He wouldn't look at me. He didn't say anything, why was he acting like this. Was it so no one would find out? No because he hadn't acted this cold to me before. Did he regret making love to me?

We were at the studio everyone seemed upbeat. I think they were finally going to choose the last song.

'We recorded a new song yesterday when you were gone, I think it's really promising hopefully it's the missing piece.' Jared said to me as we walked into the studio.

'What?' said Caleb turning around to face Jared. He was standing right in front of me and still perfectly avoiding my eye.

'Yesterday, we recorded your new song, we came in to listen to it see if sounds as good when we're sober.' He walked off into the studio, 'What did he think we're here for?' I t was only me and Caleb. He turned around and followed Jared without a word to me. It usually took Mark the producer, a huge effort to get the entire band in the studio together but today we were all gathered in the sound room in minutes. Everyone was excited to hear how the song came out. Apparently yesterday after the boys had a few drinks they decided to improvise to a song Caleb had written although the lyrics weren't finished so he improvised the rest.

'Ready?' Mark asked fiddling with some knobs on the board until we heard the strumming of a guitar. The song was sad and desperate. It was painful to listen to and hard to hear the lyrics because of the slight slur in Caleb's voice. It wasn't hard to know what it was about it was cold and mean. It was the story of a seductive young woman stealing a poor lost boy's virginity. Oh my god it's about me. He thought I stole his virginity he hated me for sleeping with him. I can't breathe. I think I'm having a panic attack or an asthma attack I was having some kind of attack. I was gasping for air. I need to get out of here. I need air. Why is this room so suffocating?

'What's going on with Kate?' someone asked. I was leaning on the couch for support trying to breathe I searched for Caleb's face it was empty when I found it, empty and cold.

'Kate, are you alright?' Someone was asking trying to stand me up I pushed them off and got out of the room as fast as I could. I threw up in the gutter when I made it out of the building. I wanted to crawl up and cry until time had reversed and I'd never met Caleb Followill but I couldn't I'm not good at crying I never have been. I started to walk back to the house. It was quiet a walk seven miles but I would walk seventy miles not to have to go back into that room. My phone went off fifteen minutes later. It was Matt.

'Are you ok where did you go? What happened?'

'Matt calm down, I had an asthma attack,' I said improvising, 'they happen all the time, I went to get my inhaler, now I'm fine, I decided to walk home and get more fresh air,'

'Where are you now I'll come pick you up?'

'No, its ok I'm fine walking,' I hung up soon after and continued to walk. I could hear the familiar sound of a motorbike engine behind me. It slowed down and followed me. I walked on for a block before I turned around and waved to Matt, I tried a light smile but I think it was transparent. He pulled over and we sat on the lawn of a stranger's house.

'So the song was about you.'

'Yep,'

'You don't seem to upset about it?'

'I'm not very good at expressing myself,' Matt reached inside his pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarettes he offered me one before taking one for him and lighting it up. I did the same.

'Does this kind of thing happen to you a lot?' He asked.

'Surprisingly yes, yes it does.'

'I thought so you seem to be handling it very well if it was me I would be crying like a little girl.'

'The first time, I was dating this guy for about nine months, it wasn't that long but for a sixteen year old it was a pretty serious relationship, well I thought so, anyway I was in Perth for Big Day out when I found out he was fucking my best friend behind my back, he accidently send me a text for her,'

'What did you do?'

'Nothing, when I confronted her she admitted it, She said that they loved each other, so what was I suppose to do, anyway they're still together so I guess they do love each other, what sucked though is after I blamed myself for standing in their way,'

' Are you still friends with her?'

'She's still my best friend and I 'm really good friends with him as well,'

'That's was the first is there another one?'

'Yeah the second one, I was dumped by the guy a night before my formal because he admitted he was in love with my cousin... who is a guy,'

'Ouch,'

'Yeah, but I wasn't even devastated I was only bummed because he was the best shopping partner, and the third guy, well we only went out for a few weeks he turned out to only be using me to get a ticket backstage at Foo Fighters concert, he dumped me when we got there, I was so impressed with his bluntness and scheming I didn't even bother to get him kicked out.'

'That's cold,'

'All my cousins have this joke, they say if it happens again they won't blaming me for turning into a lesbian,' I laughed, it was a strained laugh but at least I wasn't crying, 'do you know what's weird none of those guys came close to hurting me as much as this did, and I didn't even have a relationship with him,'

'Well you did Kind of have a relationship, you were hooking up,'

'How did you know?'

'Please everyone knows, what do you think we're blind?'

'This is so embarrassing, everyone is going to know I slept with him and the song is about me,' my head was buried in my hands.

'Yeah but they're also going to know Caleb is a complete arsehole and I think you know why this time it hurt was because you're feelings for Caleb are deeper than any feelings you've ever had for other guys.'

'Stop saying feelings and since when did you become such an expert? I'm over talking about this it's to Laguna Beach for me, so how did it go the other night with Alice?'

'It was fantastic! Exactly what we needed I think our relationship just needed some privacy,'

'That's good, so you're not going to break up?'

'God no, in fact it made me see how much I love her,'

'Why is Rob's camera on your motorbike?'

'Oh he switched camera's he must have left that one with the bike,'

We sat there in silence for a while. I didn't want to go back to the house but I would have to eventually.

'Kate,' Matt said as I was zipping into the spare leather jacket.

'They're putting Cold feeling on the album.' I just nodded what else could I say.