A/N Sorry bout the last chapter, I HAD to post something and that was all I had wrote but this chapter is continued from the last. So it is still Edwards Pov. Enjoy xx
Previously : I heard Alice gasp and I automatically tuned into her thoughts. It was Bella and Autumn.
"Can we have a go at being friends? I want to make a fresh start between us" Autumn smiled sincerely. Bella then snarled and flew at Autumn and began to lash out at her, punching and kicking her. Growls erupted from my chest and I ran back home.
Epov
I heard my family cry after me but I took no notice and dug my shoes into the mud willing myself to go faster. How dare Bella do that! Autumn has been nothing but nice to her and everyone else. I know Autumn doesn't like Bella much but at least she tries to make an effort. Whereas Bella just glares at her and doesn't like being in the same room as her. I hate her! All my feeling for Bella disappear as I get nearer the house. I can hear crashes and phone began to ring. I didn't bother answering it, it new it would be Alice or Carlisle.
No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?
I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating. (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Hey, make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
The song changed as Autumn phoned me. I quickly answered and Autumns voice screamed out of the receiver.
"Edward help me! Bella is attacking me!" I hear a gasp and the line went dead. With a burst of energy I flew forwards. I came to the house and flew in the door coming to an abrupt stop when I saw Bella slamming into Autumn. I quickly grabbed her, stopping her from lashing out.
"Bella STOP" I shouted as my family came to my side. She looked around at everyone staring at her. Her mouth fell open to speak but Autumn explained it all.
"She attacked me! She said that you were hers and that I was to leave and never come back." Autumn dry sobbed into my chest which was awkward as I was still holding Bella.
"No! She told me that and started ripping her clothes and hair. She has destroyed my room and a few walls" Bella cried. Liar. I let go of her and everyone looked at her, doubt in their eyes.
"That didn't happen" she whispered looking at Autumn, tears filling up her beautiful eyes. How dare she blatantly lie. I saw it, I know what happened!
I glared at her. "You are lying. She has showed me what happened. I seen it in her mind" I replied trying to keep the anger out of my voice. Her mouth fell open and a whoosh came out. I felt the urge to shout at her, tell her all my feeling from day one.
"Leave" I whispered. Everyone left, leaving me and Bella. How do I start this? I love you Bella? Suddenly hateful thought built up and started exploding out of my mouth.
"Bella" I began in a hard voice. "I will never be yours. I cannot believe you attacked her! What the hell were you thinking?!" I was shouting by now. What. Just. Happened. There? That was not what I was going to say. I opened my mouth to say sorry but it didn't happen. Instead I began to shout.
"You had no right to hit her!" I screamed at her. Anger flared in her eyes as she screamed at me.
"That didn't happen!!" Bella screamed at me. "She attacked me!!" Why is she still lying? I saw it, I know that she is lying. Looking into her face, I almost believed her, but I seen it. It was there in Alice's vision. Why am I trying so hard to believe her. The evidence proves her wrong. Is it because I love her, that I want Autumn to have attacked her, not the other way around? A thought them came to me. Jealousy.
"NO!" I shouted, my voice like echoing like thunder "You are jealous! That's what it is. That all you had to say." and to my horror I felt a smirk form on my face. As the words tumbled out of my mouth I knew I was wrong.
"No I am NOT!" She hissed her eyes portraying hurt and anger. Resentment and something else I can quite put my finger on.
"You are so, that why you have been doing all of that shit! Trying to make me jealous." I laughed. Where did that come from? I don't think that. Thinking back on everything though, it would explain a lot…
"No! I was doing that because I was getting you back for-" She screamed but I cut me off as the rage exploded within me.
"For what!" I yelled in her face, her eyes wide with fright. "Killing your parents" I scoffed. "I never killed them they smashed into me! They basically killed me." I shouted at her as tears filled her eyes. I really didn't kill them. They did hit me. I cannot believe I just said that to her. Looking into her face, she looked so broken.
"You killed them." She whispered. Why is she so goddamn adamant that I killed them?! She is looking for someone to take the blame and it isn't going to be me. I DID NOT KILL THEM!
"I didn't and with a psychotic cow like you, I'm sure they would thank me if I DID kill them. I wish you were never born. I wish you had never crashed into me. I wished I hadn't had to save your ass. I wish I had never met you." I screamed. I turned away as I realised what said. What the hell is wrong with me? Why is all this stuff spewing out of my mouth? I don't actually think that so why the hell am I saying it. Looking into her face, I wanted to kill myself. She looked so tortured as my words hit her.
"You don't mean that" she whispered looking down at the floor. For some reason, I do.
"No?" I say ready to apologize but I end up screaming at her. " I SWEARI MEAN THAT! YOUR PARENTS ARE BETTER OF DEAD."
She flew towards me. "NO! NO! NO!" she screamed pounding my chest with her fists. I deserve it. I cannot believe I'm saying all of this! Why am I hurting her?
"If it wasn't for me, you would also be dead! Remember Peter and Ross! You owe me! This is how you re-pay me?! Attacking my girlfriend?! The past few weeks you have treated me like shit! I will never want you and never will, Bella" I spat at her. This is all wrong!
"Fuck you, I HATE YOU!" she screamed. Suddenly I felt my arm fly through the air and Bella's face jerked side ways. She gasped and touched her cheek. Did I just hit her. For the first time I felt in control of my voice and now my body.
"I'm sorry Bella." I whispered taking a step forwards to pull her into a hug but she disappeared. I stood frozen by what happened. I didn't hit her. Well I did, but I didn't mean it! I was pulled into a murky memory that began to get clearer with every second.
Start of flashback
I was standing in the car park with my hood pulled up. My ankles were inches deep in pure white snow. Everyone was lobbing snowballs at each other. I looked up and Bella walked out of the school building. She looked up and her face broke into a heart warming smile. Her cheeks began to turn pink in the cold as she looked around at everyone. Snow flakes began to fall from the cloudy sky, fluttering onto her. They embedded themselves into her hair and stayed there. She reached out her hand and caught a few, looking at them as they turned into water. She walked down the steps, slipping on the snow. Watching her, I began to feel warm and whole. Like nothing could go wrong. Suddenly a snow ball burst on Bella's beautiful face. A grey flew away from her face. She stumbled backwards and fell. Anger flared in me. I ran over to her, sliding on the white snow as everyone laughed.
"Shut the fuck up" I yelled at everyone. They all turned away as I reached her. Tears poured down her pink cheeks and a bruise was forming on her cheek. I looked around her and seen the grey thing that hit her. A stone. Someone had put a stone in a snowball and hit her with it. This is my fault. I was the one that started all this. I held out a hand to help her up. She hesitated but took my hand. I felt a jolt run up my arm and she held my hand. Judging by her face, I'm sure she felt it too. My heart began to beat really fast and become very warm.
"Thank you" she whispered looking down at her feet. Her voice made my heart soar like it had never before. She wouldn't look me in the eye so I tilted her face up too look at me. I nearly lost my train of thoughts as I gazed into her luscious chocolate brown eyes.
"Your welcome" I smiled. She looked at me then her face broke into a beautiful smile that made my breath catch in my throat. Her hair began to get in the way of her eyes so I carefully brushed a few loose strands back. I watched as she turned walked away. When she got to her truck she turned around and caught my eye. I smiled and waved at her as did she.
Suddenly I was tackled to the ground and little hands began to hit me everywhere they could reach.
"YOU BASTARD! HOW DARE YOU HIT HER!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT!! WAS HITTING HER WHEN YOU WERE HUMAN NOT ENOUGH! WAS IT!!!" She screamed. I didn't even try defend myself.
"YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU HAVE JUST DONE!!!! I WILL KILL YOU! YOU HAVE DESTROYED HER! WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HER! IF SHE DOESN'T SOMETHING STUPID, I WILL NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU. I WILL RIP YOU APART SLOWLY WHILE ENJOYING YOUR FUCKING PAIN!" She cried. Jasper came and pulled her off me.
"I don't know what happened. I-I-" u cut off at a loss for words. Nothing I can say will make this better. I wont make excuse's for myself.
"What happened?" Carlisle asked in a calm voice. Everyone glared at me as I gave a brief outline of what happened. It was then that I noticed Autumn was really quite. I tried to tune into everyone's thoughts but the static sound buzzed.
"You okay" I squeezed her hand. She nodded looking troubled and something that looked like...glee?
"This is all my fault! I should just go I'm not worth all the trouble" she said miserably. There was a chorus no your not and stuff. I glanced at Alice who was biting her lip, lost in deep thought. For once I wish I knew what she was thinking as she shot Autumn side glances when she wasnt looking. Can you see I mouthed at Alice. She shook her head. Strange. I nodded to Jasper and again, she shook her head. Weird.
** Hours later **
"I'm gonna go find Bella" I said to everyone wanting to get out of the house. Everyone was "busying" themselves. Rose was flicking through a fashion magazine. Emmett and Jasper was playing in the x-box. Carlisle was reading a book. I knew he wasn't reading it because it was upside down and he hadn't noticed. Esme was looking over blue prints, though her eyes were focused on a part of the carpet, a frown embedded on her forehead. Autumn was upstairs. Hearing me she came down stairs.
"Can I go find her. I want to make amends with her. Please, I want to make it up to her." she whispered looking round at everyone. They nodded and she went to grab her jacket she used as a prop. I ttok a step to go with her but she shook her head indicating I wasn't to come.
"Take care" I whispered kissing her cheek. I stared after her as she took off. Go find my girl I thought to her retreating figure.
A/N Ooo!! so the next chappy will be Bella's Pov from when she meets Charlie! So Autumn is going to find her. Will this turn out well? The song was Paramore - That's what you get. Its sooo awesome! Omg new moon in 11 days! Paramore in 31 days! Soo excited! Can everyone go check out my other stories please xx Thanks to everyone who have reviewed! Also to everyone who alerted! Maybe you could leave a review as well as add to alert? A lot of people is asking about Autumn. All will be revealed in not this chappy but the next!! Soo the hugest massive dramatic thing is happening in the next chappy and the one after that! Other characters is going to come in! Can anyone guess who it is? Please leave answers in review! Love you guys LOTS!! Please REVIEW!!! X
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