"Sometimes it's the smallest decision that can change your life forever." –Kerri Russell

8:25- Mess Hall

It's been a week since Parents Day. Seven days to be exact, and I still feel like a piece of crap. I can barely sleep, think or eat for that matter. Actually I tried to shove down my waffle, but I got tired of choking so I took out my diary and wrote what im writing. Anyway back to my miserable life, where were we? Oh right, Parents day. Yeah so I've pretty much isolated myself from the world and everything else, which means I've kind of been ignoring my friends.

Okay, I've been completely ignoring my friends but can you blame me?

8:25- Mess Hall

"Good morning." Percy said as him and the 'gang' (that's what me and Nico call all of our little people in our group.) entered the Mess Hall.

"Hi." I replied. It came out more as a whisper though. They all stared at me as if I were some psycho maniac…like Henry. Gods I hate him.

"What?' I asked. It came out harsher then I intended it to, but hey they were starting to bug me. They suddenly became more interested in their food.

"Nothing, you just look different Kit. Are you feeling okay?" Annabeth asked. I nodded.

She didn't look to sure.

"Okay…just checking." she said. She started a debate between socks and shoes (seriously, socks and shoes? They had to be kidding.) And I just sat their s if I were an invisible bug or something, and that's pretty much how the rest of breakfast went.

12:13- Thalia's Pine Tree

Its official, my life sucks.

It's filled with drama and crap and nothing good ever happens. Nothing. I guess that's just really bad luck right?

Right?

"Kit can I talk to you?" I heard someone say. I looked over and saw Nico coming over. My heart sank; I couldn't bear to talk to him. Right now wasn't the right time; I had to come up with an excuse.

"Um not right now Nico, I have to, um… go to archery." I said. I hoped he would buy it, but with the look that he had on his face I doubted he would.

"You know you're a really bad liar right?" he sat down next to me. "Why can't you talk to me?"

"Nico your starting to sound like my-" my voice trailed. Like my mother.

"You're what?" he asked. I shook my head.

"Never mind." I said. "What do you want anyway, im busy." He raised an eyebrow.

"With what exactly?" he asked.

"What is with you and all these questions? I must have rubbed off of you or something." I said. He laughed.

We really haven't talked like this in a while, and it actually felt pretty okay. I always liked talking to Nico for some reason.

"Seriously Kit though, what's the matter? Why have you been ignoring us?' he asked.

"I don't know what your talking about." I said. Gods why can't he just go somewhere, I don't need his stupid pity.

"Oh really? So what do you call it when someone stops talking to you for no reason Kit?" Nico asked. I looked him in the eye.

"I have my reasons Nico, I just don't feel like sharing them." I said.

"Forget it. Your impossible." He said.

"What does that even mean?" I asked. He didn't answer.

"Hello, earth to Nico. Nico answer me!" I said. He still didn't answer.

"I have nothing to say to you." He said.

"Whatever Nico, I don't need this crap from you. Not now, not ever." I said. And with that I stormed off running to my cabin. Who needs him anyway?

I know I don't…

1:02- Apollo Cabin

As soon as I came into my cabin, I ran into my current arch enemies. Also known as Jen and Rachel.

"Kit can we talk to you?" Rachel asked.

"If it's about me so called 'ignoring you' than the answer is no." I plopped down on my bed.

"Im guessing Nico talked to you." Jen said.

"From the looks of it, im pretty sure it didn't go well." Rachel said. No shit.

"Can you guys just stop talking about it?" I asked.

"No, not until you tell us why you've been ignoring us." Rachel said.

"I haven't been ignoring you!" I screamed.

"Yes you have!" Jen said.

"Ugh! Im so tired of this… I don't even know what this is anymore. I just want the whole world to stop." I said. For some reason Jen and Rachel's eyes got wide.

"You want the world to stop? Why the hell would you say that, do you want to commit suicide or something?!" Rachel said. I couldn't answer, well at least not true fully anyway. So instead of answering her I ran, not sure where I was going at this point.

Seems as if I've been doing that a lot lately huh?

2:34- The Pier (where else?)

Why can't life just stop? Answer: I would have to end my life. Do I want to end my life? Normally I would say something like 'hell no' or 'why would I want to do that'. Right now im more between 'maybe'. Yes I said it; I think that ending my life would be way easier than going to this crap. All I have to do is die, easy.

Am I crazy or am I just high?

Nope, the answer to that my dear friend is that I am…depressed I guess. I really don't know what to do. All I know is that I have 2 choices: continue with my living hell, or end it.

I got up and walked to the cliff near the pier. Me and Percy would always come here when we got bored, or just wanted to get away from it all. I steeped closer to the edge, and I kept hearing Rachel's voice in my head. You want the world to stop? Why the hell would you say that, do you want to commit suicide or something?! That word just kept coming into my head. Suicide. I stepped closer to the edge and almost loss my balance, almost. Another step and I would be free from it all. Free from life, friends and free from this camp. Free.

"Kit!" I heard someone yell. "What are you doing?!"

I didn't dare look back. I just put my arms back and jumped. Free.

12:34 a.m.- The Big House

I woke up feeling really sore. I tried to get up but immediately felt a wave of nausea course through me.

"Ugh." I said. I heard someone come next to me.

"Kit are you okay?" I recognized that voice. It was Nico.

"Yeah, im- im fine." I said. "What happened?" I asked.

"You jumped off a cliff. Why the hell would you even do that Kit, don't you know you could've died?!" he yelled.

"Yeah wasn't my best move right?" I smiled. His frowned burrowed.

"That's not funny Kit, why would you do that?" he asked. I looked away from him.

"I just…tripped that's all." I said. I tried to get up but felt sick again. I almost feel down too, but Mr. strong ass caught me.

"No you don't. Your not going anywhere until you feel better." He said.

"I feel better Nico. Honest." I said.

"Yeah right, and my dad's Kurt Cobain from Nirvana. Seriously Kit I mean it. Stay right here." He said.

"But"

"Just stay." He said. His eyes were practically begging me. Gods I loved those eyes.

"Fine." I said. He smiled at me and left.

I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding. Guess Nico has that effect on me. Wait, what did I just say, Nico has that effect on me. Psh yeah, as if.

9:27 a.m.- The Big House

I woke up (again) feeling a little better. I could actually walk now, so there was some progress. I saw that I wasn't alone either.

"Feeling better I see." Nico said.

"How long have you been here?" I asked.

"All night." He said.

"Why would you stay here all night?" I asked.

He shrugged. "I had to make sure my sunshine was okay."

I raised an eyebrow. "Is sunshine like some nickname you've gave me?" I asked.

He smiled. "Something like that." He said. Then his expression changed.

"Kit why did you jump off that cliff?" he asked. I looked away from him.

"I told you I tripped." I said.

"You jumped Kit, I saw you." He said. I turned around.

"That was you? You called my name didn't you?" I asked. He nodded.

"So you did hear me…" he said.

"Nico I tripped over a rock. Im clumsy and you should know that already." I said.

"Kit you literally jumped off! I saw you!" he yelled.

"I did not!" I yelled.

"Stop lying! Why you can't you just tell me the truth?!" he screamed.

"Im not lying!" I restored. I felt my eyes start to water, but I held the tears back. I would not cry in front of Nico, no way.

"WHY DID YOU JUMP OFF THE CLIFF?!" he screamed, inches from my face. His face was red now, the equivalent to mine.

"I DIDN'T JUMP OFF IT!" I yelled. "Why can't you believe me?!"

He narrowed his eyes. "Figure it out yourself." He deiced.

"Figure it out myself? FIGURE IT OUT MYSELF?! That's exactly what I've been trying to do all this week! Ever since Parents Day I've been trying! Why can't you assholes just leave me the hell alone!" I screamed.

Nico opened his mouth to say something but then closed it, as if thinking of something better to say.

"Did you jum- trip off that cliff because of what Henry did to you?" he asked. I looked away from him.

"What is that supposed to mean?".

"Kit, did you try to commit suicide?" Nico asked. I didn't answer.

"Answer me?" he demanded. I looked away, too hurt to even respond.. He came over to me.

"Did you?" he asked. His eyes were practically dragging the answer out of me.

"No." I said. He didn't seem convinced.

"Please stop lying and tell me the truth." Nico said. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Yes, I tried to commit suicide. Are you happy now?" I asked.

"Are you crazy?! Why would you do that? What were you even thinking?!" he yelled.

"I don't even think I was thinking at all." Then another question popped in my mind.

"How did you find me?" I asked.

"When you jumped you feel down to the bottom, and I kind of shadow traveled down there to save you. I really thought you were dead Kit. Why would you do that to me?" he asked.

"Nico like I told you already, I wasn't thinking. I wanted to escape this…" my voice cracked.

"Escape what?" Nico asked his voice full of hurt.

"Life." I said. He looked away.

"Great, you hate me now." I said.

"I could never hate you Kit. I could be furious at you, yes, but never hate you." He looked at me. "You're my life now, and I love you." He said.

What? Nico loved me?

I noticed that I was crying, but I didn't care anymore. Who cares about dignity anymore?

"You love me?" I asked. He nodded and pulled me into a hug.

Being with Nico felt…right. He's like a long lost brother to me. An extremely cute brother, but still a brother.

And I think I loved him too.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend.

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up all night with you

Had I know how to save a life.- How to Save a Life by The Fray

Authors Note: Well what do you think? Loved it a lot a lot, or hate it a lot a lot. When I wrote this chapter I was literally balling out (epically when you read it while listening to the song choice) so it kind of is my favorite. Tell me what you think by REVIEWING! Question for story: Why do you think Kit tried to commit suicide?