Chapter 10

A/N: Enjoy this chapter, it took me forever to do it as I have a bad stomach and a headache so this was all for you guys, so have fun. Review!

BPOV

As I drove all I could think of was how stupid I had been. It was my fault, kissing Jake. Tears streaked down my face again and again, my vision a little blurry but I didn't care. My foot slammed down onto the pedal as I pushed my truck to its limits, I needed to tell him. I knew I should slow down but he would already be there by now and he could do something stupid.

Soon, I saw the road that led off in the direction of the house, turning in I continued to drive. As I saw the familiar modernized glass house that made me gasp the first time I saw it. Pulling up to where I usually parked I cut the engine of the truck and pulled the keys out. Opening the driver's door I slipped out and slammed it shut, they would have heard me coming a mile away with the truck; they must have known I was here. I felt nervous, I had broken his heart, and now here I was to beg him for forgiveness.

Walking slowly up to the front porch I made sure not to trip, I didn't need a cut today. Making my way to the door I knocked once. Expecting the door to be opened in seconds I was surprised as I had to knock again until finally Esme answered. Her eyes looked saddened, "He is upstairs", she said. Usually she gave me a hug when I came here, even when Mia was here, she was the only one who treated me the same.

"Thank you", I said and walked past her. Making my way into the living room I noticed Alice and Jasper. They looking at each other and whispering at a fast speed which was impossible for me to hear, let alone understand. Alice's eyes flicked up and looked at me, she showed an emotion of anger and sadness at the same time. Jasper looked up and I thought he was going to calm me, his eyes focused on me but Alice took his hand and he looked at her. She shook her head and began to pull Jasper out of the living room and towards a window where they jumped out and went in the direction of the forest. So they obviously knew, of course they would.

As I made for the stairs I made sure not to trip, I did have a tendency to do that a lot while going up stairs. Once I reached the landing I let my feet carry me, I could make my way to Edward's room with my eyes closed, I had been there so many times. I saw Rosalie standing outside Edward's room; she was looking at her nails. Her head shot up and she didn't say anything, just gave me a cruel smile that said, 'I know something you don't'. Making my way closer I thought she was going to stop me, but she simply stepped out of the way and allowed me to pass, strange. My hand grabbed the handle and I gave it a twist, I really wish I hadn't. What I saw broke my heart more than it had done the day I opened the door and found Edward and her in his bed.

Edward was standing in front of me, but he was to his side. However, he was on one knee and in his hand laid the black velvet box he had once held to me. In front of him stood Mia, a smile plastered onto her face as she cried. I knew it, I knew something was wrong. Edward was asking her to marry him, he was actually doing this. Mia smiled and nodded.

"Yes, I will", she said and Edward took out the ring, the same ring I had once worn. He had told me that that ring was only for his true love; his mother had told him to give it to the one he wanted to live forever with. He slid it onto her finger, it however didn't fit, and Edward became a little made as Mia gave a giggle. "We can resize it", she said. Edward would never do that would he; it was his late mother's wedding ring. Edward nodded and pressed his lips to hers. My heart almost stopped, was I not here, he must have heard me coming.

I heard footsteps and suddenly Rosalie was standing next to Mia and smiling, Mia turned and gave her a hug while giggling. I heard more footsteps and saw more of them coming in, Esme, Alice and Jasper walked in. They had completely ignored me, Edward face lifted and he looked at me. His face instantly hardened, almost like he was going to kill me. "I think you should go back to your mutt, Bella", he said and placed a hand around Mia's waist. Mia looked up and gave me a smile which showed me she had won, he was now her's.

I felt the anger building up, I felt like I was going to explode. These past weeks I had been broken, pushed out and now abandoned by the one I love. I knew Jasper was trying to keep me calm. "Forget it, Jasper", I said and he stopped. I had a clear path to Edward, walking forward my hand came up and slapped him across the face, he could have stopped it but it looked like he wanted it.

"How dare you", I screamed. "You slept with her when we were engaged, you said I would be your first but she is pregnant with your child. What happened with Jake was a mistake, he kissed me, I felt lonely. All of you have been pushing me away, like you love her more than me", I continued, tears streaked down my face as I kept going. "I have tried to get past all the pain, all the pain of having my heart broken by the man I thought loved me. I had forgiven you for her, but you have decided to marry her. Well, go ahead", I said.

"What?" Edward said. Mia looked at him in surprise; it was like he was shocked I was allowing it.

"You heard me, I told you to go ahead and marry her. I am not going to go with Jake, he is my friend and that is all I want. I am going to go somewhere, where you can never find me again; you will never see me again. Sound familiar", I said. He looked at me in shock; I could see I had hurt him. I felt like this was where I would usually hug him and kiss him. "Goodbye", I said. Turning I walked from the room, as I made for the door I heard him calling my name.

"Bella, wait", he called out to me as he just made it but I was already out the door. His hand caught my wrist and stopped me from walking any more. I turned back and looked at him. "Please, alright so maybe I did overact, when I saw you with him, I knew I had lost you. I had to do something that would show I had gotten over you maybe that would cause you to move onto. But I haven't I still love you Bella, everyone does. I told them to act weird around you, Alice still loves you and Esme, Rosalie... well she is Rosalie", he said. I looked at him and shook my head.

"I don't care; I can't do this anymore Edward. All this drama, you have a child on the way. Marry her and be with her", I said. "Let me go", I said and pulled my hand. He let it go and it dropped to my side. "Goodbye", I whispered. Before I knew it his ice cold lips were pressed to mine, I gasped but pushed at his chest. "No", I screamed. I turned and ran, tripping up a few times I kept myself up still and ran to my truck. Ripping the door open I slammed it shut and stabbed the keys into the ignition, kicking it into life I doubled punched the clutch and took off back down the road.

Tears dripped from my eyes but I kept going. Soon I knew I couldn't drive anymore due to my involuntary jerks every time I sobbed. Pulling up onto the side of the road no cars passed. Shutting the engine off and I exited the car and ran into the forest. I didn't stop until I felt my foot caught on a root sticking out and I went straight onto the ground. I thankfully didn't cut myself, but I felt a cold hand on my waist pulling me back up. I was still as he stood holding me. "Please", his voice came. Tears still came from my eyes. I shook my head he turned me so I faced him. "I'll do anything", he begged me as I knew what I wanted, what I had always wanted, him.

I leaned up and pressed my lips to his, "Be with me", I said. He shook his head.

"I can't, I'll hurt you", he said and his face looked like he was in pain. I cupped his face.

"No you won't, now love me", I said and pressed my lips to his again. He then gave in, he wanted it too. He took my hand and wound his finger in between mind, kissing me back. I felt him wrap his arms around me and then the breeze of the wind. I gasped and looked around, we were in our meadow. Pillows and blankets lay on the ground with candles around them, I smiled. "Alice", I said and smiled, she had seen this would happen. I smiled and continued to kiss him as he finally gave into my request.

We lay perfectly still, so peaceful. The light from the flickering candles around us was the only source of light except the moon which was hidden behind clouds. I was wrapped up in his shirt and tons of blankets as he lay next to me, bare chest with just his black trousers on. His mouth came down and kissed my shoulder as I smiled and gave a giggle. This was perfect, we had finally been together, and it was perfect, nothing bad had gone wrong.

"Thank you", I said and turned to look him. But I knew I had to tell him, but not now. "I should get home", I said. He gave a groan next to me and I giggled, "Hey, you can come too, but I just want to be a lone tonight, to get things cleared up at home and then we can be together", I said. He smiled and nodded, leaning down and kissing me again, my heart sped up but my mind was screaming.

He stood outside my window, I smiled and waved him goodbye as he turned and ran off. I knew I had to act quickly, if Alice saw what I was going to do she would tell him. I grabbed my phone and dialled Jacob's number. He picked up, "Hello", he said.

"Hey, it is me. Could you come over in an hour, I know it is late but we need to talk, I let Edward go and I need you", I said.

"Sure, in an hour", he said. I knew with Jake coming it would make Alice not able to see my future. I then texted Edward telling him not to worry about the disappearance of my future, Billy and Jacob were here visiting Charlie. I turned and grabbed my suitcase, throwing handfuls of clothes in I grabbed my bag and grabbed anything I needed. The photo album which had pictures of all the Cullen's and Edward, Jake and Charlie. My passport, purse and more clothes. I had about $3000 saved up for the wedding, it had been put into my account for private clothes I wanted to buy for the honeymoon. I knew that this money would be for my ticket, to where? I grabbed a piece of paper and began to write the notes I needed.

Dear Edward,

This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do; it physically hurts me to write this. She is the one you must be with, she is having your child and I know you will love it. I will forever love you and tonight was the best night of my life, you were so brave and I love you for that. When we first met and you acted as if you hated me, it broke my heart to think that this handsome person would be repulsed by me but it was the complete opposite. I will miss you and will forever love you until the day I die, please move on my love. Tell the others I forgive them and I understand, say goodbye to everyone and give Esme a hug from me. Please don't come for me. Forever yours.

Bella xxx

As I finished it I wrote his name on an envelope and placed it on my bed, the next was for Jake.

Dear Jake,

I knew it was wrong to trick you into coming over, but it was the only way I could get away without Alice seeing me, please don't hate me. I know how you feel about me, I have always known but I can't do that to you or myself. Please find someone and please... look after Charlie, he doesn't know how to cook and I fear for his life in the kitchen. From your Best Friend.

Bella xxx

I signed it and did the same as before, leaving it on my bed. Turning I grabbed my bags and suitcase and made for my bedroom door. Knowing I would never see this house again I took a slow walk out, Charlie was working late so he wouldn't be back for hours. Walking out of the house I left my key on the counter and walked to my car. Opening it I chucked my bags inside and set off.

I finally made it to airport and parked y car off, getting some money out I decided to get a flight somewhere and then get a flight to somewhere else so I could make them lose the trail if they tried to find me. As I chose my flight I payed and waited, I called my dad, but he didn't answer so I felt it was better if I left a message.

"Hey, it's me. I wanted to say I decided to leave, I don't know if I will be back. It is not anyone's faults so please don't have a go at Edward, I wanted him to go with her, I left him. I am leaving and well, I can't tell you where, I just need to get out of this town, too many memories. I am sorry I caused you so much trouble and I will always love you, Dad", I hung up and dropped my phone into a bin. My flight number was called, I turned and walked off, getting onto the plain as I knew this was a fresh start, it would be alright, I hope.

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