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Week 22
My Nightmare
It's now the second week of June now, and word has just gotten out that Cedric Diggory had been murdered and that Lord Voldemort has come back. Cedric's poor father, whet ever will he do without Cedric. He was his only son. Hogwarts is in an uproar, along with all the parents. Remus is livid about the whole situation. We have not heard from Sirius for almost 2 months, which makes me very worried. Remus got an owl from Dumbledore saying that he should prepare his house for a visitor. I wonder who it would be. Anyway the visitor should be here by next week; the visitor has to take the long way around next week.
An order meeting has been called for next Friday night after Hogwarts gets out for the summer. Poor Harry, he had to see Cedric be murdered at the hands of that evil man. Sirius must be nearly ready to kill Voldemort. This has to be a horrible week. All I can think about is fear. This has become my life now. Fear. I do not like how this week is turning out. On Saturday night, I ended up a sleep at Remus' apartment because I was too scared to go to my own apartment for the night. Remus told me that I could stay there as long as I liked. I think I might take him up on that one. He gave me the bed and I told him that we could share, but there would be none of that apparently; so Remus slept on the couch. In the middle of the night however I woke up to my own screams. Remus must have heard me because he was there trying to calm me down. I asked him with tears in my eyes if he would stay with me, and let me fall asleep in his arms. He agreed, and I feel asleep in his warm strong arms. I wish I could write more, but I do not have the words to describe how I feel right now.
Week 23
The Devil you know
Monday
Okay, so I'm still trying to get over the initial shock that the devil himself is back and he is raising hell single handedly. Ever since we got word that Voldemort is back, everything is a blur. Our surprise visitor was Sirius Black. He went to Remus' house, but since the house is still being watched by the Ministry, so we took Sirius to my apartment to stay until this Friday night. This week went by slowly; we are all still really shock up. The Ministry won't believe the word of a 15 year old boy and the headmaster of Hogwarts, which is a shame. All those who are on Dumbledore's side and believe him, have been asked to come to a meeting on Friday. Now we will see how many there will be at this meeting.
For the rest of the week I have been screaming in my sleep. Apparently I have been screaming my father's name, and am begging someone NOT to kill him. I don't remember saying any of it, but it happened I guess. I always wake up crying now, so every night I now fall asleep in Remus' arms. It feels so right, when I do that, it's very awkward for Sirius I know, to see us both together that close, but he's extremely happy that Remus has a love life, and that he's not going after "Intangible girls" as Sirius calls them. It feels good it have Remus and Sirius back in my apartment. It's like my family's back together. I know that it sounds horrible that I am happy when all this chaos is going to happen. I know that something bad is going to happen now that he's back. I just don't know how far he'll go and that's what bothers me the most.
On Friday the meeting went very well. Most of the people, who were there, were in the last Order, and there were lots of new faces as well. Ron Weasley was there, and he brought an extremely attractive young lady who had bushy brown hair. I swear those two will end up married one of these days. Mrs. Weasley passed along Charlie's message that I should write him more because he has something important to tell me. 'Oh Charlie'. How thy love you like a brother. Nothing much was discussed in the meeting, Dumbledore just wanted to see how many people would show up if he asked us to do something at short notice and he was quite happy with the turn out. Also, we all promised Dumbledore that we will not breathe a word of the Order to Harry. After the meeting, like he always does now, he went over to Remus and I and said:
"Love during such dangerous times is hard. If this war does not pull you both apart, it will make you stronger. But I think you'll both be happy in the end."
And then Dumbledore left without saying another word. I often wonder if he had ever loved during a dangerous time and lost. Oh well. I'll ask later. So this has been my interesting week in the life and times of Nymphadora Tonks.