The Volturi life/ Break down

What I wanted was the satisfaction of being free, seeing Jasper miserable was just icing on the cake.

While on the plane to Volterra, Edward and I were talking. Even while everyone else slept. We really connected more than usual. He told me what he remembers about Chicago. I told him what I it was like having vision's and knowing that my real parents but me away. When we landed in Volterra, I looked around. It seemed different to me so how.

"No festival." Edward saying, reading my expression this time and not my mind. Finally.

"What happen to that'Without Bella, there is no me." crap you giving a year ago?" I asked, being a smartass, I know but I wanted to know what he was up to. Edward laughed at my question and looked at me.

"Things change, right? Besides, I'm not letting you go to the Volturi alone." Edward said being super overprotective and greatly annoying. I rolled my eyes, then looked at him.

"You know Edward, you can be very annoying at times."

"But."

I gave him a look. " 'But' nothing. You can very annoying at times."

Edward laughed and hugged me tightly. I hugged back of course. He's laughter wasn't what I expected, but excepted. We arrived at the Volturi palace. Demetri opened the door, he was staring at me. Edward got in front me and walked in, pulling me with him.

"DAH!" I said from being pulled so hard by Edward. I wondered what Demetri was thinking about. I knew Edward like a grizzly bear knows its cub, He read Demetri's mind and didn't like was what he was thinking about. If it was sexual, should it have matter? I was single and so was Demetri. He wasn't have bad looking either.

"Alice and Edward Cullen. What do we owe this visit?" Aro said standing up from his chair. Demetri walked into the Volturi hall and stood with the others in the guard.

"Aro, my sister Alice and I are ready to be apart of your guard." Edward said. I hated when he spoke for me but it didn't matter to me…at least not at the moment. Aro stood with a smirk. He walked down to us, I gave him my hand. In a instant he was seeing everything that I saw, my visions, my thoughts. A complete invasion of privacy. Finally he smiled and put my hand down and took Edward's, then put it down, as he did with mine.

"Well Alice, you'll be at my chair at all times and Edward you'll be next to Caius." Aro said. I didn't get why he needed to know what was going through my head but I didn't mind it. I was use to my mind getting probed all the time by Edward. Heidi showed us to our rooms. I didn't like Heidi…something about her irritated me.

Alice's Breakdown pt.1

Once I was in my room, I laid down and looked at the ceiling. There was a knock on my door. "Come in!" I yelled. Sulpicia walked in, I got up quickly.

"Sulpicia, Would you like to sit?" I asked politely. Sulpicia sat down and smiled at me.

"Sit with me, my dear Alice." Sulpicia told me. I sat down.

"Aro told me what he saw, your thoughts? Do you want to talk about it?" She asked.

Oh crap! Alice think of something quick.

But I couldn't. She caught me completely off guard! Finally I spoke!

"Uh, well there's nothing really to talk about, Jasper cheated on me with Bella. I couldn't be around them anymore. So I left. I wanted to kill them, but making them suffer and worry about meis just as good." I responded.

"Alice, forgiveness is a virtue. Its something that everyone needs." Sulpicia said. My gaze dropped to the floor and I stood up.

"I can't forgive them. Every since that man-steeling bad luck having lying clumsy whore walked into our lives we've nearly been exposed, my brother almost killed himself because of her stupid smelly pet over grown dog and we've almost been killed by the Volturi because of her!" I was pouring my heart out, the anger came rushing out. "I wish Edward didn't turn her. I wish I could have just sucked her dry and toss her to that mutt's feet! I hate Isabella Swan and Jasper Whitlock-Hale. Nothing will every make me forgive them. Ever!"

Sulpicia's mouth hung open. Edward, Demetri and Felix were standing at the door, their mouths open too. I had so much anger in my heart, I punch a giant hole in the wall. I ran off, the adrenaline was running through my body again. I was in a tree filled area, my head was spinning so fast. I could hear my thoughts running over top of each other.

Why did this happen to me?, How could they betray me?, Did I do something to deserve this?, I loved him so much. , If I didn't make him happy anymore, why didn't he just leave me?, He broke my heart. I was so happy with me.

The voices got louder in my head.

"Shut up, shut up, shut up, SHUT UP!!"

I was going crazy, I kicked a tree, crying my eyes out. I kicked another, what was going on with me? I was losing my mind. I was more hurt than I thought. I let out a loud scream, I'm sure everyone in the world heard it. I fell to the ground, crying. In the same position as before. My knees to my chest, my arms wrapped around them. I was shaking again. It started raining but I stayed were I was, broken in more ways than one. I felt like they reached inside of me, ripped my heart out from my chest. I felt more dead than ever before. The man that I gave my all for, the man that made me feel alive and strong is now the man that is making me feel dead and weak.