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Chapter two - Expanding and Exploding
The next few days seemed endless, the sun was out illuminating the ground beneath it as the rays slowly burned away at the deep moss that covered everything in this town. For two days now I had attended school alone, Edward and Alice had spent there days away from the public eye, sparkling no doubt where ever they were. The only thing I looked forward to these days was seeing Edward in the late evenings, even Charlie was meant to believe they were hiking with the whole family so Edward couldn't come over till Charlie was fast asleep snoring as usual.
I had been so bored tonight, after speaking with Renee for hours on the phone about Edward, the wedding and school, I had decided to start my essay that wasn't in for another two weeks and somehow managed to finish it before even an hour was up. I lid on my bed, trying to think of something that would pass a little bit more time when I realized that with everything going on, I hadn't read anything recently. Picking up my old battered copy of Wuthering Heights, I opened the spine to let the pages fall open to the most read part of it, my favorite scene. I began reading and it wasn't long till my eyelids became too heavy for me to keep open.
I wondered through the forest, seeing but I wasn't meant to be there, I couldn't feel anything around me but I could see the cold in the air, the snow that blanketed the ground. I could hear strange noises just a little bit north of where I was at the moment and I stumbled forward to investigate. I heard the cracking of branches as a vampire was thrown into them, falling to the floor but taking some of the tree with him. His eyes were ruby red and his skin, although pale had a slight olive tinge to it. Obviously Spanish with his long thick brown hair tied back, he charged in front of me, completely ignoring my presences. Out of no where a big russet wolf appeared and the fight seemed to be everlasting. It didn't take a long time to realize that the large wolf was Jacob, my Jake. I panicked as I watched the russet fur being thrown backwards. All of a sudden the fight was over, the Jacob wolf threw him one last time but the Spanish vampire managed to wrap his arms around Jacob and crush him, I screamed but no one could hear me, I ran towards them but neither seemed aware of my attendance. "Jacob! My Jacob!" I screamed and I could feel the tears rolling down my face as I took in his mangled body. A slight breeze blew past me, everything around me blew slightly, shaking the cold white flakes off of them, still I could feel nothing. If I couldn't see the wind attacking the trees and bushes around me I would never of been aware of its presence. The vampires head snapped up, looking straight through me, I turned unwilling to see, what I hoped was not more of his kind. Two large wolves charged towards the vampire and before I knew it, the smaller sandy wolf was blocking my view. I fell down beside Jacob as he let out small puffs of air, breathing obviously a difficulty. "Jake, I'm sorry. Don't leave me" I whispered to him as my tears flew even faster down my face. "I need you" I let my hand drop on his chest but I seemed to pass right through him. I stared shocked, fixated on the dulling of his large dark eyes, watching as he fought to keep the light in them. "Jacob no… no Jake… please no" I was hysterical now, barely aware of the final large cracking sound that came from behind me, but I couldn't turn away, afraid that if I did he would be gone forever. A moment passed before I heard anything from behind me, suddenly two people I recognized bent down in front of me trying to wake Jacob up.
"Come on Jake, we need to get him out of here" Seth Clearwater spoke with urgency as he tried to move Jacob's arm causing a hissing nose to escape Jacob's chest.
"Jacob, you listen to me now, no way are you dieing and leaving me to deal with Sam, I wont allow it, so man up and deal with it so we can get you help." Leah Clearwater scolded him. Jacob was becoming so hard to see through my flooded eyes and I knew I was possibly wasting his last seconds crying but I couldn't seem to stop myself.
"Bella" a quiet familiar voice came, but I couldn't figure out where from. "Bella, wake up" his musical voice was filled with sadness and doubt as he called my name softy again. "Bella, its just a dream" a dream?
My eyes flew up and I jumped up in the bed, unable to find my breath. I stared unseeing towards my window, knowing that this felt different to a dream. Over the last few years, I had envisioned some strange things in my dreams, a few times they had been loosely translated in reality. My breath caught as I thought of that and a flicker of Jacobs mangled body exploded on my vision again.
"Bella, are you ok?" his musical voice came from behind me. I couldn't find the words, I couldn't make my mouth say what it needed to. Instead I just nodded in the negative and kept staring ahead. A moment passed and I heard a small sigh. "Would you like me to leave?" his voice was empty, hurt and it sounded like he was crying. That reminded me, I shot my hands up to my face and felt the watery streams down my face from where I had been crying in my dream. If I was crying it meant I was talking, if I was talking Edward had heard it. Oh crap! What did I say! "Bella, your starting to scare me love" I felt him move from the bed and move in front of my vision, taking both hands and securely wrapping them around my face. "Bella talk!" he insisted.
His features were lined in worry and I could see the fear that he was trying to hide. I just couldn't bring myself to say anything, I didn't have enough breath to breathe. I shut my eyes and the image of Jacob reappeared. No, this hadn't been a dream, it had been too real, too vivid to be a dream. My eyes betrayed me again and the tears flew without control down my face, my breathing spiking as I couldn't find the power to push the air in and out.
"Bella" he had given up all pretence of being fine, the fear ripped through his words as he started stumbling over his words. "What is it? Is it Jacob? Do you miss him? I heard you, what does that mean? Do you want me to go find him?" I opened my eyes and took in the pleading expression on his face, every line looked severely etched as if he was sixty not eighteen. "Bella, please love, just say it, I cant take this, what can I do to make it better?" his eyes flashed back and forth from my left to right, trying desperately for once to hear what was inside my head but as usual failing. His frustration took over and I could see his panic growing at an alarming rate.
I shut my eyes, I couldn't take his broken expression as well. I began to notice this strange feeling, pulling in my brain, pumping, probing and expanding. It wasn't just irritating but it was truly painful. I concentrated on it, trying to will it to stop, to get out of my head so that I could think straight for two seconds just enough to calm Edward down and figure out if my dream was a dream.
Four things seemed to happen at once. The pain stopped, all I could think was Jacob was dead, Edward gasped and my eyes flew open. His eyes grew large and he stared, fixated in shock at my face.
"Be… Bella… how did you" he gulped "do that?" what did he mean do that? Do what? I could finally feel my breath settling and I managed to push out enough air to form words.
"Do what?" I barely asked and he turned his head to one side.
"You don't know?" his eyes tightened and I could see him probing again at me. I shook my head slightly left to right. He pulled my face closer and leaned in "Bella, I heard you!" he stated. Wonder quickly replaced his confusion but only relit mine.
"In my sleep?" suddenly I felt my tears again, they were being to attack my barrier and I knew it wouldn't be long before they escaped. I ran through my dream, I remembered the things I was saying and how it must have sounded. "Edward I'm sor…" he cut me off before I could finish.
"Bella! I heard you! Not in your sleep but" he tapped his right index finger off of the top of my head and I instantly caught up with him. My eyes grew large as I took in his once again shocked expression.
"But … how?" I forced out.
"I… I don't know…" once again Jacobs cold mangled body appeared before me and the tears found there exit. "Bella don't cry, It was a dream, Jacobs fine." how did he know I was upset about Jacob, I looked at him questionably, he didn't need to read my mind to know what I was thinking this time. "You were talking about him in your sleep and then when I heard" awe took over and he started investigating my eyes "you… you were thinking Jacob is dead" the tears flowed more quickly and I started finding it hard to breathe again.
Edward was concentrating extremely hard and I knew he was looking for a way in again, the pain started up as I gazed back into his eyes and when I started feeling the expanding sensation again, I simply told myself to release. I watched as Edwards eyes grew larger and he moved closer to me, then I ran through snippets of my dream. If he could read my thoughts this was easily the way to do it. I started with the fight, then I showed the vampire crushing him, and I finally showed the void taking over Jacobs eyes as Leah and Seth Clearwater tried to move him. Edward gasped and his distraction caused a snap in my head. It almost felt as if someone had let an elastic band snap across my forehead and I jumped back from the pain, grabbing my forehead with both hands. He just sat there, staring at me. Shock. Awe. Pain. Curiosity. Different emotions passed across his face every second and I knew he was trying to figure out what had just happened as much as me. He watched me intently as I watched him, in the blink of an eye, he was right in front of me, tightly wrapping his arms around me.
"Bella, it was just a dream… but that wasn't in my imagination… was it?" the puzzled expression was actually very endearing. It wasn't often Edward looked so unsure of himself and I knew he was completely lost in theories. "We should go see Carlisle" he spoke softly and I nodded.
Before I knew it we were running through the forest, I was tightly holding on to him but my mind was still stuck on the image of Jacobs unmoving body. I didn't even realize how long we had been running or where we were before he had sat me down on the steps of the large white entranceway. Maybe Edward was right, maybe it was just a very vivid dream and nothing more, if that was the case then Edward hearing my thoughts was a big deal and I should really be concentrating on that. I took a deep breath. "What can I do?" he asked. I gazed up at him as I stood up, a small shrug left my shoulders as I turned for the door.
He reached in front of me and opened it. All the Cullen's were in the living room, all doing there own things.
"Edward, isn't it passed Bella's bedtime?" Emmett called in mock horror as he jumped off the couch and walked towards us at human speed. I couldn't find the power to shoot something back at him, instead I just stared right at him expressionless. I watched as concern rewrote his expression and he sped up and looked at Edward. "What the heck did you do to her?" he growled. Suddenly all of them were walking with caution towards me.
From the corner of my eye I saw Edward shrug but he never took his eyes from me. He placed an arm around my shoulder, trying to capture my attention. "Bella…" he waited but I couldn't make a response leave. The more I tried to be ok, the worse I felt, what if Jacob was lying somewhere dieing and here I was acting as if I had known nothing. I couldn't do it.
"Jesus Edward, what the fuck happened to her" Jasper fell to his knees beside me, his face cupped in his hands. His breathing was sketchy, his voice breaking on every word. I had never heard him use such language and apparently no one else was use to it either as they all looked down at him, shocked.
"Try to calm her Jazz" Edward yelled as he read Jaspers evaluation of my emotions, I had never heard his voice so panicked before.
"I'm trying its not working…she's in too much pain" Jaspers voice broke on the last word again and I was suddenly aware of multiply hands on my body. I heard my name in all different voices but I couldn't concentrate.
"Everyone back away from her" Carlisle said walking over and taking my face in his hands. "Alice go get my bag please" his eyes were so close to mine now that I couldn't see anything but him. "Bella, look at me" I had thought I was looking at him. His tone was so relaxed I found myself starting to relax with it. "Start from the beginning, Edward every detail."
"When I got to hers, she was asleep" his voice started off slow but started to get faster and more emotion as he spoke. "She started tossing and talking in her sleep… mainly about Jacob" I watched as Carlisle took in what that meant, or at least what they all though it meant. "Then she started crying, hysterical and begging Jacob not to go" Rosalie shot me a livid expression as she thought I was finally picking Jacob over Edward. "The she woke up, like this" he waved his hand towards me. "I didn't really get any thing out of her until…" he cut off leaning in closer to me and stroking the top of my head.
"Until what?" Esme asked, sadness lined every letter.
"I heard her" Edward said tapping my head again. Carlisle jumped back, pulling his hands from my face and looking at Edward. There were multiply gasps and hands being flung over mouths.
"What did you hear? Any indication to what is wrong?" Carlisle asked suddenly. As Edward went to answer I thought of the words I never wanted to hear and somehow they managed to bubble out of my mouth.
"He's dying, maybe dead…" I let trail off. My eyes were still focused on the same spot even though Carlisle was gone. "Jacob" I whispered as the tears spilled over and streamed down my face.
Everyone was silent for a long moment.
"Bella, how do you know this?" Alice was suddenly in front of me asking.
"I…I saw it" I manage to let out in between sobs.
"She saw it?" Alice's eyes were intent on Edwards face. "Like a vision?" more gasps erupted.
For the first time tonight, Edward finally agreed that the dream felt too real. "Alice it was like reading one of your vision, it didn't feel like a dream" he said quietly, hoping not to upset me again. Everyone's eyes snapped to mine.
I felt the pressure building again, but it was more painful this time. I lost feeling in my legs and dropped, sitting on the floor, I pulled my knees towards my body as I rocked slightly back and forward. My hands climbed to my head, squeezing tightly trying to stop the expanding feeling that was now attacking every nerve in my head. I started banging the palm of my hand to my head, hoping to numb whatever it was that was causing so much pain.
"Carlisle do something" Jasper screeched and I knew he could feel the pain as his own hands grasped his head. Alice threw herself towards him trying to help him, pinning his hands away from him.
"What's happening?" Carlisle said as Edward gripped my wrists, and pulled them behind my back.
"It feels like my head is going to explode" I said through clenched teeth "Get Jasper out of here" I shot out in my last huff of breath.
"Get her upstairs" Carlisle commanded of Edward.
Before I knew it I was being placed down on Edwards bed. He was still restraining me as Carlisle leaned in over me with a torch and shined it in my eyes. "Bella can you hear me?" I nodded in response.
"This wasn't that bad that the last two times…" Edward trailed off and I noticed that I was beginning to be able to think around the pain again.
"I think I should sedate her" but it sounded more like a question. I heard Edward sigh and although I wasn't looking at him, I could feel his panic. Carlisle stared at Edward waiting for his permission, but before it was given my mind went blank and I felt like my head was being pulled back. My body arched off of the bed and I heard Edward cry out in pain as he took in my body convulsing.
"HOLD HER DOWN" Carlisle screamed. For the first time ever, I witness Carlisle loosing his calm composure as he turned to get something out of his bag. Although I was fitting, I could still make out certain things happening around me, as if my mind was slowing down. Within half a second of Carlisle command, I felt Edward's hands tighten across my arms as he pulled me deeper into the bed, Emmett's hands forced my legs down straight and Rosalie used both hands to push my stomach down while Esme's cold hands felt like heaven as she placed them on my forehead, keeping my head secure. A flash burning sensation flew through my head, causing me to lose my control and I let out a blood curdling scream. The pain was just too much…