bella ignored her and didn't reply.
"Alice?" I heard Bella ask. I looked at Alice, I think she just had a vision, her eyes always go to that funny blank phase.
"What?"
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah I just remembered that I forgot my Math homework, bummer," Alice lied. She never had the capability to lie. Lunch ended soon afterwards and I asked Alice about what she saw.
"Well, erm, I think it's best if I don't tell you," she answered and quickly ran off to her next class. What did she see? I went into Biology and Bella wasn't there. She came in a few moments later, she probably doesn't know the short way to the lab being a new student.
As she sat down she seemed to be deciding something. What? What are you deciding? Then as Mr. Banner began his lecture she finally looked decided.
"Okay class, the Red Cross is having a blood drive in Port Angeles next weekend, so I thought you should all know your blood type," I already know my blood type, I looked over to Bella and face turned ghost white. She had a horrified panic stricken expression. Bella couldn't be scared of blood that much, there must be something else. But what?
"Mr. Banner, I already know my blood type, please can I leave the class?" she quickly said.
"Are you feeling faint Miss Sparrow?"
"Yes sir,"
"Okay, Mr. Cullen, can you please take Miss Sparrow to the nurse," It was too late. She started hyperventilating and was slowly falling to the floor.
"Bella. Bella!" I said. She was shaking like I used when I had a panic attacks. I grabbed hold of her and she tried to reach her neck. Her neck must be burning, I got that aswell. The burning sensations. Panic attacks were the most horrific things I had ever been through. I placed her slowly onto the floor and she was blinking furiously as if she couldn't see anything.
"Can you hear me, Bella?" I said. I tried to say as calm as possible, although I had panic attacks, I'd never actually seen anyone else have one.
"Bella?" I asked her frantically. She suddenly went limp in my arms and her eyes closed. Thankfully, she was still breathing. All of this happened in only a few seconds, one minute she was fine, the next, unconscious. I picked her up slowly and headed to the nurse. I didn't really look at the other students who must of been in a little shock seeing me carrying Bella, who looked dead.
"Oh my," Ms Cope gasped as I entered the reception.
"She had a panic attack in Biology and then fainted," I explained. Ms Cope ran ahead of me to hold the door open to the nurse's door. The nurse looked very startled as I, well we including Bella, entered. After I explained to her what happened, she told me to wait until she woke up. I waited anxiously staring at her. I had grown out of panic attacks but I remember them vividly. Your chest begins to tighten making you breathe more frantically and then your neck starts burning as you lose every sense of control, every sense of feeling.
The nurse was waiting with me aswell, she looked worried, I'm sure she's never experienced something as serious as this. Maybe students with stomach aches or a sprained ankle, but unconscious students? No. Bella suddenly woke up and looked around wondering where she was.
"Take it slowly, Miss Sparrow, you just had a panic attack," the nurse explained to Bella. It was better if people knew that they had just had a panic attack, it helps. "I'll get you some water," the nurse said, which left myself and Bella alone in the room.
"Okay, I want to breath slowly through your nose. Not your mouth okay," I said. My father is a doctor and he used to tell me to do aswell. Gladly she took my advice and breathed slowly through her nose.
"Okay, now exhale very slowly," After a few minutes of doing that, she looked a lot better.
"How do you know what to do?" she asked me.
"I used to have quite a few panic attacks when I was younger,"I explained to her. She seemed satisfied and slightly glad for some reason. The nurse came in with the water ending our time alone.
"You feeling better?" the nurse asked her.
"Yes, thank you," I watched her as she sat up slowly and covered her face with her hands. I wondered what she was thinking. She stood up slowly but started to fall, so I quickly caught her and placed her back on the bed.
"Thanks," she said smiling slightly at me. Maybe she likes me? I thought in my too hopeful head. I quickly smiled back at her aswell. We made eye contact for a brief second but she looked down to the floor. She had strange eyes, empty of life and colour.
"Is it okay if you excuse myself and Bella from Gym?" I asked the nurse.
"Yes, of course, I'll tell Ms. Cope," the nurse left the room and came back with a wheelchair. Bella looked slightly disappointed and shocked as she saw it. I helped her onto the chair and wheeled her to the parking lot.
"Crap, my bag," she said.
"I'll go get it," I replied. I ran back to Biology only to receive questioning glares from my class.
"Is Miss Sparrow okay?" Mr. Banner asked.
"Yes, she's fine and I'm taking her home so I'll miss the rest of the class,"
"Oh, yes, that's fine," I picked up her bag and ran back to the parking lot, this time I wasn't going to look in her back, I'll probably take some more of her compositions and some of her drawings. I loaded her into my silver Volvo, my pride and joy, and started to drive her back to the Chief's house.
"What about my car?" She asked me.
"I'll get Alice to drop it off after school," I replied. Alice wouldn't mind, hmm Alice, I wonder what her vision was about. The car stayed silent until Bella broke it.
"Thanks for doing this," she said.
"No problem," Again an awkward silence fell over us.
"Look I'm really sorry about yesterday, I didn't mean to say what I did," she finally said.
"Sorry? What have you got to be sorry about? I'm the one who should be sorry," How could I be such a stupid male bictchwhore. Oh my god, I'm the male version of Lauren. I shuddered at the thought.
"It's just, I made it out that you were this big heart-breaker, but in fact you're not,"
"What do you mean I'm not?" What was she talking about? Of course I am. I'm just a living breathing life destroyer.
"Well, Angela, was kinda caught up in the moment when she saw you and Lauren, you know, making out, and I made out that you broke her heart, but you didn't,"
"Oh," I simply said. So I wasn't a bitchwhore?
"She's actually got a boyfriend now,"
"Oh, um, right," we had pulled up to the Cheif's house now. I got of the Volvo and took the wheelchair from the backseat. Wow, Angela got a boyfriend already? I was glad for her obviously, she wasn't my type. It was a little soon though, I mean a day? That girl sure moves on quickly.
"Can I try walking?" she asked.
"Sure," he said. She slowly got of the car and took a few steps. She seemed fine at first but slowly fell again. I saved her fall again and helped her the rest of the way. I sat her down on the sofa and I sat down in a comfortable looking armchair.
"So, you're going to our party?" I asked after a while of more awkward silence. I wondered what she will be.
"Yeah, I love parties, they help me forget all the bad things," she said, her face kept changing to different emotions, at first it was surprise then to anger and finally sadness. Tears began spilling from her eyes which quickly turned into a full on outburst of emotion. I quickly put my arms around her to comfort her. She began to sob at first quietly but then it got louder until she started to scream. It was as if she was just trying to get everything out of her, to rid herself of the pain. I held onto her even more tightly trying to keep her together. Even though she was beyond upset, it felt nice in her arms, like I belonged there. We held each other for an unanswerable amount of time, before she collapsed onto me. She must of been exhausted. I carried her upstairs and eventually found her room.
The room was light blue with a wooden floor and yellow lace curtains. I laid her slowly done onto her bed and laid down next to her. I took her warm hand in mine and made circles with my thumb. Could I ever be with her? I know I've only known her what, less than a day, but I felt this strange connection with her. I couldn't keep denying it, ignoring it. It was too overwhelming. I stared at her peaked ceiling, wondering about whether I could know her, whether she would tell me about her, whether I could tell her how beautiful she is.
After a while, I decided to take a look in her room, I know I was being nosy but come on, what other chance am I gonna get? I looked at all the pieces of paper on her desk, they were more compositions, I must remember to play the other I erm "borrowed".
"What the hell are you doing here?" I heard Bella say, I turned around and saw her standing next to the bed, holding something behind her back.
Hope you enjoyed it :D IT WILL GET BETTER!! I don't want to rush and make it all cheesy and boring and predictable.
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