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Song: If You Only Knew - Artist: Shinedown

Couple: Tadamu

Dear Amu,

We wrote letters. Instead of emails or texting, I mean. That's why I'm sending you this. Yes, looking back on it it sounds incredibly sappy, but back then we thought it was romantic. We were hopeless romantics, indeed. Now you can be all romantic with Ikuto. And now that you have him, you've returned all of the letters I sent. I just couldn't let them go. I need you to know, I still hold on to the letters that you returned.

I hope that one day you'll realize the mistake you've made, choosing him over me. You taught me a lot while it lasted, and I am thankful for that. You helped me live and learn. I won't forget this. I swear I've lived and learned.

When I was with you, you were all I could see. There was nothing else in this world worth living for. Now I have to settle for life without you.

Unless of course I can find away to get you back. After all, that guy doesn't deserve you.

But after all of the time that I spent with you, the one thing I remember most, the one thing that stands out about you is that you are very stubborn. When you choose something, you stick with it. I know this for a fact. Which means I also know that you aren't going to be persuaded to take me back very easily. But I can try, can't I? If you only knew how I refuse to let you go even when you're gone.

Ever since you left I haven't been able to sleep. So here I am, writing you this pointless letter that I will probably never send. It's 4:03 and I can't sleep without you next to me.

I'm sorry about the teardrop stains on the paper. My eyes are filled with tears, just thinking about how you hurt me. I should've known better when I found out that he'd been hiding out in your room. That was the first sign that you didn't really feel the same about me that I felt about you.

Please don't even begin to feel sorry for me. I don't need your face sympathy. But I need you to know, if I drown tonight, in my tears, bring be back to life. The only thing that will bring me back is you, so breathe your breath in me. I need you now more than ever, Amu. Please take me back.

I'm sure Ikuto's reading over you shoulder, hating me more and more with each word he reads. I don't care. I mean what I'm saying right now, I don't take any of it back.

I don't regret any days I spent thinking of you and nights we've shared, or this letter that I'll send. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I'm unsure of where I stand in this world and what my fate will be. I don't even know what I believe in any more. The only thing that I still believe in is you, if you only knew...

If you only knew how much I think of you. Every day and every night, thoughts of you flood my mind.

I can't get rid of you. Everything I see, everything I hear, it only reminds me of you.

If you only knew, I'm hanging by a thread. The web I spin, full of memories of you, it's all for you.

Sincerely, with love, I miss you,

Tadase.

P.S. You helped me live and learn, please take me back.

Okay, so for those of you that know the song-- yes, I know it wasn't in the same order of the song, but I think it sounds better in the story this way.

I'm not a Tadamu fan, but I figured this fits the couple more than any of the others... actually, this is sorta anti-Tadamu. )_)

Anywayyy, R&R~!