World So Cold Chapter 3: The Prince of Niflheim is Alone, a yu-gi-oh gx fanfic

Title: World So Cold

Genre: hurt/comfort, romance

Rating: K+ for very mild language and slight violence (might go up)

Pairing: JohanXJudai (spiritshipping)

Song: "World So Cold" by Three Days Grace

Summary: AU. Long ago, Odin banished the god Johan out of Asgard and sent him to the world Midgard, world of the humans, after banishing Johan's lover, Judai AKA Hel, to the world Niflheim, the realm of the dead. Now, Judai, after being tricked by Odin into thinking that Johan abandoned him, wants revenge against his former lover. Can Johan prove his innocence, and prove that he truly does love Judai before Judai is dragged into Niflheim again?

Me: The third chapter is up, guys!

Lucy: In this chapter, the one before the final, we shall find out why Judai is so angry with Johan, and we'll learn about it even more when we hit the final chapter!

Me: This is a Judai-centric chappie, so Johan does not appear in it, though he's mentioned a lot!

Lucy: Here it is! Enjoy!

Chapter Three: The Prince of Niflheim is Alone

Hel.

The land of the dead right above Niflheim.

Hel was a vast and cold land, but not nearly as cold as Niflheim. There was almost no heat here, but there was no ice. It was a massive world of crystaline structures, large cavern-like places, and it was filled with souls of the dead.

This was the land where good people went.

Judai could come here as well, but only on certain occasions, if he had enough power.

Most of the time, Judai had to reside in the icy wastelands and the icy kingdoms of Niflheim, where the souls of the damned, thieves, killers, rapists, and villains lived.

The place where Judai had created in Hel was a huge room with tons of books on Norse mythology and a few picture books as well. It was a very cold and lonely room.

That's where Judai and Shou had vanished off to a short while ago.

Judai was sitting by a window, reading yet another book on Norse myths. He sighed and glanced over at Shou, who was sitting at the table, messing around with a piece of his hair.

"They always write me as a woman in mythology," Judai murmured.

Shou shrugged and yawned. "Maybe that's because you fell in love with Johan," he said. "And homosexuality wasn't exactly welcomed with open arms in the Viking Age."

"True," Judai murmured. "But Johan's never mentioned in any mythology books."

Shou yawned and stretched, reclining in his chair. "Oh come on, Judai. You're exagerating," he said. "Johan must be mentioned in at least one or two mythology books."

Judai shook his head and set his mythology book down. "Shou," he said. "I have been alive for a long time. I've been in Niflheim for 900 years, the most I can do is read, since there is almost no one except you and a bunch of damned souls to talk to. I've had a lot of reading time. I've read all the Norse mythology books ever created in the history of the world. Johan isn't mentioned in so much as one of those millions of books."

Shou whistled. "Wow," he murmured.

Judai sighed and folded his arms across his chest. "Y'know," he murmured. "A... long time ago, Skuld, the Norn of the future, came into Niflheim and told me never to despair. That Johan would come and rescue me some day soon."

Shou glanced up and pursed his lips.

Judai flinched and glared at the ground, as if he was going to start crying again. "That was well over 800 years ago," he said. "Johan never came, and yet, I never gave up hope."

"It's a shame," Shou whispered.

Judai nodded and ran his finger across the glass of the window. "That's why... when Odin came and told me that Johan never cared about me, it was so hard for me to believe it," he whispered. "I told Odin to prove it, and he showed me an image of Johan in Midgard. He... I... have never seen him so happy before. It's as if the fact that I, his lover, the one he promised he would love forever and always protect, was trapped in a cold and horrible world like Niflheim meant nothing to him-!"

Shou noticed the glass on the window rippling, as if it were about to shatter. He preparded himself to duck if it broke, but didn't need to, for Judai calmed and sighed.

"That's why," Judai whispered. "I need to make him suffer as I have."

Shou sat straight and gave Judai a slightly pitiful look. "Will you, y'know, reconsider?" he asked. When Judai was silent, he contined. "I mean, what if this is one of Odin's tricks? You can't exactly trust him, you know?"

"I know I can't," Judai whispered. "But I saw what I saw. Johan was happy. He never thought about me once. He never truly loved me, otherwise, he wouldn't be happy without me there. He would be thinking about me all the time, especially after all of this if he truly did love me."

Shou leaned back and folded his arms across his chest. "Then, you won't reconsider?"

Judai shook his head. "No."

Shou sighed and stretched, cracking his back with a relaxed moan. "You may want to rethink this, Judai," he murmured. "If not, then the choice you make, you may live to regret it."

Judai turned away from him. "I regret nothing."

Shou chose to say nothing and went back to rocking in his chair. Judai closed his eyes and started singing the song that he had sung in the library with the same solemn tone.

I never thought I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm broken down inside
Livin' with myself
Nothing but lies

I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself
Is all I have

I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time

Livin' in a world so cold
Wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul
Since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away
You've gone away

Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at yourself
Paralyzed

I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time

I'm too young to lose my soul
I'm too young to feel this old
For so long I'm left behind
I feel like I'm losing my mind

Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at your life
Paralyzed

When he finished, he glanced back and saw Shou giving him a strange, pitiful smile. Judai flinched at the smile and glanced away. He hated when people smiled.

It reminded him of how he couldn't.

"That's such a sad song," the cyan haired dark elf whispered. "Why do you sing it."

Judai shrugged and looked out the window again. "It suits me," he whispered. "The lyrics match what happened to me and how I think and how I feel so well, it's almost scary."

"How so?" Shou asked.

Judai rocked back. "The first verse, and the second verse, they both match me because everything I know is a lie. I'm living all alone in Niflheim, you see? I have nothing when I'm there," he answered. "As for the chorus, think about it. The world so cold can refer to Nifheim. It's a world of nothing but crystals and ice. No heat, no love. Nothing. And the person who went away? It can mean Johan. My world's been so cold since I have not been with Johan. It's the perfect match for me."

Shou nodded. "I see," he whispered.

Judai sighed and folded his arms across his chest. "You must think I'm a horrible person," he whispered. Before Shou could protest, Judai waved a hand towards him. "It's all right, I know."

Shou sighed and was about to speak when a cold feeling washed through Hel.

Judai glanced up with wide eyes. "Johan?" he whispered as the feeling continued to resonate through Hel. It wasn't the feeling of a living mortal or a dead soul.

It was the feeling of a god.

Shou bowed and started taking a few steps back. "He's coming to see you," he murmured. "I'll leave you two alone so that you can talk. Find out, Aniki, if Johan truly abandoned you."

Without another word, Shou vanished and closed the door behind him.

Leaving Judai, the prince of Niflheim, the son of Loki, the god of the dead and the damned, to wait for the man who was his former lover to arrived as his heart raced.

Me: So, Johan followed Judai into Hel! But what will he do now that he's there?

Lucy: Will Judai accept his feelings, or will Johan be burned in the flames or rage and pain that burn ever so strongly within the eight world of the Norse gods?

Me: The final chapter, and it's a long one, guys, so please be ready for it, and we shall try and make it as good as possible! Sorry this was short, but maybe there will be a part two!

Lucy: Please review and we will update soon!