Chapter 6

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A/N:Hey, sorry again for not being on a lot, I started college today and everything has been crazy right now. Anyway, here is chapter 6, enjoy.

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BPOV

I felt like my heart would just evaporate any minute as my feelings right now were killing me. She had him, she was his future now, I could take a baby's father away from it and soon they would be married with the ring that once belonged on my finger but soon would rest on hers. I felt anger towards the girl, she had stolen my life, everything that I dreamed of, Edward and me married and maybe having children. What if this was it, what if this could only happen one time for Edward, what if after this he was unable to have a child again and it had been wasted on her.

Feeling a cold arm wrap around me I panicked, but the smell was not him. Looking up my eyes met Alice's, she had hurt in her eyes almost like she felt it too.

"I'm sorry, Bella", she said. I nodded and turned to face the cream carpet that lay below, memories shot through my head of the time of my 18th birthday party and how I had got blood on this creamy carpet. It was my fault, everything was, if I hadn't of been so stupid and just carefully opened the present then maybe Edward wouldn't of left and then maybe we would of married a little sooner, before he would of Mia. I soon then began to feel guilty of my feelings right now, it was not her fault that she was pregnant, it was obvious that it had not been planned.

"It's alright for you to be mad, Bella", Jasper's soft and caring voice filled my head. I looked up and saw him standing against the wall, he had his arms folded and eyes set on me. I gave him a nod but then again placed my head down and stared at the carpet. I knew that it was going to be awkward for a while around here, especially today and I felt a little tired from all the surprises. I just wanted to go home and curl up in my bed, shutting out this horrible cruel unfair world.

"Bella, you don't have to go", Alice said but I shook my head. I looked up and sighed.

"Charlie, needs his dinner", I said with a fake smile that almost broke my face to push my lips into. Standing up she did the same and looked at me, "I'm fine really", I added. Obviously I knew that she knew I was lying and Jasper but right now I didn't care what they saw, I just wanted to leave. She gave me a soft nod, no smile was longer placed on her face before pulling me in and wrapping her cold arms around me. I hugged her back knowing that she truly cared and then pulled back a little.

Turning I made my way out of the living room, walking over to Esme and giving her hug, she was like a second mother to me and the love that generated from her was beautiful. "Come soon, Bella", she said and I nodded before pulling back and then gave a small wave to Jasper. Me and him had never hugged or even got in close contact ever since my 18th birthday party but we did give each other soft gestures.

Walking out the glass door, I closed it behind me before my hands began to fish around in my pocket for my car keys when I noticed they were gone. I patted everywhere when out the corner of my eyes I saw a white marble hand holding a chain of dangling keys. Turning I looked at the owner of the hand, Edward. He wasn't looking at me but his hand was extended so that the keys reached me. I took them from his hand as my fingers ever so slightly brushed his and I felt the connection again, I had missed that these past few days and now I needed more time away. "Thanks", I whispered but knew he could hear me. Quickly turning I lost my footing due to my feet being mushed together quickly and began to fall to the ground, closing my eyes and waiting for contact but it never came, he had caught me.

I felt cold hard arms around my waist holding me at an angle as my eyes opened a little and there he was, above me a little with his arms wrapped around me. Her honey eyes stared into mine and I felt tears coming, he was so beautiful. I wondered what that child would look like, it would look beautiful with his looks and it would play the piano and listen to beautiful music just like it's father. Now I did feel the tears coming as they stung my eyes and one tear rolled down my cheek. He slowly reached out and gently pressed his finger onto the falling tear, his touch felt good but right now I just wanted to rest.

"I'm so sorry, Bella", he said and I nodded. I just looked at his lips, they were so welcoming. Before I knew it I was attacking them, and soon he was kissing me back. One arm around my back and the other latched in my hair pulling me closer to him. It felt good and I didn't want to stop but I knew I had to, this was not what I needed right now. Pulling back a little I turned my head to the side to show I wanted to stop.

"I need to go", I whispered and I heard him give a deep sigh of depression. Soon he helped me back up so I was standing on my own, I fiddled with my keys. "I'll call", I said before turning around slowly this time so I didn't have a repeat of last time and began to make it to my parked truck. But his hand went to my wrist, I turned my head and gasped, his face was like nothing I had seen before. It was of pain and anger, depression and guilty, it had regret in there too and at that moment I knew he didn't want it to be like this, he wanted me to be the one with his growing child inside of me, for me and him to giggle when I felt the baby kick and talk about names, painting the nursery but that would never ever happen.

"Please, I'm begging you", he said. But I shook my head and pulled my hand from his grasp, he let it go with no hesitation but I could tell he was holding back.

"I need more time", I said. He nodded and his head went to his feet, soon his shoulders began to shake and I heard a small whimper from him, he was crying, my Edward was crying. I truly felt myself shutting down at that point, all I wanted was to run to him and hold him close as he wept for me, to kiss him and tell him I loved him but right now I just needed to go. Walking up to him slowly I reached a shaking hand up and placed it on his cheek, he looked up and I could tell he was in pain. Going on my tiptoes I placed a small kiss on his cheek and then finally turned and made my way to my parked truck.

Getting in I kept my eyes down, I couldn't stand to see him in pain once more. Putting the keys into the ignition I kicked my old truck into gear and then began to pull out and then finally drove down the road. I looked in my side mirror and saw Edward on his knees, his head in his hands and body hunched. Seconds later Esme, Alice and Jasper dashed out as Esme ran to her son and held him as he wept. When I was about half a mile away I heard the most pained growl and my eyes watered again but I kept driving.

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When I finally arrived home I parked up in my usual spot and stopped the car, hearing a loud bang. Getting out I made my way into my house and found a note from Charlie.

Gone to Billy's for dinner, be back around 8, from Dad.

I looked at the clock on the wall and gave a sigh of relief, it was 6:42pm which meant I could have a shower and get into bed before Charlie got back and began to ask questions. I didn't feeling like eating, knowing I would probably throw up after I slowly made my way up stairs and into the bathroom. Quickyl stripping down I turned the shower on and waited for it to heat, but I looked to my right and saw the mirror, and the strange girl in it looked different. Walking slowly over I saw the deep purple marks under her eyes, the pale complexion of her skin and the deadness of her hair. I guess thats what I was, nothing but dead now. Edward was going to be a dad, he would have a family of his own and soon I would get pushed out and then I would have nothing.

Decided I better get a move on before Charlie got back I shifted into the shower and felt the hot water spill over my small frame and it felt good. I washed my hair, trying to get some life back into it with strawberry shampoo, it had been Edward's favorite. Then I felt the water going cold and it instantly reminded me of Edward and how his arms felt around me and his lips on mine. It had been so happy here, so happy but then she came and ruined it all.

After a while under the cold water I turned it off and wrapped myself in a white wool towel and putg my dirty clothes in the basket which I would clean tomorrow, I didn't feel like doing much tonight. Walking into my room I quickly made my way over to my draws and grabbed a simple grey tank top and long black baggy trousers which felt good on me. Then I dried my hair a little and finally felt a little more relaxed. Suddenly I swear I heard the sound of Edward's Volvo but by the time I got to my window there was nothing outside, it seemed cold tonight and I didn't want him coming in if it was him. I shut and locked my window before pulling my curtains over it to hide me.

Turning I then made my way over to my bed where it invited me so warmly, pulling back my purple silky covers I slid into it and instanly felt more relaxed as I tucked myself in and turned so I lay facing away from the window. I stayed like that for ages and then finally I broke down. The tears welled up as I thought about the fact that I was losing him and that she was having his child and then the sobs came. I buried my face into my pillow to cover the sounds of me sobbing as it grew worse and finally after I had run out of tears I felt tired and closed my eyes. Darkness surrounded me and finally I was at peace.

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EPOV

After Bella had left I just stayed on the ground, Esme had left me at my own request and now I was on my own, I deserved to be tortured and killed for all the pain which I had caused my beautiful and brave, sweet and kind, caring and smart Bella. She deserved better, she deserved someone who could give her a family and not cheat on her with a complete stranger, lately everything had just gone wrong.

I looked up when I saw night crawling in and decided to go pay a visit to Bella, I wouldn't talk to her but just peek in on her and see how she was doing. Fishing my keys out of my pocket I made for my Volvo and slid in before driving off without any trouble. I needed to know if she was alright and that she was not going to do anything stupid. Finally I arrived and looked to see the time was 7:34pm. Charlie's cruiser was not in the driveway but Bella's truck was so I knew that she was there, I also so a light on in her window and decided to drive around the corner and park up. When I arrived back at her window I saw that it had been shut and probably locked, it was true she didn't want me seeing her right now. I was about to turn and head back when the most horrible sound filled my ears.

She was crying, sobbing and in pain. It would of killed me and stopped my heart if it were beating, I had made her cry like that, it was my fault. I stayed for a little while but I had to hide when I heard Charlie's cruiser coming up and parking in front of the house. Soon he had gone in and up to bed and now I was listening to Bella again, from her breathing and her heart rate I could tell she was asleep. So, I decided to stay sat outside in the shadows and listen to her all night, I would do this every night as she was my life, I felt nothing for Mia now and I was confused on that thing growing inside of her.

However, soon the sun began to rise and I knew it was going to be a sunny day by the clear sky so I made for my parked Volvo and took off, I would give her as long as she needed, she was my Bella.

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A/N:Hope you enjoyed it, sorry if it was a bit rushed, next chapter soon hopefully and that one is where you will really see the cruelness of Rosalie and Mia to Bella. Love ya all from Vix.

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