Part 17… so… here we are… really hope you like it!

Author notes: This is a multi chapter kind of thing... and for the first time I'm trying out the first person view when writing.

Rated R for safety

Disclaimer: If you recognize it then I don't own it. A few of the characters are though, such as Cat, Mia, Maria and Tina. Any resemblance between them and any living, dead or fictional characters is purely coincidental! No copyright infringement intended in any way or form.

Comments are still the only food my muses accept so please... send any comments you have, good or bad.

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*Josef*

I look up when a familiar scent invades my thoughts. Mick comes walking in and takes a seat in the chair in front of my desk.

"What have you been up to lately Josef? You're a hard one to reach these days", he said as he crossed his legs. I sigh and leaned back in my chair.

"Been busy. How are you and Beth doing? Everything still peachy in the land of love?" I ask, trying to keep my tone in the usual snarky that he's used to. Obviously I failed since he raises his eyebrow at me.

"Things are good with me and Beth, which you would've known had you not been MIA the past three weeks", he said. His tone making me think he suspects why I haven't been around much lately. I sigh, but since I'm not ashamed of Cat or what we have together I don't mind telling him.

"I have not been MIA, as you call it. I've been spending my time with Cat", I said, raising my eyebrow daring him to say something quip about that.

"Cat? Is that the girl from the party? The one who didn't know about us?" he raised his eyebrow and suddenly looked concerned.

"Yes, that would be her", I smile a little as I think of her, not noticing the curious look Mick gives me.

"You care for this woman", it wasn't so much a question as a statement and I look over at Mick. My usual snarkiness forgotten.

"Yes, I care for her", I reply sincerely, surprising both of us. He looks closely at me and then nods.

"Have you told her yet?" he asks and I sigh, not even pretending to misunderstand him.

"No, I haven't told her about us", he quirks his brow again and I look away.

"You have to tell her. If you're serious about her, then she has to know", his voice is serious.

"I know Mick. I just don't know how to" I confess to him.

"You don't know… You must really care for her then", he sounded surprised and I look back at him and nod slightly. I can't tell him, can't say it out loud. But, I think I may be falling in love with Cat. Telling her about who and what I am scares me, and I don't take to being scared well. I want to tell her, but what if she doesn't accept my vampire side? What then?

"You have to tell her, Josef", he repeats. "You can't have something real with her if she doesn't know. If you shut her out she will eventually get suspicious", he continued and I almost cringe. I know he's right. If I don't tell her, we can't have a real relationship and as much as I hate to admit it to him. I want that. I want to try. I haven't wanted any relationship since Sarah, but with this girl. This beautiful woman, I want that.

"I know", I simply state then turn to him. "Is that why you dropped by or did you have some other reason?" I ask, clearly showing him that I want to change the subject. He nods and then pulls out a piece of paper from the inside pocket of his jacket.

"I was hoping you could put Ryder to work and help me track down someone?" he said and handed me the piece of paper. I nod.

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*Cat*

I walk around in my apartment, trying to find something to do. To take my mind off of my ponderings but nothing turns up. Finally, I give in and send off a text to Josef asking if it's ok if I drop by his office today. Getting his response, I smile and head in to get changed into something nice for him. It was time for me to start asking questions, and for him to start giving me some answers.

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*Josef*

After Mick had left, I sat staring out the window. I knew it was time for me to tell Cat about vampires. I would just have to pray that she would accept me for who I am. That she would be ok with it. My thoughts were interrupted when my phone buzzed to indicate I'd gotten a text. Seeing who it was from, I couldn't help the smile forming on my lips. She wanted to drop by. I replied quickly that she was welcome, I'd let Jane know she was on her way.

She would be here soon, and I knew now was the time to tell her. Today I would tell her about me. I call out to Jane, letting her know Cat was on the way and asked her to send Susie up. If I was going to tell Cat about vampires I needed to be at my best and I hadn't fed in hours. I needed my strength to handle the conversation ahead of me.

Susie smiled as she walked in after a quick knock on the door. She had been one of my favourites for months now.

"You called Josef?" she said as she gave me a quick hug. I guided her over to the couch and sat her down on my lap.

"Yes, I did… I'm slightly pressed for time here Susie. Do you mind? I'll make it up to you", I say as I gently rub her back. She smiled and moved her hair away from her neck as she angled her head, exposing her neck for me.

"You always do Josef. Of course, I don't mind", she said, affection obvious in her voice. I smiled at her and moved my hand to cup her neck and pulled her closer. Her anticipation growing making her blood sweeter. The scent of it causing my hunger to grow and I feel the instant change as the vampire emerged. I brush my lips over the delicate skin of her neck, hearing her blood singing to me just underneath the surface. When her anticipation peaks I pierce her skin and begin to slowly drink, the sweet nectar of her blood making me purr. Her soft moans of pleasure making me take my time. I loose myself in the feeling.

*Cat*

Reaching his office I simply wave to Jane as I pass her and open the door to Josef's office then I freeze. The image in front of me makes me feel as if my hearts been torn out and stomped on, repeatedly.

To be continued