I'm so verry sorry for the delay, but saddly University and the finals coming down take most of my time nowadays. So after a long time, here is Chapter 7, tell me what you think about it! Unfortunatly, seeing as my finals are about the end of this month (OMG, I'm so not ready!!!!), it gonna be a little while before I post the next chapter!! I'm really sorry guys!

Today was misery

And I just can't believe this happened
And I finally broke down
She held onto my heart
But now my only star is falling
Its burning to the ground

Mayday Parade

-Anywhere but here-

Chapter 7

It was strange how everything could change so much in so little time. I had lived my entire vampiric unlife believing that I would stay alone for all eternity; never even envisaging the possibility of finding someone who would remain at my side, because how could someone wants to stay with a soulless being.

I am a monster; I came to accept this fact a long time ago. A time where I succumbed to the appeal of the human blood, a time where I thought I could play God. But even with my enhanced abilities I couldn't play His role for more than a few years. His shoes were too big for me. After all, only Him could do such a job, my preys were always chosen with specific criteria, it was selfish; and even trying to remove such filth from the world wouldn't atone the sin of drinking from their blood. It just wasn't feasible, and my world came crashing down for the first time.

This was a shock for me. Here I was, a vampire, a mythological creature, who can listen to the thought of everyone around him; and I couldn't fulfill this simple act of eradicating all the rapists and murders. My ego took a huge step back. That wasn't possible.

But even if I didn't want to believe it, it remained a fact: five years after leaving my creator I came crawling back hoping for him to take me back. He did and he surprised me by being truly happy that I was here with him and his new mate.

My creator, my dad for all intent and purpose was the best man you could ever have the luck to meet. He had faith in every person he met, believing the best in each; being compassionate to a fault, to the point of truly denying his nature and becoming a doctor. That was the type of person I was aiming for. But I was way far behind that; I don't know if I could someday even hope to attain his ankle.

And so, it was normal that his mate, my mother, Esme the sweetest woman on this earth, was his mate. He deserved the best and in my opinion she was it for him. So full of love and care for everyone; making everyone at ease with a simple smile, her mother-nature making her a jewel.

I loved them both, but I was the one odd out. Loneliness my ever present companion. After some time, Carlisle changed a girl. She was severely raped and beaten to an each of her life just before he bit her in hope of saving her and making her my mate. But no such luck, she was bitter, stuck on revenge – which she carried out fairly quickly, a mere hours after opening her eyes- and too vain.

I knew that she had just had a terrible experience, but couldn't she just show some respect to Esme who did everything she could to help her, and ease her in her vampire life. Nothing we said, or did could soothe her pain, her ache. Only time could do its work.

But Fate was keen on the gorgeous Rosalie, maybe because of the way her human life ended, maybe because behind all this bitterness, this pain was a truly good soul. And so when she was hunting on her own, she came back with a deadly injured man in her arms. The strange thing was that she didn't appeared to have bitten him or to even know him but she demanded of Carlisle to change him.

I think that he did it because he was so guilty of changing her when all she did all the years she was with us was to complain on how she didn't want that life. I find it a little hypocrite of her to ask Carlisle to change someone for her, when she was adamant that it wasn't a life she wanted for herself to begin with.

Once, Emmet, as was his name was reborn I saw why she asked for Carlisle. They were literally made for each other. Couldn't keep their hands off each other either. But we also saw a change within Rosalie as her relationship with Emmet progressed. She was more calm, opening herself to us, founding a passion in repairing car- maybe because she had repaired herself- and assuming with Emmet the role of protector of this family; she was after a real lioness.

So once again I was alone. But unlike before, when it was only Carlise, Esme and I, who were considerat enough not to flaunt the fact that they had founded the one for them, Rose and Emmet just didn't seem to have any trouble show casing their love- or more accurately, their lovemaking- they hadn't any ounce of decency. And for the first time of this unlife I was jealous. Rose had been meant for me, and even if I didn't feel anything more than brotherly love-and most of the time annoyance- I was jealous that Emmet had her! Couldn't I also find someone for me. My mate? Was it really true that I was good for no one??

Even if Carlisle and Esme did all they could to reassure m, I was still insecure. But as always, time helped thing by numbing my reactions to seeing the shameless Rose and Emmet.

By then, the little sprit that was Alice had join us. She had us floored when she appeared for the first time on our doorstep, telling us that she wanted my room because it had the best view and really did Carlisle really wanted to invest in this market when it was doomed to plummet in less than 36 hours. And that was what happened. She was accepted in the family in less time that it takes to say Jimmy Choo ( one of her God, as well as Chanel, and Christian Dior, and Lous Vuitton, and many others), moving my belongings to another room within the hour and advising Carlisle on another company that would supposedly raise. We were twice as richer in a month – as that was some something since we were billionaire- and things where a whirlwind where Alice was concerned.

But I had a special relationship with her, because as we were proven with the stock market, Alice had the gift of foreseeing and since I could see in her head that made us closer. We weren't really brother and sister since I just couldn't see her as this, even if I didn't know why, but we were more closer than friends. More like best friends, but even this term could describe our relationship.

Time passed as it always does, and one day someone knocked on the door. Alice had had the vision a mere half an hour before that. That took us all aback. Thanks to Alice we were used to know everything long before it happened, and so if someone went to see us we would know it; that was why it shocked us all. But Alice wasn't deterred by it and went to answer.

"Come on in, we were waiting for you!"

And in entered a tall, blond male whose body was littered in scars. His muscle body and his eyes alone warned you that he wasn't to be trifled, but the sight of his scars could sent you running away. A stunning creature was next to him. She was the most magnificent woman I had ever seen. Rosalie known for her beauty, wasn't even on the same level. She was enchanting, stunningly otherworldly. But she was glued to the scaring man, her arm going around his waist to reaching the other end, seeing as she was really small compared to him, just an inch or two taller than Alice- and I was loathed to see where her hand was.

Behind them was another couple. The man, was really scary too, but not as much as the first- but I don't think that anyone could be scarier- and he also had a mate. With all the scars that they had, and their red eyes, they were a frightening sight that accounted for their experience in dealing with opponent- vampire opponent.

Alice, bouncing on her feet, and seemingly nonplussed by the appearance of the blond male began the presentation.

"I'm Alice, this is my father Carlisle and my mother Esme his mate; the big oaf there his my brother Emmet and his mate Rosalie, and the emo sitting alone is Edward."

The angel had a smile on her face, after all who could resist the pixie charm? Her smile could really lit up a room. I was beginning to fall for this stunning creature and the worst was that I knew that it wasn't a good idea, because after looking in the mind of the blond male for a brief while, I could see that he was REALLY protective of his mate, really possessive too, and that I was absolutely no match for him- I'm sure he could beat me with a single finger and with his eyes closed if memories were accurate.

"Nice to meet you all. I'm Jasper Whitlock, the angel in my arms is my wife and mate Bella, and behind me are our sister Charlotte and the fool she calls her husband and mate Peter."

That was the second time my world went crashing done. Not only was she his mate and wife – and not many vampire went to the church seeing as many lost their beliefs after being bitten- but it was MAJOR Whitlock, I was doomed. I wouldn't be able to be more than a brother to her and that was only if her mate was OK with it. I couldn't even daydream of the not so possible chance of stealing his mate, because as was notoriously known all over the world, Major Whitlock was an empath and he didn't take lightly to someone lusting after his mate. Bella, as was the name of the angel, was also notoriously known for her love for the Major, and no one or anything would better her mind. She was as loyal as in love with him, which if the rumours were true was endless. More than a vampire -male or female- lost their lives trying to set them apart

Another hope lost. But even if she was angelic, if she wasn't meant for me, it wouldn't do nothing to fight for something that simply wasn't meant to be, most of all if it was at the cost of my unlife.

We also learned that the second man was Captain Miller, two of the most feared man were in our of living-room, and Esme bless her heart was just as accepting of them as she had been for me and all her other children.

This first afternoon was eye-openning for us. Major Whitlock and Captain Miller were not as scary as people made them, but then again seeing them all banter like little children could do that. Surprisingly Rose took after Bella really well and within a month they were like sister, Rose teaching Bella how to take apart a car and remake it but better, faster. Emmet was like a fish in water with Jasper and Peter, mock fighting all day long without getting in trouble for it; Alice found a shopping partner in the person of Charlotte, and Esme and Carlisle were simply happy that we were happy. Over the month, the Whitlock coven spent as much time in our house that we did them. Everything was alright for once, even if I still hadn't found my mate.

But about two years after the day when the Whitlock coven knocked on our door, Alice had a vision that sent my world crashing down for a third time.

You're standin' all alone,
Short of breath and tired eyes.
You're shakin' to the bone,
Overdressed and nowhere else to go.
Oh girl, I need to know...

A rocket to the moon

-Sometimes-