Explanation

"No Alice, please, don't, don't die on me. Please. I don't love Bella. I'm sorry I made you feel like you weren't good enough. Your better than she is. Alice, please. We'll start a family of our own. We'll adopt a baby girl and a baby boy and we'll have a family. We'll be together forever. No more cheating, no more Bella. You are all I want." Jasper cried, but my eyes were already closed...

Yet another dream

When I woke up it was dark. I was in a tight closed space. I could barely move around. I was in a coffin! "Let me out! I'm alive!" I yelled as if someone could hear me. I banged on the lid. Still no one opened the damn coffin. "When I get out of here, everyone is dead!" I yelled. With all of my strength, I broke the coffin and rose from my dirt grave. I looked around, it was dark…the only light I had was the moonlight, which was big and full tonight…beautiful. When I'm upset or sad, I look at the moon, not like a stupid overgrown dog but I just look at it. Tonight it was especially beautiful. It was so bright. I wanted to reach up and touch it. I laughed to myself and started walking. I felt like I was walking in circles. But I wasn't, it was so many trees around me, I got back to the Volturi hall. Finally, I can explain to them that I was dead I was just asleep…weird for a vampire I know. On second thought how was I going to explain that? A vampire who doesn't sleep just woke up from a dirt nap? I would get more strange looks than usual. I walked the closed door of the hall. What the fuck! That was some kind of witchcraft or something, maybe Edward playing a trick on me, Or maybe I was actually dead… I laughed. NAH! I couldn't be dead…well ghost dead anyway. I walked into the hall. A wedding? For who? When the groom and bride turned to the side to kiss. I saw Jasper and Bella. I screamed, "NO! JASPER I'M ALIVE!" I tried to grab his shoulders but my hands just went through his body. I looked at Jasper, his face was drained, not when we got married. He was paler than usual. He wasn't happy, I looked at Bella. She was smiling brightly, I looked around, no one was happy except Bella. The stupid bitch was glowing, it sickened me. She was marrying my husband.

I looked at Jasper and yelled, "I love you! WHY? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? PLEASE! TELL ME!" I crumbled to the ground, I watched them kiss, Jasper's lips were limp, no urgency. The kiss was over in less than five seconds. When Jasper and I had our wedding, Jasper couldn't take his lips away from mine, it was tender and loving, he put his hand on my lower back and me pulled me closer. When the kiss was finally over, Jasper was wearing my lipstick and I was ready to attack him. I laughed the memory, loudly.

I went outside, the doors closed. Someone appeared in front of me.

"Forgive him if you love him. Let it go and be with him." The angel said to me. She more beautiful than any vampire I've seen. She entered my body, I bright light shined from me. It felt like a battle was going on inside of me. The light died down, I looked up and seen myself but I had demon wings. She tried to re-enter me but couldn't. Her body turned to ashes and disappeared. When I turned around I saw everyone looking at me, Bella growled and tried to tackle me, I moved out of the way. I flipped into the air and kicked her in the head.

"I'm sorry Bella. But Jasper Whitlock-Hale is mine and yes I'm alive." I said turning around, Jasper was behind me and he kissed me. The same way he kissed me at our wedding.

End of Dream…

My eyes shot open, I inhaled deeply. I seen Jasper, he sat next to me. He head was laying in my lap. I sat up and smiled and stroked his hair. He turned around and looked at me, smiling.

"Your alive." Jasper said. I nodded.

"Tell me why, please. I need to know why I did or didn't do. What made you slept with her?" I asked.

Jasper sat on the bed. "It was nothing that you did or didn't do. It was my own selfishness and blindness. I thought Bella was what I needed but seeing you with Edward, made realize that you're an amazing woman and I had the best. I had what I always wanted. A faithful, beautiful wife. I ruined it all for just a hour of sex. I cant and wont say that I thought of you while sleeping with her because that would be a lie and I want to be honest with you. I know things wont be the same and they cant go back to being the same. But I believe that we can work through this and make our marriage stronger from this. I've learned from mistake, and I want to win your love back."

I looked down and smiled. "I want my southern gentleman back." I sat up slowly and wrapped my arms around him.

Jasper smiled back, placing his hands on my hips. "I want my frightening little monster back."

We kissed, so passionately and loving. So tenderly and softly. Jasper moved his hand to my lower back and pulled me close, I moved my leg to the other side of him, so my legs were on both sides of him.

Just as Jasper took off my shirt and threw it on the floor, Edward walked in. I pulled away from Jasper and looked at him. He sat down on the bed and looked at me. I got off of Jasper and put my shirt on.

"Can I help you?" I asked.

"Are you ok?" Edward asked.

"I'm fine. Why are you here?" I answered and demanded.

Edward looked down. "I'm sorry I let my feelings for Bella over shadow, how I feel about you. I let her get the best of me. I'm sorry."

I looked at Edward. I wondered if he was being sincere. He was a damn good liar. I didn't know if I could trust him entirely.

"I don't think I was ready for a full blown relationship with anyone so early. I knew you would break up with me if you found out that I was with Bella. I'm so sorry, I hurt you the way I did. Knowing that you had just been hurt by Jasper and Bella. Can you forgive me?" Edward added.

"I'm not sure, can we just be brother and sister?" I asked with a smile.

"Forget everything that happen along with it?" Edward asked looking at me with a smile. I laughed and nodded.

"Yes. Forgetting everything that happen." I confirmed. We hugged tightly. When Demetri walked in.

"Aro would like Alice, Edward and you, Jasper to decide Bella's fate. But he said that Alice is the main decision maker, since her life was put in danger because of Bella. Aro says to the choose carefully. Does she live or does she die? You have until sundown two days from now." Demetri said. I looked at Edward and Jasper as Demetri exited the room.

Once again I was put in a decision maker's seat. My chose to kill Bella or save her life would be taken against all others. This was a big decision I had to make. I looked at Edward and wondered what he was thinking. What was going through his head? Our happy moment of forgiving and forgetting was tarnished by this news of decision making. What do I do, in this situation? Would Edward be mad at me if I had her killed, or would he want her killed?

There was so many questions running through my head right now. I didn't know what to do. Do I take this bitch's life or do I save it….