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A/N: Sorry this Chapter took so long, but there is an explanation at the end of the story. But first I must apoligies for the HORRIBLE grammer mistakes in the last Chapter, at one point a section had actually been earased by accident. Thats what happens when R/L and stress and not enough time to proof read all combine I guess.

Here's hoping this ones better!

Last Time....

We walked in silence the rest of the way to the store. This was the first real conversation I had had with Edward since they showed back up in my life and I didn't know what to say or do. As if my day hadn't been crazy enough, Edward's speech confused me even further.

BPOV

I made my way into the corner store and found the isle that held the pregnancy tests. Edward followed me in silently and stood with me in between the feminine products and the condoms, staring at the selection of pregnancy tests they sold.

I had made it this far and now I just shut down.

How do I even choose which brand to buy?

Which brand is more reliable?

The last thing I needed right now was a false positive or worse a false negative, and I knew I couldn't trust the packaging as they all said #1 this and most reliable that, so instead I just stood and stared.

"Bella?"

Silence

"Bella?"

Silence

"Bella!" Edward said not so quietly scaring me out of my trance

"Ah, Shit!" I Jumped, "Was that really necessary Edward, you scared me?" I said looking at him

"Sorry, you seemed to have spaced out there for a bit though. Are you going to choose one?" He asked

I don't think I can, I'm not sure I want to know, I mean, if I'm not then.... and well if I am then... oh, what do I do? I can't even pick a pregnancy test out and I'm supposed to be a mother, oh no! I'm going to be spacey and flighty and indecisive - just like my mother...." I said and started hyperventilating.

"Bella, you have got to calm down love, every new parent is like this, just asks Carlisle - and you are most defiantly nothing like your mother." He said, "Sit down and rest your head and just breath for a second okay,"

Doing what he said I sat on the floor of the Stop 'n' Shop, laying my head on my knees and just breathed. In... And out... in... And out...

"Okay, I think I'm fine now. Sorry about that" I said and Edward helped me up off the ground.

"Like I said Bella, it's normal. Now how about this, we buy this brand" Edward said holding up a blue package, "as it is actually what most doctors recommend, or at least that's what Carlisle passed on to me before we left, and then we will get this brand" he said holing up a pink Box, "Just to cross reference, Sound good?"

"Yes... Yes that sounds good. Good Idea" I said grabbing both boxes from him and accidently grazing his hand with my hand.

His cold flesh surprised me in a way that it didn't with the rest of the Cullen's and I felt an electricity in that connection that had been gone a long time.

"Sorry" I mumbled and turned to take my purchases up to the register.

Edward met me at the register with two bottles of water, and I raised my eyebrow at him, what exactly did he need water for.

"For you" he said with a smile, "So you can umm... be ready to take the tests" He said looking at the water bottle on the counter.

The young girl working behind the counter was reading a magazine and had an IPod on; I don't think she had even noticed us come in, in the first place. I stood there trying to get her attention getting angrier by the minute.

I mean really who raised this 15/16 year old punk, and why did she think she could get paid for just sitting around reading free magazines and not helping customers.

I was seconds away from walking behind the counter myself to rip the headphones out of her ears and give her a lesson in customer service when thankfully she happened to look up.

Seemingly startled to realize that we were not only there but waiting for her to ring us thru she removed one ear bud from place and walked forward to scan my stuff.

Picking up the two pregnancy tests and reading them briefly before scanning them she said, "Shit, pregnancy scare aye? that sucks. A friend of mine just found out she's knocked up too – hope you guys have better news" while looking between Edward and I.

All of a sudden every thought I had been having since my 'ah ha' moment when I realized I was probably pregnant fell away to one single thought – MY BABY, my precious baby who was made in nothing but love between Will and I and that that could never be a mistake to wish away. I was instantly furious; apparently mamma bear is on high alert.

"FIRST OF ALL HE" I said motioning my head towards Edward, "IS NOT THE FATHER, SECOND OF ALL, WHO ARE YOU TO ASSUME I GOT KNOCKED UP, AND THIRD..." It was at this point that Edward threw a 50 dollar bill on the counter and pulled me out of there as it was obvious I was only getting angrier and that I wasn't going to stop myself anytime soon.

Once outside I turned to Edward, yanking my arm out of his grasp and yelled, "What the fuck Edward I was in the middle of a conversation!"

"Yes love I know, but don't you want to get back to the apartment and take those tests sooner rather than later?" he asked, "Plus you don't want William to worry about you do you?" he asked, officially taking all arguments away from me.

We walked in silence at first, like he had at first on our way down to the store, although somehow this was a different kind of silence. I took out a bottle of water and started to drink.

Edwards's blunt appraisal and confession of the situation had not been lost on me, and although I still new I loved Will and was meant to be with him, Edwards's words had done more damage than I had earlier believed such a confession would do. It was obvious by the electricity that passed between us in that accidental hand graze that I could not ignore that there was something between the two of us, and his new found freedom in calling me love had not gone unnoticed and would need to be dealt with sooner or later. The most confusing part was that as much as I could no longer fight the connection between Edward and I – I could also now feel that as strong a connection as it was between us it had altered itself, at least on my end, into something odd and unidentifiable.

I was relieved and saddened at the realization that what Edward and I had once had was once and for all, a thing of the past that could never again be obtained. I just hoped that Edward had felt that too.

"You are thinking mighty deep over there Bella, do you care to share?" Edward asked in a quiet sincere voice.

"Are you sure you want to know?" I asked in return

"Always Bella, I'll always want to know your thoughts and opinions, that will never change, no matter how life ends up." He said

"Well, I was thinking that this new sense of freedom you seem to have in adopting your old nickname for me is going to have to stop unless you want to blow you and your families cover for one thing."

"Does my calling you love bother you then?" he asked in return seeming to ignore my point about their cover story.

"Bother me? Well no, not exactly, I mean it feels kind of natural I guess. But Edward I am sorry for having to say this, but it no longer holds the same meaning on my end that I fear it means to you."

"Well... you are right about one thing Bella it is natural, nothing has ever come so naturally to me as calling you love and loving you. I'm sorry to say your fears are justified, I do love you possibly more now than even before if that is even possible. Like I said earlier tonight Bella, my love for you will not change and I have come to realise some important things recently and I will be honoured for any position you allow me in your life I just hope to be a part of that life in some way. As for it meaning more to me then it now does for you, that too is my fault, and my burden alone to carry, do not worry about a miss communication in feelings I understand you are in love with William now and that I have lost that right to claim you in such a manner."

"And what of your families cover story" I asked him

"Oh well, no need to fret about that Bella, I will be careful I promise you, William will not hear that endearment I have for you I promise though it will always be said."

We were now turning down my street and I could see my apartment building on the far end corner.

"I'm not really sure what to say to you Edward?" I said being honest. All this honesty was too heavy

"Tell me your happy then, or tell me what makes you unhappy so that I might find a way to change them. Tell me anything Bella but please just don't stop talking to me again and cutting me out of your life." He said

"Well... I'm not too fond of this morning sickness, anything you can do about that?" I asked jokingly, not expecting an answer

"Well you can try taking Ginger in 250mg capsules three times a day since ginger has long been associated with alleviating nausea. Some try carrying a handkerchief with a few drops of lemon essential oil in it and breathing through it if you can't get away from a bothersome smell. Oh, make sure to have frequent Protein snacks, and eat smaller meals every two hours or so if you can. Sleep is obviously important as well as keeping hydrated, but make sure never to sleep right after eating and try not to drink with your meals as it can increase the morning sickness." Edward said and I just stopped walking and stared at him with my mouth open

"What?" He asked

"Umm, nothing I guess. I just wasn't really expecting an answer is all."

"But you asked what to do about it, I do have a medical degree you remember and have been alive for well... Long enough to know these things"

"Yes, well thanks I'll try those things thank you" I told him as I started walking again

"So... Are you hoping for these to say positive or negative now that you have had time to think and get some fresh air?" He asked holding up the bag that held the pregnancy tests.

"Well that's a hard question to answer Edward, because I want it to be positive with everything I am and yet I still wish I had some more time you know?" I said and paused before continuing on "But it's a bit of a Moot point regardless I think, I know I'm Pregnant, if I was unsure before that little episode in the store proved it loud and clear, can you say crazy hormones." I laughed

We made it to the apartment and up the stairs and I was just about to open the apartment door when Edward grabbed my hand stopping me.

"I just need you to know Bella that no matter what, my entire family is here behind you 100%. I need you to promise me that if you ever need anything big or small you won't hesitate to call and ask. Even something as small as needing to talk and even if I'm not the one you feel you can talk to, we are all here and wanting to help, understand that no matter what the two of us are too each other, you are still a daughter and a sister to all the Cullen's in there." He said motioning to the door

"Thank-you Edward; for everything not just that kind offer." I told him and then after a deep breath I opened the door.

Edward and I made our way into the apartment; hanging up my Jacket in the hallway closet Will found me and wrapped his arms around my waist. "What took you so long babe? You had me worried" Will whispered into my ear. Looking around I saw that Edward was gone, probably gone to sit with his family and wait.

"I'm sorry Babe, I needed the air so I took my time is all" I said closing the closet door and turning in his arms. He was such a beautiful man-Tall, Dark, and Hansom was only the beginning, and I was glad that after the frankness of Edwards confession and our whole discussion that I was still able to come home to Will and be sure of us as a couple.

There was no denying that I still loved Edward, that there was still a spark between us that may never be lost, but the fact was that in the years that he had stayed away I had changed and he had not, in most ways anyways.

I had grown and aged, dated and found love, I now knew what a grown up relationship entailed and the partnership between Will and I was strong and unbreakable.

Although I had to now admit to myself that yes I did love Edward too, it just wasn't enough. His 17year old body, and in a lot of ways his 17 year old brain no matter how smart he was, would always now stop us from ever being more. I saw the beauty in Edward but it no longer lit a fire within me of need like it did when I looked at Will: And it was with this realisation I was saddened for Edward as I realised how impossible his situation was. His hatred for what he was, his 17 years old stunted self not able to grow or mature, and his unyielding devotion to me broke my heart.

I gave Will a kiss and told him I would be right back, the two bottles of water I had managed to drink on the way home seemed to have done their job remarkably well. Taking a detour to one of the hall closets where we stored some extras, I found a bag of leftover plastic cups from the last BBQ we had with Charlie and Amanda, grabbing one I made my way to my bathroom.

Once inside I locked the door and started opening boxes and reading directions. I know it's not brain surgery or anything but I wanted to be sure there were no mistakes.

After collecting urine in the plastic cup, I took the two pregnancy tests, took their caps off the tips and placed them in the cup for about 10 seconds. Removing the tests to sit right side up as the instructions said I disposed of the urine and cup and waited.

I thought this wait was going to kill me, honestly of all the things they have improved in these past few years, how have they not found a way to speed this process up.

After about a minute and a half of me going nuts sitting in the bathroom alone thinking about things from what an un romantic way it is to find out your pregnant- Peeing on a stick, too whether or not I was happy, too the picture I got of Will smiling down holding a bundle in his arms and the feeling of content that flowed through me at that last vision, a knock came at the door.

"Babe, can I come in?" Wills voice came to me through the door. I got up off of the bath tub and went to unlock the door and let him in. "Hey" he said smiling down at me and then leaned in to kiss my temple.

"Hey" I said back to him and melted into his arms.

We made our way back into the bathroom and stood together facing towards the tests. Standing there with Wills strong arms wrapped around me and his warm beautiful smell putting me at ease while he randomly kissed temple, cheek, and right behind my ear I realised that it wasn't so scary when I was in Wills arms. I was not after all going to have to do this alone, and with that acknowledged I could relax and be happy.

The timer went off, and I turned my head to look at Will, "I guess it's now or never" I said "Two lines means positive, one is negative, you ready?"

"Ready" He said and held me close as we approached the counter top where the two tests lay.

A/N: Okay so how'd you like it? Love it? Hate it? Anything you want to see happen not happen? Let me know!

So for those who have been sticking by me, Thanks for you patients and lovely reiews and support. I'll let you know that the next chapter is almost completely written and should be up in the next day or two!

Now as far as R/L goes I find I must tell you what's happening as I had been hoping that by this point I could be giving you guys regular schedualed updates. A family member of mine has recently been sick and we have now found out it is cancer and not a small amount of it. They are now starting chemo and we are hoping that this may make some difference in options. I only tell you this because as a result I am constantly having to drive out to help them and be with them without the use of my computer and thus regular updates.

Thank-you all for your patients again, I will continue to try my best to get new chapters out to you as regular as possible as there is SO MUCH more I have planned to happen in this story!

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