Author notes: I just wish to send out a thank you to all those that have sent me reviews on this story so far. They are greatly appreciated. This is a multi chapter kind of thing... and for the first time I'm trying out the first person view when writing.

Rated R for safety

Disclaimer: If you recognize it then I don't own it. A few of the characters are though, such as Cat, Mia, Maria and Tina. Any resemblance between them and any living, dead or fictional characters is purely coincidental! No copyright infringement intended in any way or form.

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*Cat*

I paced around as I waited for my friends to arrive. They had seemed surprised when I had called them and asked them to come over since I had something I needed to talk to them about. I hadn't been very forthcoming with the reason for this sudden need for their company, just said exactly those words. I had something I needed to discuss and I'd rather not do it over the phone.

That was 20 minutes ago now and they had still not shown up. Granted, it took about 15 min to get to my place from Tina's. Longer from Mia and Maria's places.

When the door bell finally rang I rushed over to open the door and rush them inside.

"Sheesh, Cat. Where's the fire?" Maria chuckled as I ushered them toward my living room.

"In your behind if you don't get a seat and start talking", I said. My patience all but gong in my urgency to get some answers and some help to decide what to do now.

"Talking about what?" Tina asked, looking almost a little apprehensive. I watched the three of them as they took a seat and looked at me with various levels of confusion and almost weariness.

"Why don't you start with what the HELL you were thinking of?? How the HELL could you take me to a party like that without telling me what it was", I looked angrily at each of them.

Mia looked away, trying to hide from my angry glare. Maria looked at me as if trying to apologize with her eyes while Tina sat quiet and calm as always.

"A party like what?" Tina asked calmly. I raised an eyebrow at her and then smirked.

"Like what? Oh, let me think. You dressed me up like a 2 dollar whore and brought me to an all you can eat buffet for vampires", I replied bitterly.

"We didn't…"

"Kitty Cat, calm down"

"We dressed you up like a sexy woman about to go clubbing and the only reason we brought you to a classy part for the elite of LA was because our agency assured me you would be safe", Tina cut off the others and replied calmly. I sighed as I noticed the hurt well hidden in her eyes. To others, she would have seemed calm and un-affected by my words but I knew her well enough to see beneath the wall she put up.

"I'm sorry, Tina. But you really should have told me what you were bringing me into", I said quietly. It hurt that they hadn't trusted me to tell me and that they had introduced me into this world knowing I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

"We couldn't, Kitty Cat", Maria said, an almost sad note to her voice.

"We are sworn secrecy. None of us are allowed to tell anyone what we do or give any indication that vampires exist. Telling someone who doesn't already know can result in dire consequences", Tina said quietly. I sighed and nodded. I did remember Josef saying something about the agency having been dealt with for allowing my friends to take me to that party.

My friends watched me quietly for a moment as if not daring to speak to me. Maria looked at me closely, her gaze slowly turning curious.

"So… How DID you find out? Did Josef tell you?" she asked finally. I sighed and looked away.

"In a matter of speaking", I replied as I looked down at my hands.

"What do you mean?" Mia asked, her voice filled with curiosity. I looked up at them and then sighed.

"I walked in on him feeding", I looked down at my hands as I said the words. The image of that girl on Josef's lap with his mouth at her neck flashing through my mind. I had to blink to fight it away.

"WHAT??" their shocked voices made me look up and I saw them all staring at me. Even Tina, the always calm and collected Tina, had a shocked expression on her face.

"I walked in on him feeding", I repeated. Surprised by the stunned look they shared.

"Oh my god! How did… How are you feeling?" Maria asked and moved over to hug me. I sighed. I had no idea how I felt.

"Confused", I replied. That one word pretty much summed it all up as I felt a lot at the same time.

"How did… How did you react?" Maria asked quietly.

"What do you think? I freaked out a bit", I replied and looked away which meant I didn't see the look they shared.

"Did Josef just let you go after you walked in?" Tina asked carefully.

"No. He made me stay and explained some things about what I had seen and answered my questions until I felt a need to think and be on my own. Then he let me go", I said and this time I was looking at them so I did notice the surprised look they shared. It made my wonder what about it was so surprising.

"He didn't make you sign anything? Make any promises? Nothing like that`" Maria asked, sounding surprised.

"No. I did promise on my own to tell anyone but I figured since you guys already know I could talk to you and still keep the promise", I said and fidgeted a little. Once again I saw them share a look.

"Ok, what is that about? You keep sharing looks and keep looking surprised", I exclaimed feeling a bit like I was on the outside of their little secret club and thinking about it I sort of was. They were freshies and I wasn't. They looked at each other again and seemed to almost have a quiet conversation and then Tina turned to me.

"We are surprised. Josef is famous among freshies. We all know about his paranoia. He's paranoid to a fault which means we are very surprised at what you have just told us. The Josef Kostan we have heard about would never let anyone walk in on him feeding and he would never let anyone who had just found out about vampires just leave. Not without making sure they wouldn't talk", Tina looked seriously at me the entire time she spoke.

"He must really care about you and trust you since he did that with you", Maria smiled and rubbed my shoulder. I sat still for a moment, just taking in what they had said. Not sure what that meant exactly but somehow it did make me feel a bit better.

"So… how do you feel about him now that you know?" Mia prompted and almost blushed when she received an annoyed look from Tina. I sighed a little. How did I feel?

"I don't know. I think… I think I may be in love with him but… I don't know if I can handle a relationship with a vampire", I said, saying the words out loud for the first time.

"That's… Wow. I'm so happy for you, Kitty Cat", Maria said and hugged me.

"I hope he feels the same baby and we'll all do everything we can to help you. Ask anything you want about vampires and we'll answer as best we can", Tina said and I had to smile in thanks.

"That's what I was hoping for", I smiled a little and got smiles in return from them all.

"So, what do you want to know?" Maria asked with a smiled and rubbed my shoulder.

To be continued