A/N So hey guys!! Thanks to everyone who reviewed and alerted my story! This chapter is going back to Bella's Pov but it might switch to Edwards once in a blue moon or when I feel I need to tell things from Edwards point of view. So did you like the last chapter, so just to clear it up, it was Edward who crashed into Bella's parents, it was his fault as he wasn't looking where he was going. So another Paramore song in this chapter!! Yay Lol x If anyone has questions feel free to mail me or you can add me on MSN or Yahoo :D So this is a really BIG long chapter so enjoy! :D
Disclaimer : I don't own twilight! But a girl can dream can't I ?!
Previously : BPOV
I squeezed my eyes shut but that image of my mum stayed in my head. She cant die. The room started to spin round as air wasn't getting into my lungs everything went black.
EPOV
You cant be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you…
Then there was a car horn blaring loudly, coming closer. Fear flooded my body as I looked up. A car was heading straight for me. I was going to crash straight into a car. I slammed on the brakes, then everything went black…
BPOV x
I lay sobbing beside my mum clutching her hand. She's left me, she's gone. Uncontrollable tears cascaded down my cheeks as the truth slowly but surely sank in. I can even begin to imagine life without my mum. She was my best friend, mum and rock all in one. She was always there for me when I needed her. She used to help me with everything, she would cheer me up whenever I was down. We done everything together but now, it was all gone. It was as though half of me had died along with her. Her hand was steadily going colder but I couldn't bear to leave her side, I didn't want her to be left alone in here. She hated hospitals too so I if I left her I would be betraying her.
I looked at her, she looked so peaceful with all the tubes and wires gone. Her face was still bruised and cut. Her hair had started to curl a bit. I could just imagine her saying Oh god look at my hair! I smiled through my tears. My mother was always smiling even in the worst times, like when we had to go hungry for a while she made a joke out of it, trying to lighted the mood. She never let the fact that we didn't have much money stop her from doing anything she wanted. I must have fallen asleep because I was gently shook awake. I sat up my head swimming. Dr Cullen came into view as my eyes adjusted.
"Bella, I'm sorry but you should go home now. I'm so sorry for your loss. Can I give you a lift home?" I nodded, not trusting my voice. My eyes were so puffy and sore. I bet they were red too. I shifted my weight to get off when something frozen fell into my hand. It was my mums hand. Even in death she wanted to hold my hand. I grasped it, tears falling down my cheeks. I kissed her cold cheek goodbye and started to walk away.
Memories flooded my brain, ones of when she had held me tight when I was scared, when she was there for me. Why am I just leaving her, I cant leave her she wouldn't have left me. Dr Cullen gently guided me out.
The car ride home from the hospital was quiet. I couldn't stop crying as we drove away from the hospital, away from my dead mum and my dying dad. My whole life was in that hospital and here I was leaving it behind. Dr Cullen pulled up at my house.
"Bella before you go, if you want to talk I'm here. In a few days your dad goes in for the surgery. I want you to stay home and don't come to the hospital. I will phone you to tell you how the surgery goes okay. Again, I'm so sorry" Dr Cullen said sympathetically. I nodded not trusting my voice.
I stumbled into the house and I headed straight to my bed where darkness engulfed me.
A/N I was going leave it here but then I though.. Nah! I cant do that!
Four miserable days had passed. I wouldn't know it had past if it wasn't for the fact that Dr Cullen phoned my once a day to make sure I was okay. He was so nice and caring. I was sitting by the phone impatiently waiting on Dr Cullen phoning. My dad was going in for major surgery today but the surgery was supposed to finish 3 hours ago but Dr Cullen still hadn't phoned. Had something went wrong, I would die if my dad died to. Life would be meaningless without him. I simply couldn't lose him too. Right now, my dad was the only reason I wanted to live. My stomach growled loudly but I wasn't going to move in case I missed the phone. There was a funny feeling in my gut, like something was going happen…
Bring! Bring! Bring!
I looked at the phone absolutely terrified. I answered and waited with baited breath.
"Hello is this Isabella Swan?" a bored voice said. I cleared my throat.
"Yes"
"Well" she sighed slowly "In surgery, your dad had a heart attack, the doctors battled to save him.."
"NO!" I screamed cutting her from saying the words. I hurtled my phone at the wall breaking in into pieces. "NO, NO, NO, NO!!" I screamed crying hysterically. He cant have left me, he cant, Why has this happened, I cant live without them. I need air. I flung on my shoes and walked out of the house with no intentions of coming back for a while. I zoned out as I walked so I was shocked to come to, in La Push. I looked around and seen huge white cliffs. I walked to the biggest near the edge and sat down. Here the tears flowed freely.
"Why God, why did you do this to me? I was never bad, not much. My parents were good people. Why did you take them from me. Did you need good people? Why couldn't it have been me. Will you swap them for me. They were in love, they deserve to live. I don't." I cried to the wind who carried my secrets away and keeping them to itself. It was so peaceful up here. I watched the birds flying about the sea. There was a baby seagull, learning to fly. Two other birds, I'm guessing its parents where squawking it in encouragement. Then the bird took off with a flap of its wings it soared into the air its parents right beside it.
My heart ached watching them, more tears began to fall. Why cant they be here? I got up and began to walk away then stopped. A song began to run through my head.
And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom
The last line ran through my head over and over again. If they cant be with me. I will be with them. I took a few steps back and faced the edge of the cliff. I sighed then ran toward the edge. Everything went in slow motion as I jumped. Then I heard it.
"NOOOOOOOOOOO! DON'T JUMP!!" someone screamed.
I hurtled down the cliff, the wind painfully whipping my hair sharply around my face. My eyes streaming because of the wind. The ocean was still a bit away even though I was falling fast. I thought back to that song.
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom.
So true. Then suddenly someone was there, hurtling down to the sharp rocks that jutted out of the water with me. Someone was going to die with me.
"Close you eyes" they whispered to me. I shut my eyes as I felt their arms close around me as we hit the bottom together…
A/N Omg so exciting !!! So who do you think flung themselves off the cliff with Bella?? Please leave answers in reviews!
So that song is Paramore - Turn it off. The lyrics were so perfect for that chapter don't cha think! So I want your thoughts and feeling on this chapter. This chapter sucks, I couldn't think what to write. Sorry! So please leave reviews! I will give you a cyber cookie that Edward and Jacob made especially for all my reviewers !! If you want a virtual cookie leave a review !! Thanks I love you all!
-Louise x3