Oliver's POV
I woke up the next morning, breathing heavily. All I could think about was Lilly being hit by a car. Our hands were only inches apart.
I was to blame. I could've saved her. But everything just happened so quickly. I grabbed the pillow I was sleeping on and threw it towards my door. How could I live knowing that the person I loved had just died!
"Oliver, the funeral is in a few minutes."
I looked up to see Miranda. She was dressed in black. I quickly got changed. She took me to where the funeral was. Many people were there, including her boss who seemed so upset.
After the funeral, Miranda took me to Lilly's house. What was she trying to do? Make me cry even harder? She pushed me inside the house. I walked upstairs to her room and sat down on her bed. I touched the blankets that once covered her. A tear dropped down my eye. I stood up, about to leave until I saw a book on her desk. I looked at the cover of her page. It was another one of her diaries. I kept flipping through the pages until I saw blank pages. I flipped back to read her last 2 entries.
It read:
Dear Diary,
I have absolutely no one to talk to at the moment and I have a problem. I think I'm in love with Oliver. But I don't know if he feels the same way. I know this is wrong for me to feel this way because he already has a wonderful girlfriend, but I just don't know why I'm feeling this way. I guess James really opened my eyes. We had a fight today and for some reason he brought up the topic of Oliver stealing me away from him. I mean, that's just ridiculous. It made me so mad that I kicked him out of the house. Okay, not exactly kicked out, more like yelled him out.
It's weird how James knew I loved Oliver when I didn't even know myself. But now I have to just shake these feelings away. Or try to at least.
I turned to the next page and read on.
Dear Diary,
Miranda came to my house a few hours ago telling me that she broke up with Oliver. But what she told me made me quite happy. She said that Oliver loves me as well! So I gave him a call to tell him to meet me at the park. I am a little nervous, but I know it's going to turn out great. I can finally be with my best friend forever and ever. I couldn't answer my own question about whether I loved him or not. But now I know the answer.
I Love you Oliver, forever and ever.
I closed the book and walked towards her balcony. I leaned onto the railing and looked at the view. I was happy to know that Lilly did love me. But it made me feel kind of worse. She loved me, yet we couldn't be together. How was I supposed to live like that? I will never find a girl like Lilly!
It was my last day in New York and it wasn't exactly how I pictured it. I would've always thought that Lilly would come running to me and begging me to stay. I would hug her, then I'd wave goodbye. But those thoughts kept making my heart ache. Before I knew it, I was already sitting in the plane next to Miranda. Miranda didn't say a word to me, which is good because I'd hate it if anyone did that to me right now. All I wanted to do was go home.
Before I knew it, I was already at the airport. As soon as I got out of there I ran straight home. I walked up to my room and slammed the door shut. I took out my photo album from under my bed. I kept it hidden because it was filled with photos of Lilly and me and I had to keep her out of my head. I blew the dust from the book and opened it. I looked at all the photos. But it didn't help. I slammed the book shut.
Why did you have to leave me Lilly? I can't live like this any longer!