Part 22 Finally found the time to finish it and write it into the puter
Author notes: This is a multi chapter kind of thing... and for the first time I'm trying out the first person view when writing.
Rated R for safety
Disclaimer: If you recognize it then I don't own it. A few of the characters are though, such as Cat, Mia, Maria and Tina. Any resemblance between them and any living, dead or fictional characters is purely coincidental! No copyright infringement intended in any way or form.
Comments are still the only food my muses accept so please... send any comments you have, good or bad
*Cat*
I sat staring out the window, following the moving cars with me eyes without really seeing them. My mind spinning with the events of earlier that day. What I had seen and what I had been told. Trying to make heads or tails of it.
Seeing Josef with that girl on his lap, his mouth against her neck. Her moans of pleasure. I had never experienced pain like that. Didn't think I could. Didn't think anything could hurt as much as that sight had hurt me. The pain I had gone through seeing my ex cheat on me had done nothing to prepare me for it. Nothing had prepared me for the feelings I had around Josef, whether good or bad. Everything with him was more intense, more vivid.
I wondered if that was because he's a vampire or was that simply because I had never felt anything that strong for anyone before? I was falling and I was falling hard. There was no other explanation for the feelings I was experiencing. The joy of being near him, the ache I felt when I was away from him, the pain at seeing him even potentially with someone else.
I sighed. I was in love with Josef Kostan. I was in love with a vampire. A creature of myths. My mind struggled slightly to comprehend that fact. The man I loved was a vampire! Not only did vampires actually exist, I had somehow met one and fallen completely and madly in love with him. How was that even possible? What was I supposed to do now? How was I supposed to react to that? How do I handle that?
I needed to talk to someone but who? I couldn't tell anyone since it wasn't my secret to tell and without telling anyone, how do I discuss how to handle it? That was when I remembered what he had said. My friends already knew. They were freshies. My friends had knowingly brought me into this world. They had listened to me talking about Josef, about wondering, and they had known all along what he was. They had always known. Who better to talk to than them? The women who knew all about vampires and freshies and how everything worked. They would be able to tell me everything I needed to know. They owed me that much.
*Josef*
After checking in on Susie, I had made my way back to my office, dismissed Jane and got a temp to take her place for now. I had then headed into my office to try and continue my work day but I couldn't stop thinking. I sat staring at my computer screen but my mind was focusing on the woman who had left my office not two hours earlier. Cat. The beautiful and surprisingly strong woman who I'd come to admire. I cared for her a lot and, as I sat there staring at my screen, I had to admit to myself that I hadn't felt anything like this since Sarah. If even then. Things had moved quickly between us but I knew she was never far from my mind. The fact I had worried about telling her the complete truth about me, telling her what I am, that I'm a vampire, told me she had become very important to me.
I turned to stare out the window instead. Her reaction to finding out what I am had surprised me. She had been so calm, so curious to find out more. Surprisingly, the thing she'd been focused on was that she had thought I was cheating on her. Not the fact I'm a vampire and thus potentially dangerous to her.
My need for her to accept me and what I am and the need for her to be ok with that told me everything I needed to know. I was falling in love with her. Completely and madly in love. Cat was quickly becoming the most important person in my life. Her happiness and well being was really all I cared about.
Letting her walk out of my office, not knowing if she would be back. Not knowing if she would be ok with what she had found out or not had been one of the most difficult things I had ever had to do. I sighed. I knew I wouldn't be able to get any work done that day so I packed up and headed home. Best to get some freezer time while I waited for the woman I loved to decide if she could handle having a relationship with a vampire.
To be continued