Explaination?

Chapter 15

When I was back in Cullen territory and out of danger my mind wandered to Edward. Air rushed into me just like grief and guilt. I kept running towards the Cullen's house, just wanting total safety. I dreaded what they would say about all this. Through the trees I could see the silhouette of their house. I slowed down to more of a jog. I broke through the tree line and collapsed into dry sobs once more. I could not walk another step. Edward might be inside, the werewolves might come kill us all, or the Cullen's might kick me out, or even hurt me. Edward will never talk to me again! Everything is going to go wrong I know it! I closed my eyes and sobbed in the yard for 30 more seconds and then stood again. Jasper and Alice were suddenly there in front of me. I wanted to push through them and run into the house. I just walked right into Jasper. He held me there in a hug. He could feel all my emotions, I knew he could. I didn't stop him from feeling it, I didn't stop his hug. I just let go. I didn't have the strength to do anything.

Jasper sent happy and calm over me. I knew I should be feeling something else. I felt very strange not feeling what I should but I didn't resist. My sobs grew quieter and farter apart until they were gone completely. I wanted to be sad but I could no longer. After almost a minute Jasper released me. The hug had also made me feel better. I held onto Jasper's arm, not wanting his comfort to leave.

"Don't worry. It will all be ok," He whispered with a soothing voice. I nodded, even though he was wrong. He didn't know everything that had just happened. I looked up at the house and saw Emmet in the window. When he saw me look at him he smiled reassuringly. I tried to smile back but I wasn't sure if he was convinced. I then Turned to Alice what was standing a few steps away. A little bit of sun hit her so she shimmered for a moment. She hugged me.

"I saw it in a vision," she began. Saw what!? The whole thing with Edward?! Did she see the kiss and me running away? "I saw you running onto werewolf land. You must have run into a werewolf because the vision went black. I can't see werewolves, they're too unpredictable. I didn't know exactly where you were. I told everyone but I thought you could handle it. I was worried but I didn't know what to do." Jasper and Alice both stared at me, waiting for something. Jasper seemed puzzled. Great, he's probably wondering why I was feeling so sad as well. He may understand guilty and all that but sad doesn't fit with what they know.

"You're alright aren't you?" Jasper asked with a worried tone.

"Fine, I guess. I mean I'm a little shaken but I'm not hurt or anything," I told him but it was only partially true.

"It's our fault this happened. I should have shown you the boundaries. We probably should have come to help," Alice said.

"No, that wouldn't have been good. You probably would have just angered them more," I told her trying to take some of the blame. It was my fault totally my fault. I was stupid so stupid.

"Maybe you're right. We still should have shown you. It is our fault this happened. You didn't do anything to hurt the wolf too bad did you? That wouldn't be good, especially on their land."

I shook my head. "The werewolf should be fine. Seriously Alice it's not your fault, or yours either Jasper. I should have paid more attention to where I was going." Alice sighed; Jasper looked a bit amused at the whole thing now.

I rubbed my wrists. There were marks from where the werewolf had held me down in the dirt. Stupid werewolves. Alice noticed me rubbing my wrists. I stopped hastily but she grabbed them. She shook her head at what she saw. I wanted to talk to Alice alone. I wanted to tell her everything, including Edward. It was strange because at the same time I really didn't.

Suddenly Emmet came running outside. "Am I too late?" he panted.

"For what?" I said trying to get the subject off the whole affair.

"To beat up those werewolves of course! I didn't want you having all the fun. Alice called to tell me what was going on and I rushed back home. What happened?" I laughed loudly. Leave it to Emmet to lighten the mood and yet stay on topic.

"Don't worry about it Emmet. It was no big deal. I'm fine, the werewolf is fine everything should be fine," I said, only one part was a lie.

"Well what exactly happened? Were you attacked?" Emmet asked. I nodded solemnly. "Are you alright?"

"Didn't we just go through this? I'm fine. I was just a bit shocked," I explained.

"Well come on, let's go inside and you can tell us all about the dog," Jasper said. As soon as he had finished his sentence Emmet swept me up and began to carry me like a baby inside.

"Emmet!" I laughed, "What is this?" I giggled again as he hoisted me onto the couch. In a quick vampire motion he put a soft pillow behind me and forced me to lay down. I laughed once more, but then thought of Edward.

"I guess this is your special treatment for escaping you first werewolf with us," Jasper informed me.

"Works for me," I pause and looked around, "Hey, where are Rose, Esme, and Edward?" I asked. Carlisle was probably at work.

"Rose and Esme are on Victoria watch. Victoria gives us so much trouble. Edward is… I'm not really sure where. With Bella most likely," Alice answered. Jasper flashed a quick glare at her, but Alice nodded letting him know that I knew.

"Will you tell us what happened now? Everything," Emmet said. He's like an impatient little kid in a candy store.

I described the encounter to them. How I had run through the woods and gone into their land and how I had fought off the werewolf. I conveniently left out the whole Edward issue. I would tell Alice about that later. I guessed that Jasper knew that there were emotions that didn't really suit the situation but he said nothing.

"I have to say that's pretty cool. Some of the werewolves are really difficult about the boundaries they're dangerous," Emmet told me. I shifted positions on the couch. Emmet was still hovering over me while Alice was perched on the arm of the couch daintily. They all just stood there waiting for something. I didn't know what to do or say.

After a long silence Jasper said, "We'll have to tell Carlisle about this when he gets home. He'll probably have to call up the council in La Push."

"Why don't you call him now and tell him?" Alice suggested. Jasper just nodded and went to the kitchen. We heard him quickly dial and start talking. Emmet didn't waste a minute.

"I'm going to go help Rose and Esme if you two don't mind," Emmet announced. He didn't wait for a response, just left. Alice looked at me sideways.

"Yes?"

"Is there something you should be telling me?" She asked.

I smiled; I had hoped she would figure it out, "Not where Jasper can hear." Alice smiled too; it made her look really beautiful.

"Well then let's go upstairs."

NOTE: WELL TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH RIGHT? SORRY. ENJOY. PS JUST SO YOU KNOW THIS IS KINDA LIKE IN ECLIPSE (IT WASNT WHEN I STARTED CAUSE I HADNT READ IT YET BUT I REALIZE THAT IT FITS PRETTY WELL IN THERE SO YA)