This one is based on Graystripe. Kinda sad. Big surprise. Enjoy.
Inside My Heart
I love Millie, I really do.
I love Bumblekit, Blossomkit, and Briarkit. They are my kits, of course.
Nevertheless, I miss her.
Sometimes, a huge hole rips into my heart when I think of her and our kits, Stormfur and Feathertail.
It wasn't fair, the way she died. It was my fault... If we hadn't fallen in love, she would still be alive. She would have traveled with the Clans and
made it to our new home. Silverstream. My dear Silverstream.
"No! Don't leave me!" I cried as I looked into her eyes. She told me everything through them. She was dying. The kits were killing her. Cinderpaw was
trying to stop the pain and the torture, but nothing was helping her. We both knew she was gone.
"I'm sorry, Graystripe. I love you," she whispered. Her jaws parted and another cry of pain broke out. It tore through my heart, leaving it empty and
broken. I watched as the light left her eyes and one more spasm racked her body. Then she was gone. I felt her wrap herself around me once more, and
then leave. My love was gone, but those two kits were the only thing left of her.
Can you imagine the pain of losing one so close to you? She was my other half, my soul mate, and she was dead because of me. Yeah, it hurt. I
remember watching Stormkit and Featherkit so often that the queens would end up chasing me away just to give them their space. Then
RiverClan came... I couldn't let them take my kits away from me, could I?
"I'm going with them, Fireheart," I meowed, looking at my best friend. He looked at me like I was crazy, but I turned around to follow Leopardfur and my
kits. I-I just couldn't let them leave me. No cat in ThunderClan tried to stop me from leaving, because they thought I was a traitor.
Well, at the time, I was a traitor. I had broken the warrior code.
Then I was exiled from RiverClan when I tried to save Fireheart's life. I could hardly stand staying away from those little copies of Silverstream. It
tore my heart open to think about them.
Feathertail died next.
"It... she... Feathertail is dead," Brambleclaw muttered. I fixed my angry glare across him, and he shrank back.
"You killed her!" I spat, my pelt bristling. "If you hadn't gone on that mousebrained journey, she wouldn't be dead!"
I couldn't stand the pain of knowing both my mate and daughter were gone and had joined StarClan. When I was kidnapped by Twolegs, I
nearly gave up on myself. Then I met Millie. She fixed the hole in my heart for me. We spent time together traveling home, and I fell in love with
her. Silverstream will never leave my mind, though.
I love Bumblekit, Blossomkit, and Briarkit.
I love Millie, I really do.
I love Stormfur and Feathertail.
But there will always be a special place for Silverstream inside my heart.
Review? ---brackenfurlover