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Week 2

"The Plan"

Since my last entry, I have decided to work on a plan to see Remus again, and to make him trust me. I realize of course that this is only the second week of this year, but that's okay. My plan is quite easy to follow really. It consists of joining the Order of the Phoenix (which I was planning on doing whether or not I had feelings for Remus). I will then take assignments with him and get to know him better. If this last part fails I will just hang around Sirius until he knows me quite well...I am a genius.

In other news, Dumbledore has announced a special invitation to all those who he believes would be able to help with the Order when it is so new. For example, Sirius is first and foremost Harry's godfather and secondly, he has the headquarters in his house; and Remus for his strong bonds with Sirius and Harry, along with the fact that he is a werewolf...and many others have been recruited for the cause. There is a meeting next Friday for all those who want to join the Order and I intend to go. Although, Sirius is still on the run, he is for the time being safe at Hogsmeade for the time being. The Order is planning to make Grimmauld Place a safe house for him so he will be able to come and stay there by at least the summer time. And to think all this information came from Molly Weasley...God Bless that woman. She always brightens my day when she gives me little bits of information like that.

Well, this was fun...I could get used to writing in this journal every week. It's definitely relaxing and it makes for a wonderful companion to share my secrets and my schemes. I cannot wait until next Saturday, but yet again I have a very busy week a head at work, for I have been away for 10 days; so wish me luck.

Week 3

The meeting

The meeting was great!! Remus came in late (although he didn't miss much), and he sat right beside me. Whether it was an unconscious act or that he really wanted to sit beside me, I couldn't really tell right then; however, at the end of the meeting most of the new members of the order went home, Molly Weasley made supper and a few members stayed to have a nice cooked meal. The person of interest that stayed was, of course, Remus. He had told Dumbledore that he would be able to help out in things where ever he could. Dumbledore had to leave shortly after this comment, to bring news to the other members of the Order that weren't able to make the meeting, such as some of the teachers at Hogwarts.

As Molly was cleaning up and insisting that she didn't need any help at all, Remus moved into the next room, in which instinct took over and I followed him to make my move. He walked casually over to the couch, to read the daily paper; before he got a chance to I sat beside him and said:

"Hi...I haven't seen you in a couple weeks, how've you been?"

"Hello Nymphadora. It's good seeing you here..." Remus said trailing off, and then I realized he had said my given name. No one calls me Nymphadora! (Although as an after thought the way he said it made it sound pretty, almost poetic.)

"Don't call me Nymphadora!! Please...it's just Tonks" I said, although i shouldn't have said anything.

"Alright, Tonks it is then. Is there something I can help you with?" He asked

Of course there is, I want to get to know you better...you know, trust, friendship, love...we need to go in order I thought

"No, I just wanted to say Hi, and to say thank you for the journal you delivered 3 weeks ago...you didn't have to...and I guess I was just wondering if you wanted to go for some coffee, or, or tea?" I stumbled...that's it; this is stupid...If I wasn't so attracted to him for some reason; this would be so much easier to say...stupid, stupid, stupid.

"That's very kind of you Tonks, but I've a very long day...I'm sorry. I really am, now if you'll excuse me." Remus replied as he stood up.

As he stood up I stood up with him as continued to try to fit in a plea as to why he should come with me for a cup of tea or something...just so we could talk...talk to me please.

"Well, do you want to go for a walk, then?" I quickly tried. He spun around and come very close to me. He put the paper on the couch and put his hands on both sides of my arms as he replied.

"You're just like your cousin, you know that? He was always looking for something to do, he got bored so easily, and he still does. But my answer is still no." He then picked up the paper and went walked into another room.

As he walked away I remember hollering to him... "How about tomorrow?"

I remember his reply...it was once again a no. Well to be truthful, he is really quite sweet, and he is very kind; but how can he say that I am like Sirius? I will get to know him. The week leading up to this, there really wasn't anything of interest happening...a couple hexes at the ministry, oh and it started raining in someone's office...that was funny, but other than that...nothing of interest happened, except for tonight, of course.

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