Still not any closer to owning anything
A/N: sorry it's short, the next one will be longer and it will be happier...I promise :)
Week 42
Charlie's Departure
So this week is the last week that Charlie would be in England, so I decided that I would take Charlie out for dinner(as a thank you for indulging me when he and I went across the country looking for Remus and Sirius) on Friday night then I would see him off to the train that night. Charlie liked this idea, so all week I waited for Friday night to come. I was also taking Charlie out for another reason, this week was a full moon week, and Remus has yet to come home. Besides the letter that Remus sent me last week, I have no idea if I can do anything to help him in any way.
All week I waited for Friday to come so I could finally get my mind off of Remus. By the time Friday, I had received a letter from an owl that I did not recognize, so I left it on the table until I could get back home after dinner with Charlie. By the time I left, I looked at the table one more time before leaving.
Charlie and I went to a small cafe around the corner from my apartment. We talked about old times and who was dating who from Hogwarts; and where our friends were now living in Europe. After Dinner Charlie and I met his parents at the train station, where Charlie was going back to Romania to work with beloved dragons; Charlie hugged his parents and kissed my check and went onto the train.
When I got back to my apartment the letter was still on my table where I had left it. I walked over to the table and picked it up to read it. Then I walked over to my couch and sat down to read it.
Dear Nymph,
It is the full moon tonight and I miss you dearly. I know that I broke your heart and I know that it will take a long time for us to get back to where we were before this all happened. I would like to continue this relationship when I get back home. I will be coming home to Grimmauld place later next week.
Yours truly
Remus Lupin
Oh Remus.... I thought as I crinkled up the letter and threw it out. With reading the letter I went to bed and decided that Charlie always brings along the best news, and that he really should spend more time in England.
The next day I spent most of my time doing reports for work and going over reports to be submitted to higher ranking people than myself.
End week.
Week 43
Just Friends??
Since Charlie left on Friday night and Remus still isn't at Grimmauld Place my life is actually quite boring for the moment, but I'll take boring any day compared to what my life was and is probably going to look like after this week. All this week Dumbledore has been sending me owls asking about Ministry appointments and Molly keeps sending me owls telling me that Remus got home to Grimmauld Place safe and sound; and while I am quite happy that he is in one piece and is doing well, but I really don't want to deal with Remus right now...I can't deal with Remus right now. I still love him and he left me heartbroken and now I'm supposed to put on this front in front of everyone, pretending that were friends when we were once lovers, I can't do that right now. I can't just appear in Grimmauld Place and pick up where we just left off I can't. So, I'll spend the whole week as an anti social witch with no want to go out.
This week wasn't so bad, it actually reflected my life this time last year; last year I was awarded the certificate as a joke from Shacklebolt as cautiously optimistic and casually clumsy. By Saturday, my almost perfect week was cut short by server heart ache brought on by Remus dropping by. Here's how it went:
Ding Dong—
I got up from the couch and put my book back down on the coffee table. I accidentally hit the garbage can as I walk over to the door. I blindly open the door and see Remus holding the door casings. He looked older than I remember him and the edges of him are tattered and torn. My eyes wander to the shape of his cloths and the condition of his shoes. My eyes eventually wander back up to his face.
"Hi" I say hoarsely.
"Hi." He replied.
I looked at him awhile as we stayed in the door way.
"Are you going to invite me in?" Remus finally asked.
"No." I answered back.
"Nymph, Can't we just be friends?" Remus asked another question.
"No, we can't...And it's Tonks." I replied as I closed the door and locked it, I put my back to the wall and I slid down to the floor and I started crying.
God, I wanted him back. I wanted him back so badly it hurt.
He stood on the other side of the door for a long time afterwards and he eventually left with a great and heavy sigh.
End of week... (Tear drop)