EPOV
I was walking to Bella's house i had to tell her about me leaving. My Mother had packed my bags last night so i was all set to go.
I was unsure if i should tell Bella how i felt about her. What if i don t survive out their and i never have the chance to tell her, even if she doesn t feel the same way she will at least know.
I was brought out of my thoughts by my angels beautiful voice calling my name.
"Edward, oh hey i was just about to come over to your house!"
"You were. Really i was just about to come to yours." I laughed.
She laughed with me.
"Come on let's go for a walk" She offered. I agreed happily. It gave me a little more time to organise my thoughts and find a way to tell her that i will be leaving.
We stopped at our favourite place in the whole world. The place we met. I still remember that day as if it were yesterday. That day brightened my whole life.
Our place was a cliff and over the cliff was the most magnificent view of the ocean. It would be quite fatal if you fell off it.
We sat down a few meters away from the edge. I looked at Bella and she was absolutely glowing. She looked so happy.
She noticed me looking at her, and knew that i was wondering why she was so happy, so she began to explain.
"Well last night Edward, when i said goodbye to you i made my way home." she started, i then realized why she was so happy. Her Father was home. She finished telling me the event that had taken place after she arrived home. It was quite touching. It looked like i was going out to war with Bella's Father.
"Edward? Are you okay? You don t seem at all surprised about my father arriving home."
I gave her an apologetic smile and explained to her that i already knew because my Father had come home also.
She was so happy for me especially when i told her that he wasn t going back out to war.
"Oh Edward, you have your whole family back together!" she enthused I was just staring at her. Oh how i would miss her. I knew that if i died she would be the last image going through my mind, that brought me some comfort. But thinking about never seeing her again was unbearable; it was so unbearable that it brought tears to my eyes. Bella, being the observant one noticed.
"Edward!" She cried out in alarm. "What ever is the matter?"
I wasn t ready for this. I didn t know where to begin. I took a deep breathe. And decided to begin from the beginning.
"Bella, I'm leaving" i whispered. That s all i could get out. So much for me starting at the beginning.
"What? What do you mean?" She asked. She didn t understand "Bella I m going away. And i might not be coming back." By the time i had said this i had tears running down my face. This was surprising because i never cry.
"What are you talking about Edward? I don t understand?" she practically screamed.
"I'M GOING OUT TO WAR THIS VERY AFTERNOON AT 12 O'CLOCK BELLA!! IM LEAVING" I shouted out at the top of my lungs with more tears running down my face.
Bella froze. Then she slowly dropped to her knees in tears. She finally understood. I felt like everything was going in slow motion. Except it wasn't it was already 10:30am.
I dropped on my knees beside Bella and picked her up and put her in my arms. I stroked her hair softly trying to comfort her.
All of a sudden she turned around and grabbed me by my shirt collar and got on her knees as did i. She started shaking me begging me not to go, not to leave her. I would do anything to make that happen. But it was too late. There wasn t anything anyone could do now. What s done was done.
I could feel my heart breaking. I hated causing Bella this much pain, HATED it but what could i do, leave without seeing her, without saying goodbye. "Edward, Edward please don t go don t leave me, don t leave me!" she was begging and begging. I couldn t handle it anymore. I had to get out of here. I kissed her on the forehead and said "Goodbye Bella, i will miss you with all my heart"
And then i ran. I ran as if there was no tomorrow. I ran away from the love of my life. I just left her there hurting and broken. I ran right inside my house and slammed the door. I couldn t contain it anymore i just started crying and crying until i thought i could cry no more. I expected my Mother or Father to come out and see what all the commotion was but it seemed as though nobody was home.
So i just lay there on the front mat letting my emotions take over me.