EPOV
I had waited for this moment for 3 years and now I was speechless. I looked into her wide chocolate eyes and everything just came flooding back to me.
"I love you!" she just starred at me.
"I have loved you since the very first day I met you. I have and do love you with all that I am. Ever since then to know when I sit here asking you to please come back into my life and back to me. "
She was silent to I just kept going.
"3 years ago I lied to you. I had to do the worst thing that I could ever imagine doing and that was to break you heart. I was scared, scared to love you because I wanted to give you the chance for a normal life. Something you deserved and something I never had. I was scared to lose you to something vampire related that instead I lost you to my own stubbornness. "
I took a breath even though I didn't need that air.
"I knew it would kill me but I knew I was doing it for you to be happy. Then I could convince myself it would be easier. But it wasn't. Not for me and not for you. I have lived these last few years like a shadow, not really there.
I kept telling myself you had forgotten about me and moved on but seeing you made me realize you can't live without me just like I can't live without you. I'm an empty shell that's drowning in the ocean without you.
Now I am asking you to save me. I need you to love me enough to forgive me and please let me back into your heart. "
She looked as though she was processing everything I had said. She hadn't moved a muscle the whole time.
That made me nervous.
"I needed someone to save me 3 years ago. You left me a hollow inside. I died the day you left. You may as well have killed me because that's what I was… dead."
My heart ached for her, wanting to take her pain away. The pain I had caused her.
"I cried a thousand tears for you, until I had no tears left. I running everything I did through my head over and over again trying to see what I did wrong."
"You didn't do anything –"she put her hand up to silence.
"You know what I came up with? Nothing. Nothing at all. Because I must not have ever really had you to begin with if you could just leave me so easily. I was just never good enough for you." Tears were now slowly running down here cheeks.
"It was never easy for me! Not one day passed without my unbeating heart aching for you. I know I am asking for more than I deserve but finally I believe it doesn't matter what kind of monster I am and that I wanted to save you from me. I can't live without you and I want to believe that I finally deserve to be happy and I can only be happy with you."
I poured my heart out to her and now I only hoped it wasn't too late.
I gave her some time to sit and think about what I had said. I was looking at the floor too scared to look her into the eyes. Scared of what might be starring back at me.
"You are not a monster. I could have never loved you if you were. And I loved you, still love you more than anything. How could I give my heart back to you when you had it all along?" She said just above a whisper.
I looked into her eyes and even not being able to read her mind I knew she was telling me the truth.
Then I did what I had been longing to do for 3 years… I kissed her. A long passionate kiss which was returned to me by my beloved.
THE END
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