'You can do this, you can do this.' I chanted to myself in my head, forcing myself to put one foot in front of the other. With the whole parking lot staring at me, mouths open, eyes wide, I made my way to the main building. I glanced round as I passed, watching everyone watching me.
'Watching me.' A voice echoed in my head. I immediately became uncomfortable, and quickly averted my eyes, focusing, almost glaring at the concrete below.
'Oh crap, so should not have done this'
I was nearly at the main building now, so close, so close. I took one last glance at the silent crowed as I neared the door, my eyes locking with emerald green orbs. One hand on the door knob, I paused.
'Oh yeah, just when you think you're day can't get any worse.' Edward Cullen.
Just looking at him brought back memories, memories that I didn't want to remember. That was the day that….that. No, don't think about it, okay, just don't. It wasn't his fault, what happened, but I couldn't push the thought out of my mind that it was such a coincidence. Okay, now I'm crazy. No matter how much Edward hates me, I know he' not that sort of person. And now, I don't want to feel guilty about Renee dying, so I'm looking for someone to blame. Damn emotions. Oh my gosh- shut up!
His eye were guarded, keeping their secrets locked away. Breaking out of my daze, I noticed how he recoiled backwards when I caught him staring.
'Same old Cullen' I muttered under my breath, as I swung open the door, and walked inside.
I was actually pretty pleased with myself. Being here today had brought it all back, just like it had with seeing Edward, but not once did I burst into tears, or break down in the middle class. All through the day, people, some of whom I didn't even know, came up to me, hugging and consoling me. The hole in my heart was getting smaller, slowly but surely. Emmett was enjoying himself, keeping Mike away from me at all times, like my personal bodyguard. I sat at lunch, wringing my hands together, my palms sweaty. I had biology next. I had to it next to Edward and Lauren next. I was scared. Actually scared. Edward and Lauren were the only people who were directly out of order to me, I got along with everyone else just fine. They were the only two people who would say something hurtful to me, 3 days after everything.
BZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
The loud bell made me jump. I stood up carefully, feeling slightly woozy.
'Hey, cheer up. It'll be fine, I promise,' Alice said, as she kissed my cheek. 'And if anyone, says anything, I'll kill em!' she promised in her most menacing voice.
Laughing weakly, I gave her a one armed hug, waved to the others, and made my way to class.