Part 21… So sorry for the long wait. This is a small chapter, but the muses insisted I keep it that way

Author notes: This is a multi chapter kind of thing... and for the first time I'm trying out the first person view when writing.

Rated R for safety

Disclaimer: If you recognize it then I don't own it. A few of the characters are though, such as Cat, Mia, Maria and Tina. Any resemblance between them and any living, dead or fictional characters is purely coincidental! No copyright infringement intended in any way or form.

Comments are still the only food my muses accept so please... send any comments you have, good or bad

*Cat*

I look at him and nod. I can understand wanting company, wanting a connection to the living. The need not to be alone all the time. Even though I'm jealous at the, no doubt, countless women he's been with, I can't exactly blame him for it. He's been alive a lot longer than I and he's a man. What man would say no to sex if it was offered? Considering how fast he and I ended in bed I hadn't expected him to have lived in celibacy before he met me and he said himself that he had only been with me since we started seeing each other. That had to mean something good right?

I rub my temples. I'm not sure I can handle all this yet. It's such a strange thing. My head is spinning with all the information I've gotten and everything I've seen these past few minutes? Hours? How long had it been since I walked through that door and saw him with that woman on his lap?

"Cat?" his voice reaches through my haze and I blink. I realize that I've gone quiet on him again.

"I'm sorry… I just… It's a lot to take in", I shift slightly and then look back at him again.

"I understand about the need for connection and all that. I'm just… My head is spinning right now. I need to think", I sigh as I see him look almost defeated. I reach out my hand to cup his cheek.

"I think I need to be alone for a little while. Process all this. Is that ok?" his only reply was a nod. I leaned forward and gently pressed my lips against his. He responded by grabbing me to him and making the kiss deeper. I shivered as my body responded to the heat of the kiss, the feeling of his hard body against mine as he hugged me tightly to him.

"I'll call you tomorrow", I said as he finally let me up for air.

"I will hold you to that", he said. His eyes intent on me and I smiled a little at his seriousness. I kissed his cheek.

"I'm counting on it", I said and got up. After looking at him once more I walked out and headed home. I needed to think and I needed to be alone to do it.

*Josef*

I watched her leave and wondered if that was the last time I was going to see her. If she was walking out of my life. I growled at myself for thinking that. She had seemed ok. She had said she was going to call and if she didn't, I'd be sure to call her myself. I didn't want to loose her so I would have to make darn sure she didn't escape from me. Didn't leave me.

I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair, trying my best to gather myself and finally got up. The mask of Josef Kostan back in place. I could hear Jane moving outside and anger grew like a cold fire in my belly. She had failed in her duty and her failing had lead to this situation. If she had done her job, Cat would never have had to walk in on me like that. I was going to tell her about me but she would've been allowed to find out under different circumstances.

Dealing with Jane would have to wait though. First, I wanted to make sure Susie was alright. That she was healing and was well looked after. I straightened up and walked out of my office. As I walked past Jane I could scent her fear heavy on the air and I gave her a cold look.

"Make sure you are still here when I get back", I said and then I walked out and headed for the infirmary.

To be continued