Jacob Black.
I couldn't believe she did this. All because of her stupid leech family.
I know I shouldn't talk about her like this, but because she said she wanted nothing to do with me I might as well.
She was selfish, how could she end it like this, Oh yeah she can find someone new because she's not attached like I am. The fact that im not attracted to anyone else I see makes it even worse.
I thought the last kiss we shared would make her stay, I did things I never did before, I touched places I never touched before, We were meant for each other, that's not something I can say about anyone.
She walks back in the house, her back to me. Her long auburn hair sticks to her back from the rain, I can hear her run up the steps in her house.
She gets to her room, and the light flicks on. I hide behind I tree and watch what she's doing.
She throws something out her window. I look at it, Its small, and it looks broken.
While she's not looking I run over and grab it.
Its her bracelet.
The one I made for her.
My anger builds up in me, I can feel my insides turn to fire.
I need to run home, now.
I glide out of my shorts and shift, then I run. I run with speed, I run with anger.
The wind and rain hit my face, making my shaggy coat soaked in the rain.
It doesn't take long to get to La Push, When I get there Billy is sitting at the dinning room table reading some book.
"Oh Jake, I didn't think you would be home yet" He says.
"Yeah, Me either." I say.
He can tell I'm upset about something, just by the growl in my voice.
"Did something happen Jacob?" Yep, He caught on.
I don't know if I should tell him or not, he saw what happened to me when Bella married that leech, How mad and upset I was. But this time it was different, it was worse.
The truth is, He's all I have left.
I pull up and seat next to him before we start to talk.
"It's Nessie."
He takes a deep breath in, I've never had a issue with Nessie, we only fought about little things.
"What happened Jacob?" replies. I need to think about how im going to word this one out before I can speak to him again.
"She's leaving"
"Doesn't she leave every weekend?"
"Yeah, but this time its-"
I didn't think it would be this hard to say.
"This time its what, Jacob?"
I take a breath in before I say the one word that will change my life forever.
"Forever" I finally say.
He still looks at me funny.
"Well are you going with her?"
"No"
He opens his mouth in shock, Like father like son.
He always liked Nessie, she was always polite to him, Whenever she spent the night at my house she made us dinner, Billy loved her food, He always told me that she would be the perfect wife.
We would never be able to find out.
"But, That's no possible. I mean you too have an imprint, and a strong one at that. What did she tell you?"
It hurts to think of the words she said to me, but I know I'm going to have to let it out sometime.
"She told me she didn't love me, that she doesn't want to be with me anymore."
He looks struck by that.
"What? Jake, Of course she loves you! I've seen the way she looks at you, No one I have ever met looks at one another like that. it's her family that hates you."
Her family, Who hates me in that family? Edward, Blondie, Um, Emmet only dislikes me because of Blondie, Alice gets a headache around me, Carlise is too nice to hate anyone, Essme wouldn't shoot a fly, and That jasper kid barely talks to me.
"I guess so."
"No Jake you know so, Look at it, She's half-vampire and you're a werewolf, Both of your back round's hate each other. Your brothers and her family would kill each other if they were in the same room for and hour."
He has a point, but I didn't want to think about her, I didn't want to think about my brothers, or her leeches.
"Yeah" Was all I could say.
Billy looked at me again with curiosity.
"Jake, did you guys ever, uh you know…" He left it there to trail on.
"No, I've only kissed her."
"Oh, well that's good."
I look at him like he's idiot.
"How the hell is that good?"
He doesn't say anything, he just looks back at his book. I should probably go to sleep now, its been along day.
I walk threw the kitchen into the shower, Once I get in I forget that Nessie left some things in here.
In the cabnient above the sink she has her pack of razors, Her shampoo is in the closet, and her lufa was still hanging on the shower head.
Without any thought I grab the lufa and shove it in my face. It smells just like her, Her sweet smell still lingers on it, I can't help it anymore. I need to let it out, I turn the facet on so Billy wont here me.
For the first time in a long time I cry, the hot tears poor down my face like rain, My chest is shaking so hard its like a miniature earthquake.
And all I can think is that she's gone.
I regretted everything I have ever done to make her angry, all the times she has probably needed me and I wasn't there.
Now she was gone, gone forever. She would never come back, I could tell by her voice.
Screw the shower, I turn of the facet and walk into my room
Which still have things that remind me of her in it.
She has clothes in the dresser, school books under the bed, and small pieces of her hair are on my pillow.
The whole room smells like her.
Her sweet smell.
I go on my bed, and lay down, My pillow smells like her hair, her sweet auburn hair.
My eye lids close, and my tears pile up.
After years and years of never being able to fall in love because of her she left.
Pictures of her baby doll face still linger in my mind while I try and force myself to sleep.
I'm not emotional, I've never been. But she changed my life.
I love her with every piece of my heart and more.
The phone is sitting next me, I want to try and call her.
I dial her home number
*Ring* *Ring* *Ring* *Ring* *Ring* *Ring*
Then someone answers.
"Hello?" Its Bella.
"Hey, Its Jacob."
She doesn't say anything for a minute.
"What do you want jake?" She says.
"I want to know what you did to Nessie."
"I didn't do anything to her, this was her choice."
Liar I say in my head, and I hang up.
I place my head into my pillow, and sleep.
Hoping that nessie will visit me in my dreams.
November
December
January
February
March
April
I wake up to the sun blinding me again, It was the first day of May.
May was Nessie's favorite month.
The thought of Nessie made me want to stay in bed forever just so I could think about her.
But I need to get up, There's a pack meeting today and because I'm the leader I need to be there.
Mornings sucked no matter what you do, but they got more hard now that I didn't wake up to the thought of seeing Nessie.
When I'm outside I shift and start running towards the forest were we always hold are meetings, I start to here everyone's thoughts about me while im getting there.
It's mostly Leah and Sam.
"I wonder if he's doing better this morning, she's been gone for months." Sam says in his mind.
" If he doesn't feel well today I'm going to find those leeches and throw them of a cliff."
Leah seems to be a good mood.
In the forest all of the pack members manage to get there on time and we start speaking about the random events that have accurred.
"Leah, Seth, Anything strange happen?" I ask.
"Well, Seth thinks he found something but I highly doubt it was legit." Leah answers
"It was too legit! There's no way that was the scent of human!" Seth defends.
"Alright, what happened?" God there annoying.
"My idiot of a brother thinks that there is a vampire lurking around in forks looking for someone."
A vampire? Well it would explain why we are still forced to werewolves.
But why would they be here?
"Jake, I think I know why there here." Sam answers my thoughts
"What do you think, Sam?" I ask curouis.
"Well, we, um, We think there the same vampires that are after the Cullens, and.."
"And what?"
"We think there looking for….Nessie."
"Oh"
"Jake, do you, uh need a minute?" Quil says in a kind voice.
"Yeah, Why do really need meetings anyway?" Jared add's in.
"No, guys I'm fine, really." I don't convince any of them.
Of course, Leah is first to add her 2 cents.
"Your not fine Jake! You haven't been fine since the leeches left! Were all worried about you, Please you need to get over this."
"That's easy for you to say! You haven't imprinted on anyone yet, you have no clue what this is like for me, So do me a favor and lay the hell off."
Me and Leah get along fine, but she always brings up nessie when she talks to me., I don't want to talk about nessie.
Not anymore, it hurts to bad.
"Whatever, I'm leaving" Leah says with a mental eye-roll.
"Yeah we should all leave to." Sam says
They all take off and it's just me sitting in the forest.
Whoop.