A/N Haha, just realised I made a mistake on that last bit of the chapter =) Sorry haven't updated in like? 3 days? School has started again so I cant update as much as I would like too. I will try my best! Also I have another few stories I'm working on!! Please go and check them out!! xxx
Previously : Standing at my door was Autumn. She smiled at me before entering. She went straight to Edwards room. Hours later she still hasn't left. Maybe Alice is wrong. Maybe this wont work. He wont get jealous if he has a girl. I sighed and shut the door before going upstairs.
"Hey Bella, are you coming hunting?" Alice asked me winking. I sighed.
"No" I smiled apologetically. I wanted to but I can stand the sight of her and Edward sucking each others face off. It had been 3 months, 3 god damn months since Autumn showed up at our house and she hasn't left. I sighed as everyone got their bags together.
"But Belly button, we are going out of the country we are going to The Amazon! The Amazon, do you know what kind of animals live there?! So many different tasting animals that you cannot taste" she sniffed in disproval. I raised an eyebrow at her and she burst out laughing.
"Okay, okay! Its not that big a deal but I wish you were coming." She pouted. No way was I going.
"I'm staying here! Nothing can make me change my mind!" I said firmly. Nothing.
"I'm also staying" said Autumn as she descended the stairs holding Edwards hand. I looked at Edward and he looked straight at me. In that moment, I realised I actually love him. Was it love? Am I just jealous? My emotions are so fucked up but im positive its love. When I look at him, I feel fluttery. Like nothing else really matters except him and me. Butterflies swarm around in my stomach and I feel myself get all warm. When he looks at me, an instant smile appears on my face. Jasper suddenly whirled around and looked at me. Oh shit!
"I'm coming!" I cried jumping up. Autumn's eyes began to tear up. I instantly felt bad as everyone frowned at me.
"Kidding" I laughed meekly. Everyone rolled their eyes and got ready to leave.
"Alice really" Carlisle sighed looking slightly bemused.
"Yes! I need it all" she cried in mock horror. Jasper chuckled at her.
"Yes she does need it all" Jasper smiled. Alice beamed back at him before fixing her suitcase. Jasper and Alice are so stupid! They quite clearly are made for each other and they are too shy to ask each other out. When they get back I'm so setting them on a date. I smiled thinking about it. Jasper frowned at me wondering why the sudden change in emotions. I shook my head and kept smiling.
"Bye Eddie, miss you already" Autumn sniffed flinging her arms around Edward. I looked away as he looked at me. He hugged her back. For a moment I saw hesitation in his eyes. No I must be seeing things.
"Bye Bells" He said slowly. I shrugged my shoulders.
"Bye" and I went over to Jasper. What was that I felt I mouthed. Love he mouthed back at me. I stared at him. I bit my lip and rushed upstairs to shower. Wallowing in my emotions I began to sing All I wanted.
Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame I'm a dream
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs
That escaped from my mouth
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
I could follow you to the beginning
Just to relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
At all of our favorite parts
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
At the end of the song I shut off the water and got out wrapping a towel securely around my body. I walked to my room wondering what Autumn was doing. Autumn. There is something about her. I get this horrible feeling when she looks at me and she is too…perfect? She is always coming out with the weirdest stories that always make her look good. Everyone had fallen under her spell. Except me. She is so creepy. I told this to Alice when Autumn was out and she laughed at me. Everyone thinks she is so sweet and innocent but I don't think she is. I think she is dark, sinister and mysterious. When questioned about her past she would start babbling on about something completely off the topic. Something was not right but everyone thinks she just had a bad childhood, that might be true. I didn't even know I was in my room when I gasped. My prop bed had been slashed to pieces. Feathers covered every inch of my room. All my furniture had been destroyed and was lying in big chunks all over the place.
"What the fuck happened?!" I cried to myself.
"I don't know" came Autumns voice in mock surprise. Rage burst in my and I flew at her grabbing her by the throat and throwing her up against the wall. She didn't even try fight back.
"Why did you do this to my room?!" I shouted in her face. She laughed her eerie laugh.
"Listen you, you stay away from Edward I don't want you near him! I want you to leave this house right now! Go and never come back" she snarled.
"Will I fuck!" I hissed.
"Then I will make you" and she pushed my away. Then she ripped her t-shirt a little. She began to pull out some of her hair and scratched her legs leaving long red marks that I know would fade soon enough. She whipped out her phone and dialled Edwards number. I watched confused.
"Edward help me! Bella is attacking me!" She screamed down the receiver. I gasped and pounced at her and smashed her phone to pieces. The little bitch!
"How dare you! You lying little cow!" I screamed at her. I flew at her and grabbed her arm ready to rip it clean off. She punched me in the face and I went flying backwards. The wall gave way as I smashed into it. I flew back up as she ran downstairs. I ran after her and slammed into her. She stood there as I grabbed her. Suddenly huge hands clamped themselves around me.
"Bella STOP" Edward shouted. I looked around. Everyone was staring at me in horror. I opened my mouth to speak but Autumn got there before me.
"She attacked me! She said that you were hers and that I was to leave and never come back." Autumn dry sobbed into Edwards chest.
"No! She told me that and started ripping her clothes and hair. She has destroyed my room and a few walls" I shouted. I felt calm waves hit me but they bounced of off me. I felt the arms release me.
"That didn't happen" I whispered tears filling my eyes. Edward glared at me and I shrank back afraid.
"You are lying. She has showed me what happened. I seen it in her mind. Even if i hadent seen it i would believe her. You are a compulsive liar. I wouldn't believe you if my life depended on it!" I felt my mouth fall open and my breath came out in a whoosh. She cant have!
"Leave" He whispered. Esme smiled at me reassuringly. I couldn't heard them so I'm sure they went out of hearing distance.
"Bella" he began in a hard voice. "I will never be yours. I cannot believe you attacked her! What the hell were you thinking?!" he was shouting now.
"You had no right to hit her!" he screamed.
"That didn't happen!!" I screamed. "She attacked me!!"
"NO!" his voice like thunder "You are jealous! That's what it is. That all you had to say." He smirked. How dare he think I was jealous!
"No I am NOT!" I hissed.
"You are so, that why you have been doing all of that shit! Trying to make me jealous." he laughed.
"No! I was doing that because I was getting you back for-" I screamed but he cut me off.
"For what!" he yelled in my face "Killing your parents" he scoffed. "I never killed them they smashed into me! They basically killed me." The tears that filled my eyes blurred my vision. How did this conversation end up on my dead parents.
"You killed them." I whispered.
"I didn't and with a psychotic cow like you, I'm sure they would thank me if I DID kill them. I wish you were never born. I wish you had never crashed into me. I wished I hadn't had to save your ass. I wish I had never met you." he screamed. At these words, all my emotions were gone. Numb.
"You don't mean that" I whispered at a loss for words.
"No? I SWEARI MEAN THAT! YOUR PARENTS ARE BETTER OF DEAD." He screamed.
"NO! NO! NO!" I screamed pounding his chest with my fists.
"If it wasn't for me, you would also be dead! Remember Peter and Ross! You owe me! This is how you re-pay me?! Attacking my girlfriend?! The past few weeks you have treated me like shit! I will never want you and never will, Bella" He spat at me.
"Fuck you, I HATE YOU!" I screamed. His hand went flying into the air and crashed down on my cheek. I felt my face jerk to the side. He hit me. I gasped and touched my cheek. Edward froze.
"I'm sorry Bella." he whispered coming at me. I ran. Forests flew behind me as I ran and ran. Tears that wouldn't fall clouded my vision. I had been running for an hour when I stopped and collapsed to the ground dry sobbing. How could he say that? Is that what he really feels about me? I'm a mistake? He doesn't want me. Sobs clawed their way out of my throat. I let it all out. My cries echoed against all the tree's sending birds squawking.
He doesn't want you Bella.
He only saved you because he took pity on you.
He wants you dead.
He will never love you.
You are still the same girl he saw in school. Ugly and useless.
"WHY!" I screamed to the wind. Why did he not believe me. I don't blame him she is conniving and sweet. I know what my feeling for him was. Turns out he feels the exact opposite. I cannot believe that I let myself fall in love. After all he did to me, and I love him. Loved. I wish I was never born. I wish I never met him. I WISH Peter and Ross killed me. I sniffed. I then caught smell of the sweetest lilies. Everything in my mind went blissfully blank. I sniffed even more and got to my feet. Leaves were tangled in my hair and mud is smeared on my face but I don't care. I followed the scent that was mixed in with fresh dirt. The smell became strong and I saw them. Lilies. I froze realising where I am. The cemetery. An unpleasant shiver ran through me as I opened the gates. I followed the scent until I came to a stop. A man was sobbing laying down on a graveyard. This mans heart was clearly breaking like mines. I felt sympathetic for him. I couldn't see the name on the grave but I didn't want to, I felt like I was intruding on an private moment.
"Are-" I cut off not wanting to disturb the man. He had chocolate brown hair. I couldn't see his face. He was slightly bulky, looks like he lived off takeaway's. He had on a police jacket and smart trousers. He was covered in dirt. I could smell the salt water and he cried. I silently walked past him. He suddenly hiccupped loudly and I turned around startled. I watched him for a moment but he didn't do anything. He is fine. I turned around but something caught my eye. Written in elegant script, was the name Renee Swan. In that moment, everything froze. All the sounds became muted, all the movement froze. I stood for, what felt like hours. My mother. Then the man uttered 4 words.
"Bella, where are you?" he sobbed. This is my father. My dad. But my dad is dead! He isn't alive, the woman told me! Well, she didn't really tell me he had died. I assumed. I slowly walked closer to him to get a better look at him. I was so close I could see the tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Where are you?" he whispered.
"Right here Dad" I replied my voice wobbling.
A/N Woo you didn't think I was letting you off that easily did you?! So yeah, I bet you can all guess who that is lol x So the song in this was Paramore - All I wanted. Awesome song, I recommend listening to it! So As I said, sorry for not updating for ages. Blame school! So how was that chapter! Wasn't Edward a meanie! So please REVIEW!! The next chapter is going to be even BIGGER!!! Isn't Autumn not nice too! Also, THANKS to everyone to review! I love all you guys!! I will name you all in the next chapter or so!
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