Chapter 8

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A/N: Sorry I haven't updated in so long guys, college has been hectic and I have had so much homework. So here is chapter 7, please enjoy. Review too by the way, lol.

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BPOV

I kept driving, unable to think, unable to breathe. Tears streamed down my face, my vision was blurry. I had been driving for 5 minutes and I felt sick. Pulling over I unbuckled my seatbelt and pulled my knees up to my chest. I buried my face into them; give a sob of how much I hurt right now. It didn't make sense, Alice was my best friend and now it looked like she was Mia's. I had lost everyone, soon the baby would be here and Esme would soon fade away as well, she would be a grandmother and happy. Carlisle too, Emmett would be with Rosalie and Jasper with Alice. That meant that Edward was left, I knew he loved me but he was a gentlemen and he would never abandon his child, I knew that and so did Mia. She knew that she would win, she always would. She was the one with his unborn child inside of her, she was the one who would soon be married to Edward and then Edward would change her. I could feel myself getting tired; I had been crying so much that I felt so sleepy. Giving up on trying to stay away I fell onto the other seat and slept.

I could hear the sound of a baby crying. I was inside Edward's room, confused I walked to the window and heard a giggle. Turning I saw my worst nightmare. Edward was sat on his bed, the bed he had bought for me. On his lap sat Mia, she was beautiful dressed in a light blue dress. Edward had his arms wrapped around her and they were smiling. I noticed the colour of her eyes, blood red. I then realised it, her skin was pale white, and she was a vampire. He had turned her; on her neck was the slight hint of a crescent moon scar. Her long brown hair lay over one shoulder. Edward leaned down and kissed her bare should, she gave a giggle. She turned her head and looked into her honey coloured orbs, "I love you", she said with a beautiful angel voice. Edward smiled; he turned her around so she straddled his lap and kissed her. I shook my head, tears rolled down my cheek. Then the baby cry began again, they broke from their kiss and turned to look at a white crib. Mia smiled; she stood up and gracefully skipped over to the cot. Edward followed with a smile, Mia bent down into the cot and came back up with a small pink bundle. Inside the blanket was a beautiful baby, it had brown curls but Edward's original emerald eyes. It was their baby.

"She is like her mother", he said. "Beautiful", he added and kissed Mia on her cheek. Mia smiled and nodded.

"But she is going to grow up strong and brave like her daddy", she said and turned to look at him. "Do you ever wonder what your life would have been like with Bella?" Mia asked. The mention of my name caught my attention, I looked at Edward. Edward looked confused.

"Bella... who?" he asked. I gave a scream and they giggled.

My eyes snapped open as my heart was going crazy; I sat up slowly and felt a cold sweat on my forehead. It had been a nightmare. I looked at my clock in my radio; the one Alice had bought me for my 18th. It read "4:23pm". I gave a sigh; I had been asleep for an hour and a bit. I rubbed my eyes and sighed, that was going to be their future, I just knew it. He was forget me, they would be happy and in love. I pang of jealously filled me inside, that would of been my future, but it had been stolen from me. I pushed myself back into my seat and turned the keys, I was going to continue home but something stopped me. I needed to speak to someone, someone I hadn't spoken to in a long time.

I kicked the car into gear and headed down the road in the direction of La Push, it took me 15 minutes before I saw the wooden sign with the picture of the wolf on it, I gave a smile. It was a private joke the wolves had done, everyone just thought it was a Native American wolf. I kept driving until I saw the small red house; I parked up onto the grass and killed the engine. I knew they would have hear the bang of my truck go. Sure enough as I stepped out of my truck the door opened and there he stood. Jacob had cut his hair again, it wasn't long anymore. I gave him a smile and a small wave, I knew he was still a little angry at me because of what had happened I had chosen Edward over him and after he had finally gotten back from his time away we hadn't spoke much. I walked slowly over.

"Hey", I said. I felt stupid now, I hadn't spoke to him in weeks and that was all I could say. He looked at me and for a second I thought he was going to hit me but suddenly he ran up to me and pulled me into a hug. I felt him start to shake and I knew he was crying, his strong muscled arms held me to his chest and all I could do was wrap my arms around him.

"I missed you so much, Bella", his voice broke the awkward silence as we walked on the beach. It had taken him 5 minutes to stop crying before I recommended a walk on the beach. He wore a grey vest and his three quarter length jeans with his black trainers. My hands were pushed into my pockets as the wind blew my hair from my face. I looked over at him and nodded.

"I missed you too Jake", I said. "I really did", I added just encase he thought I was just saying that to make him feel better.

"I heard what the blood sucker did to you", he said. My eyes went straight down, I was silent. "If you want me to rip him to pieces", he suggested. I shook my head.

"No, its fine really", I said.

"So the fact that he got another girl pregnant is fine then", he said to me. Anger showed in his voice and I felt the tears coming. I shook my head. I didn't want him to say anything else.

"Jake, please can we not", I said looking at him. I knew I meant it, my eyes were still a little red from when I had been crying before. He looked into my eyes and gave a soft nod, understanding that I didn't want to continue on the subject of Edward. He reached down and took my hand; I looked down at our hands now connected. I didn't feel the warmth I felt from Edward, well maybe not warmth but the feeling of being in love. I looked back up to him and cleared my throat. His hand dropped from mine and he turned, continuing up the beach. I sighed and kept walking next to him.

"So, how have you been?" I asked. I hadn't seen him in weeks. He gave a smile and looked at me as we walked.

"Not much, been helping my dad with his new truck", he said. I smiled and remembered when Jake and I, well mostly Jake was fixing our bikes. That was a dark time for me, when I sought out an adrenaline I could get to see Edward. I shook my head at the stupidity of me back then; if I hadn't jumped off that cliff then Edward wouldn't have run off to Volturi to die. But then I wouldn't have gotten him back and I still would have been in an emotionless shell of a body. "Apart from that, not much", he said. I gave a nod and looked back up at him.

"I'm sorry for what happened", I said. I knew it was pointless right now. Jake nodded and stopped, I looked at him. He kicked his shoes into the wet sand.

"Yeah", he said. He gave small laugh and nodded his head. "I know you are Bella, even when you won't love me back, I will always love you", he said and sighed. I felt guilty again, he loved me so much, like I loved Edward and yet I was unable to love him back. I nodded and saw a large log under a tree. I started walking over to it and heard him following me. I sat down on the log and found it dry, which was surprising for the clouds in the sky. Pulling Jacob's coat around me more, as I had turned up with nothing I saw him sit down next to me out of the corner of my eye. He sighed and began to tap his foot on the stones beneath our feet. There it was, the awkward silence, there would always been this awkward silence between us.

"I'm losing him", I said suddenly. I froze when I heard my own voice say what I was feeling. Jake stopped tapping and looked over at me, I didn't dare look up.

"What?", he asked. Great, now I would have to continue, I felt a lump in my throat but pushed my head up and met Jake's awaiting eyes. He looked confused.

"I'm losing Edward, everyone else, even Alice likes Mia. Mia is the girl who is pregnant with his baby", I said, It stung when I actually said it out loud. "Soon Edward would like her and then soon love her", I said. Jake lowered her eyes, knowing that I was upset. I felt the tears coming and I couldn't hold them back, they were now following down my cheeks. I gave choked sob which made Jake look up at me. "I've lost everything", I said and shut my eyes, I felt like I was 18 again and back inside my room, alone and upset. Jake moved closer and slowly put his arm around me, I opened my eyes at his gesture. I looked into his eyes which also matched my sad ones. He shook his head.

"You haven't lost me", he said. I stopped crying and stared at him, he began to lean forward and he mirrored my actions. We soon met, our lips connected. He began to move his lips with my, his touch came out and pushed against mine; I opened my mouth and pushed my tongue into his mouth as well. Soon we were full on kissing; Jake pulled me closer and with her two hands pulled me onto his lap. I gave a moan and wrapped my legs around his waist. He pulled back and began to attack my neck, I felt him now, all of him. I was surprised he was already like this. His hand travelled to my rear end and cupped it, but soon his one hand was going under my shirt behind my back and the other was going up my front. He had his hand on my breast. I felt hot inside and I kissed him again, I had no control over my body. But then I heard it, his hands one hand on my breast had left it and had travelled to my zipper. He was undoing my trousers, I froze. He stilled his motion and looked at me.

"I love you, Bella", he said. I looked into his eyes, I couldn't do this. I just couldn't, not with Jake, he was my friend. He was my best friend and I didn't want to sleep with him and ruin everything. He went to kiss me again but I turned my head to the side so he made contact with my cheek. He pulled back, "Bella?" he asked. I shook my head.

"I can't", I said. I pushed myself up as his hand fell to his lap. I began to do my zipper up and straightened my clothes. "I'm sorry", I said. He shook his head and stood up. "I just can't Jake, I love you as a friend and I can't do this to Edward", I said. He was angry now.

"He cheated on you, he screwed another girl", he shouted. I was shocked by what he said. A tear slid down my cheek. I turned and ran. "BELLA", he shouted. I kept running. Coming to my truck I opened the door and kicked it into gear, driving off. I felt sick. I had almost lost my virginity to Jacob.

When I arrived home I went straight upstairs, Charlie was out as usual. Going into the bathroom I stripped down and stepped into the shower, I still felt sick with myself. I had kissed Jake, it was my doings. I washed my hair and felt a little bit better. Walking into my room I saw how early it still was, I decided to write my Renee, tell her how I was. I turned on my computer and began to type but all I could think of was how I had kissed Jake. What if Edward found out, he would hate me which would make him definitely love Mia more.

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A/N: Pleae review, bye from Vix.

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