Wednesday
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"Go get some food dear, you look hungry. I'll call you if there is any change in his condition." The matronly nurse looked down at the thin girl with deep shadows below her eyes.
Christine reluctantly left Raoul's side. She walked aimlessly through the halls, watching the people. People died. People lived. Miracles and disasters unfolded. Nurses scuttled from place to place and doctors rushed to save a life, catch their breath and then save another life.
What is the point? Simply to buy time? They aren't truly saved. They'll probably be dead in a few years anyways.
Christine watched as a wife was forced to turn off the machines that kept her husband alive. She watched as a wife died of an STD she had gotten from her husband's infidelity. She watched all of the helpless people, knowing what was going to happen next, yet being able to do nothing about it. She could do nothing for their pain.
So God, what is the point? We live, we die – it all seems so pointless.
She wandered back to Raoul's room. His brother hadn't visited him once. In fact, the only visitor he got was her. She looked back at her life and saw how trapped she was. Even if she was free of Erik, she would forever be running, forever be avoiding the music. She might not have a physical cage, but she would be held captive in the cage of her own mind. She would never know what it would be like to just give in to Erik.
She walked slowly down to the cafeteria and bought a cup of expresso. She needed to think things through without Erik.
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Raoul couldn't move. It felt like someone was laying on his chest. He struggled to breathe. He tried to stay conscious and resist the urge to fall asleep. If he fell asleep, he knew he would die. It was so tempting to just give in, just for a moment. He tried to lift his hand to pinch himself, but it took too much effort. Even his fingers felt as if they were made of lead.
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I know it's short. I tried to write these next couple chapters to be as short as possible. I don't want to bore you with this period of time in limbo. I only have a few ends to wrap up and then we have the final two chapters and a last author's note.
Reading manga for the first time,
Raven Sharpe
(posted 04-13-10)