Age 10

I had realised quickly that I would never be able to compete with an adult or even some of the larger academy students in strength and so I decided to focus on four main areas speed, weapons, ninjutsu and chakra with a little strength genjustu and fuinjutsu training on the side.

The first problem I faced was weapons I couldn't afford them and even if I could no-one would sell them to me and so I started grave robbing every couple of years the chunnin exams were held in Konoha and so every couple of years dozens of fully armed genin died in the forest of death.

Aptly named I mused as I continued to ransack the corse of a grass nin.

It was dangerous in the forest, hell at best for an academy student it was suicidal, I stayed around the edges finding what I could, mostly I found nothing or what I did find was damaged beyond repair but if nothing else running around Area 44 was good for my speed training.

I pushed myself harder and harder closer to my dream of leaving Konoha and finding a friend or at least quiet indifference, I hadn't slept for months and today it had payed off I had found three grass nin that were killed in the chuunin exams just last week and there was more than I could have imagined finding one of the grass nin was carrying a scroll of jutsu around with him solving a major problem I was finding ninjutsu techniques.

Academy students were allowed in the shinobi library but all scrolls other than most chakra control and all D rank techniques were locked up and guarded, only those accompanied by ninja were allowed in, which meant practically even clan member could get in and of course the councils little wonderboy Sasuke, not that he needed it he probably had a butt load of scrolls around his compound just begging to be read the way he keeps pulling fire jutsu out his ass during ninjutsu demonstrations at the academy.

Hey there is an idea the next time I get kicked out class for breathing, not breathing, answering questions, not answering questions or any combination there of ill go to the Uchiha compound and copy that little pricks jutsu.

In case you havent noticed I have a little problem with Sasuke, he acts like hes all alone in the world and no-one could possibly understand his misery and at the same time acts like hes better than everyone and even if someone could possibly understand him they wouldn't be worthy of being near him let alone talking to him because the Uchiha clan is superior.

Sometimes I just want to fucking stab him to death asking him what clan? There are two brothers who are both psychotic and one of them if he ever gets caught will get put to death. The Uchiha used to be a clan now they are a stuck up little boy who isn't even a tenth of what his brother is.

Of course should I ever do that I would be put to death and my plan is to live before I die and thus far ive never lived a day in my life merely survived.

But back to the situation at hand I had nowhere to put my had earned loot my apartment had been burned down a couple months ago.

I guess ill just carry it around in storage scrolls.

Looking at the sky I see how dark it is normally I wouldn't care about the time but today I did for two separate and equally valid reasons first after dark the truly dangerous creatures of this forest came out and I wasn't sure I would be able to deal with them and second someone invited me to a birthday and I don't think it was with the intent to kill me.

We first met in Area 44 she was in the process of destroying, well pretty much everything in sight, unfortunately for me she hadn't sensed me when she unleashed he last jutsu a fire dragon, or perhaps she had at the time I wasn't sure, I saw her eyes widen at the last second as she saw me just before her dragon reached me there was nothing she could do and she knew it, barely managing a kawarimi I escaped with my sleeve on fire my heart pounding and my breathing heavy as I shook Twenty metres behind her and heard her swear "FUCK! I can't believe I just FUCK! Now they will never promote me."

Perhaps I should have realised then but I didn't and it was my fault, Raising my voice I yelled "Hey lady I'm alright I got out just in time" she turned swearing the whole time and I finally got my first good look at her.

I had seen her around Konoha of course who hadn't?, she was not so affectionately dubbed the Snake-Whore by the majority of the villagers from what I had seen of her she had few friends and was obsessed with dango, sake and sex.

We got to talking and and I felt a sense of kinship with her, we were both outcasts hated by many for things that we didn't even do. Or at least I assume I didn't do whatever I did but without knowing what I cant be sure. Anyway she invited me to her birthday in a weeks time.

So there it was, moving out of the forest I went to a clearing a often trained at and stored my equipment in a hollow tree where a figured it would be safe I figured I wasn't going to be gone for too long I picked up her present a silver necklace with sapphires embedded that I had found on a corpse, not that I was ever going to tell her that. As I turned to leave I stopped and rethought the situation. Anko lived in the middle of Konoha, Everyone in Konoha hates me, why would I leave all my weapons here? Grabbing a couple of sai and two thigh holsters.

Running through the rooftops of the city to avoid the villagers I felt a warmth welling up in my chest that I hadn't felt sing back when the old man pretended to care about me. I thought about it as I ran and came to the conclusion that it felt nice. Letting my face slip into a soft smile I wondered if this was what it would always feel like when I left Konoha.

The first clue that there was something wrong was when I couldn't hear any noise coming from her apartment but I had a friend a sister in adversity even, I was giddy with joy and worse than that I was naïve, I should have realised that she wouldn't want to be an outcast with me if she could just be an 'incrowd member' it was wishful thinking, it was stupid but to be entirely honest she had me at hello, literally she is pretty much the only person that wasn't the old man that has ever said that to me. I hate myself, but I hate her more so much more nearly as much as the old man.

I knocked on the door and she let me in with an odd expression on her face I later worked out it was guilt, quickly lifting up her poorly wrapped present I gave her a soft smile and whispered "Thank you for letting me come I've never had a friend before, a tear rolled down her cheek and she nodded at the time I assumed she was happy, I had overheard people talking about crying from laughter and thought this was it, she led me into her living room and as soon as I stepped through the door she mumbled something that sounded suspiciously like sorry and she pushed me through slamming the door shut behind me, looking around the room I saw a large number of armed ninja their eyes filled with hatred and the promise of excruciating pain for me.

I wondered if this was going to be the day that I died and do you know what? Looking back on my life right there at that point in time I don't think I would have done anything differently as the first tear I can ever remember shedding rolls down my face I can quite easily say this week was the best week of my life because this week I had a friend even if only for a short time even if it wasn't real to her it was to me.

The lead ninja a tall man with silver hair and a eye covered pulls out his kunai and calmly says "This is for my sensei fox" and the next thing I know I'm stumbling backwards and the kunai is no longer in his hand and then the pain hits me sunken half into my stomach is the kunai he was holding and then there is a sharp pain in my right thigh, my chest and my left shoulder I look down to see three shuriken sticking out of me I look to the window and see the sun setting in the sky with a orangey red colour bleeding into the clouds even as feel blood rolling down my body and bits of flesh being rent from my body, Today I thought to myself was a good day to die.