Through the Eyes of a Son
A five and one story from Jim's POV that is a companion piece to Blue Eyes a five and One from Winona's POV.
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AN: I'm so sorry it took so long to get this out. I went to visit my parents and thought that I'd be able to write while I was there but my muse ran screaming the minute I stepped through the front door. Here is chapter two.
II - The Day He Crashed a Car
He didn't regret it. No matter how many times Frank beat him he would never regret what he did to the car. He had had just a few moments of glorious freedom but it had been worth all of the pain he had been through in the last few weeks. That car belonged to his father and it was better that it was in a fiery heap at the bottom of the quarry than in some stranger's possession.
Ma was coming home today. Frank had commed her about the car and she had cut her mission short. Jim wasn't sure if that was a good thing or a bad thing. He wanted her to come home. He wanted her to come home and never leave him again, but he knew that was impossible. He was the reason that she went away. It didn't matter what he did or how good he was Ma would get a strange look in her eyes sometimes and then she would get sad. It was like she was seeing someone else when she looked at him. She would go to space when it got really bad. He misses her but it's his fault she goes away. Maybe if he doesn't look at her she won't be sad.
The minute she sees him Ma she pulls him into a tight hug and he has to bite his tongue to keep from crying out. Her hugs aren't gentle and the beating Frank gave him the day before left his body really sore. She notices that something is wrong and Frank breaks the 'why your sons are no good' rant he's on long enough to tell her that they're from the crash. He wants to tell her the truth but he was given orders no to upset Ma and he was forbidden from crying to her about his punishments. Frank's wrath will be swift and harsh if he says anything.
The hardest part about their reunion is not looking at her. Jim wants to stare at her face and soak her in but he can't, it will make her sad. He keeps away as much as he can. If he isn't around than she can't get sad and if she isn't sad she won't go to space. It's a good plan.
It's been two months since she came home and despite his best efforts Ma's getting sad again. He doesn't know what he's doing wrong! Frank is getting mean too. There haven't been anymore beatings but once Ma leaves they'll probably start again. Sam's restless and that is never a good thing.
When he wakes up and realizes that Sam is gone his world falls apart. Everyone leaves him and he can't figure out why. Frank is screaming, Ma is crying, and he is all alone. When Frank brings Sam home something ignites within him. It's like when he took the car. The feeling of 'must do something' is overwhelming and the rush of rightness is overpowering. Frank pounds on Sam and Ma does nothing. She stands there watching and Jim wants to scream at her to help. He makes a split decision. He will not let Frank hurt them anymore. He'll kill the bastard if he has too. The phaser feels perfect in his hand and Frank falls down just like he is suppose too. He looks to Ma to see what to do next but the expression on her face freezes him. She's seeing someone else again and it's worse than ever before. It hurts and he's angry and if he doesn't put the phaser down he might be tempted to shoot her. He flees and doesn't look back. It's days before he talks to her again. When they do speak it's because she's sending Sam and him away. Tarsus IV?
AN: I didn't get the response to this story that I did to Blue Eyes so I really want to know what you guys think of this story. If it's not interesting and you don't want to read it tell me. I always swore that I would never be one of those authors who begged for reviews but I'm on my knees here. If I don't get a good enough response I'll assume it's crap and trash this piece and start on my next story. Please review!
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