Yes, I understand that this is the shortest chapter in the history of chapters ever written, but it's like uber important. If people review then I will update tomorrow morning. And, from now on - with all of my stories - I am going to start sending teasers out to everyone who reviews.
Oh, and I am going to start a new story of outtakes and stuff for this story, but I will need a title. Any suggestions? R&R - Alice xoxo
Chapter 6:
Once I got into my room, I threw myself onto the bed and sobbed harder than I ever remember do so before. It's so true what my parents had been telling me my whole life. No one wants me.
The sewing needle on the floor seemed to be the only thing I saw. I picked it up and pressed the sharp part to my flesh forcefully and dragged it across my skin. It bled more then the first time I had cut myself but I didn't care. I found another spot on my arm and cut there to. The pain hurt too good.
I watched my wounds bleed as the rain started outside and as the water droplets fell from my eyes.
What if… I sighed. I loved Jasper so much. All I wanted was for him to be happy. And he doesn't like me then the only way for him to be happy was to stop existing. Stop living. Kill myself.
I smiled at the idea. My parents would like that as well, if I killed myself. They don't love me. Hell, they don't even like me. Suicide is the only option. The only way out of this life.
Finally, I will do something that people will be proud of.
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For obvious reasons, I didn't go to Electric Crayon after school. Instead, I went to the library and looked up how to tie knots in one of the books. Since I didn't have a library card and didn't need one, I went there every day to learn how to tie a noose.
I had it all planned out. I was going to use all the money I own to by a beautiful dress, then I was going to take the noose to the cemetery and hang myself from a tree. It was going to be perfect.
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After about a week and a half, I had the noose-tying thing down perfectly. I practiced on every long enough string I could find. I was elated. Everything was working out exactly the way I wanted it.
There was a rope in the garage, all that was left was to buy a dress…
I took a bus up to Port Angeles one day instead of going to school. I wasn't doing that anymore either - school. What did I need it for? I was planning on ending my life that night. Or the next day, at the latest. I sighed in content.
The bus stopped in front of the mall and I got off and wandered around until I found a dress store. There where a lot of simple things but I wanted something to make me look beautiful.
Then, there it was: It was pink with a halter strap and sparkles all over. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I had to try it on for size and it fit perfectly.
I had some money left to buy a matching necklace. Then, as I got back on the bus, I knew it was time. This was it. When I got back to Forks, I was going to kill myself. I sighed happily.