Chapter Four – The Silence that Binds Us
The silence dragged on for over an hour. Kagome silently cooled down. As her anger ebbed, she was left with confusion and irritation at herself.
Why did I let him read some of it? I don't want him to know how I feel…or do I? No, no…of course I don't. It's not like he would return my feelings. No, Inuyasha has a thing for dead girls.
She glanced at him from the corner of her eye and wrinkled her nose as the memory of him and Kikyo kissing popped in her mind.
Ugh, how could he do that? It was so gross…
She found herself staring at him for a few minutes. He had his legs crossed and he met her eyes with a steady glower. Even in the few hours she had been asleep, he hadn't dosed off even for a few minutes. Why, though?
Even after ten minutes passed, neither would look away. He was stubborn, as always. Though she wasn't angry anymore, with him at least, she was with herself. She still couldn't figure out why she had let him read from her diary. And on top of that, she was starting to feel guilty about the 'sit' command that she had barked at him. He had never raised a hand to her or tried to hurt her after all this time. Matter of fact, he had risked his own life to save her many times.
Well, he did try to kill me when we first met. But I think we came to a truce…I can't tell what he thinks or feels. He is always so closed. Why won't he open his heart to me? Just a little bit? Ugh! Here I go, blaming him again. I'm the selfish and mean one. Maybe I should apologize…
Inuyasha grunted, almost as if in response, she thought. His golden eyes didn't leave hers, not even to blink. She swallowed. Kagome suddenly realized that the fluttering in her stomach wasn't hunger. Well, ignoring the fact that she was hungry, she also was just starting to acknowledge the fact that they were alone together.
He is mad at me, though. I can't blame him, but still…we are alone.
The half-demon felt a twinge of surprise. He had been glowering at her for a good half an hour now, and yet instead of returning his irritation, the look in her eyes was softening. He huffed. He hated when she did this. It reminded him of the way Kikyo used to look at him after he had been yelling at her about something.
He immediately cringed at the thought of her. No, this was Kagome. She was different. Everything about her was different. Her smell, her smile, her personality, even the way she walked was different. He had grown accustomed to watching her differences. He had even become somewhat fascinated by them. Of course, he would never tell her that.
The way she was looking at him was starting to bother him. Inuyasha quickly broke eye contact and instead stared at his sword.
Damn her. How dare she treat me like that and then pull out that innocent look of hers!? If she doesn't stop it, I'm going to start feeling bad. Ugh…
Kagome turned her head to look straight-forward. Her neck ached a little from looking at the wall for too long. She stretched her arms over her head and yawned. It was probably past midnight.
Yes, I should probably apologize. But…how should I do it? He will probably just whine, huff, or complain about it once I break the silence. I wish I was as clever and pretty as Kik- …her.
She sighed heavily. The night would probably be a long one.