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P.S This is a really long chapter, but I have a planned timeline and couldn't leave any of it out SORRY!

Chapter 10

I wake up hearing the most annoying sound ever. BEEP, BEEP, BEEP, BEEP... My head feels like its going to explode. I try to remember what happened last night. It all comes back to me. I was turned down by two guys in one night. Uggh, I acted like a slut. I am so embarassed and ashamed. I can't talk to either one of them, I'm so embarassed. I'm going to need Lissa, a shower, some food, and some extreme pain killers to even begin to function.

I grab my clothes and a towel ready to head out to the shower. I open my door and I see him.

"Good morning beautiful." Alex says.

My makeup is smeared all over my face from crying. My hair is tangled on top my head. I am wearing my favorite nightgown. "I heart Edward Cullen." Beautiful is not the word to describe me.

"Alex, I am so sorry about last night. It's been a really long time since I have drank anything, and I was not acting like myself. I hope you don't let an error in my judgement, change the way you see me."

"Rose, I do not think any worse of you than I did before." He says laughing.

"Hey!" I say, and punch him in the arm.

"I am kidding, Rose that was nothing. Don't worry about it. Although, you sure did leave me with some good images that are burned in my brain."

I remember my little strip tease, and blush. "Oh My God, I am so embarassed." I say blushing.

"Trust me Rose, you have nothing to be embarassed about."

"Okay, I need a shower and then I am supposed to meet in Kirova's office in an hour."

"I almost forgot Rose, the whole reason I came, besides to see you this morning was to bring you breakfast." He says.

I open the little brown bag, and think its going to be another granola bar. I was wrong. It's my favorite, a chocolate donut.

"How did you figure out my favorite breakfast?" I ask staring at him.

"I have my secrets Ms. Hathaway, I'll see you in a little while." He walks off grinning.

I eat my donut and grab my shower. The pills are finally starting to work on my head. I get dressed ready for my meeting. I have no idea what I have done now, but I am sure its something I am getting in trouble for.

I knock on the door.

"Come in Ms. Hathaway." Kirova says.

I walk in see Kirova, Alberta, Dimitri and Alex. I think to myself "this definitely can't be good."

They must see my face and decide to put me out of my misery.

"Rose, you haven't done anything wrong, please stop looking like you are waiting for a beating." Alberta says.

Dimitri does one of his half smiles. Alex has a huge grin on his face.

Kirova starts to tell me the big news. "The Queen feels after your trip to Spokane, you are ready for graduation. You do not need to finish your trials, they are no longer a test for you. You can consider it practice. You will receive your promise mark after this meeting. We are very proud of you Rose; however, the Queen does want to meet with you and Lissa at the court tomorrow."

"Is this some kind of joke? Is someone going to jump out with a camera?" I am so confused. I am graduating early? No freakin way!

Alberta comes up and hugs me. "Not a joke Rose. You are now a Guardian."

Alex walks up and gives me a huge bear hug. "Congratulations Rose!"

I look at Dimitri and he nods. I see so much pride in his face. We still have that connection of knowing what the other is thinking without words. It's one of the reasons I thought we were so right for eachother, but lately I am just so angry and confused.

We walk out the door and Lissa is standing by the door.

"Rose is everything okay?" she asks.

I smile at her. "Lissa, you are now addressing Guardian Hathaway."

"OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! CONGRATULATIONS!" she is excited.

"I know I can't really believe it myself." I tell her.

"We have to celebrate." She tells me.

"Uggh Lissa I think I celebrated enough last night to last me awhile, thanks though."

"Ms. Hathaway, you have an hour before you need to meet all the guardians in the gym for your promise mark." Alberta says.

I am still utterly shocked. I never expected this to happen this morning. "I will be on time I promise." I say.

Dimitri gives me a puzzling look. He knows I never show up anywhere on time. I can read his face like a book.

"Dimitri, I am the new and improved Rose. I will be on time from now on." I look to Lissa. "Lissa, can you please set your phone to remind me five minutes before I have to be there?"

Everyone laughs. Dimitri just shakes his head. "I can see the changes already, Roza." he says.

I can't help but smile at him. I walk out with Lissa.

We meet up with Christian, and tell him my great news. We walked for awhile until it was time for me to go to the gym. I hurried up and made a quick bun to get all the hair off my neck. As much as I want my promise mark, I know its going to hurt. I say to myself, Its now or never.

I walk in the gym. There are about twenty guardians there. I walk to the front and sit in my chair. I put my head down ready for the stinging pain.

Thirty minutes after my neck has been poked and poked and poked. I am done.

"I know announce to you, Guardian Rose Hathaway." Kirova says.

Everyone claps. I look out in the audience and see all the faces of so many people I love. I look at Dimitri, he still makes my heart flutter everytime I see him. I then look to his right where Alex was sitted, but is no longer. I can't believe my eyes. I blink a couple of times. I am not dreaming it is her.

Janine Hathaway a.k.a my mother. She has the biggest smile I have every seen on her face. I didn't even know she could smile. I walk down to meet her.

"Mom, what are you doing here?" I ask. She hugs me. "Rosemarie do you really think I would miss your own personal graduation?"

I almost said well you missed almost all of the important things in my life anyway, but I looked into Dimitri's eyes, and figured I should use some of that self control he taught me.

"I am so glad you are here, Mom." I say.

The rest of the day flew by. Everyone congratulated me, and congratulated me, and congratulated me. It was exhausting. My mouth hurt so bad from just smiling. I decided I needed to get ready for bed. (being the responsible new gaurdian I was) I had to get ready for our trip to the court tomorrow. I put my shorts and tank top on, and get in bed. As soon as I start to fall asleep, I hear a knock. I rub my jaw hoping I have one more smile in me.

I open the door, and look into the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen.

"Hi Comrade! Are we making house calls now?" I say.

"Hi, Roza!" He just looks at me. "Can I talk to you for minute?"

"Sure, come on in." The only place to sit is on my bed. So I bounce to the middle of my bed and sit indian style. He sits on the side of the bed facing me. I smell his aftershave and just want to lean into kiss him. ROSE YOU ARE MAD AT HIM, HE LEFT YOU!

I just wait for him to talk.

DIMITRI POV

I watch Roza walk into the gym. She commands the room without even trying. There are about twenty of us here. I am sitting as close as I can get to her in the first row. I watch her sit in the chair, showing no nervousness. She composes herself so well.

We sat there for about 30 minutes, watching the tattoo being inked onto the back of her neck.

Kirova and Rose stand up after its completed and Kirova says. "I now announce to you, Guardian Rose Hathaway."

We all clap. She looks at me, and I can't control myself. My heart wants to jump out my chest. She looks to the seat nex to me. Her mouth drops open. While she was getting her tattoo she didn't notice her mom walk in. Alex gave her his seat. I hope Roza isn't upset. I called her mother, I thought she should be here. This is an important day for her daughter. I just hope she can control herself.

My Roza walks up and stands right in front of her. "Mom, what are you doing here?" she asks. Janine hugs her. She asks her, "Rosemarie do you really think I would miss your own personal graduation?"

Roza looks at me. I hope she doesn't use one of her sarcastic comebacks, but something unsaid flashes between us. Its one of those moments, those rare moments when I see this woman who completes me and understands me so well. I know she isn't going to say anything rude.

"I am so glad you are here, Mom." she says.

I watches Roza from afar all day. She was so classy and so well composed. She thanked everyone. Everyday she is becoming more and more mature. I can't believe it took me so long to realize I cannot live without her. I have to fight the urge to go up to her and kiss her in front of her friends and family. I have to talk to her, I have to make her understand that she belongs with me. Its getting late, and I hear her saying her goodbyes. I can't wait any longer. After I make my final rounds I am going to go talk to her.

I take a deep breath and tell myself get it together Belikov you have to make her understand. You have to make her see. I knock on the door, and wait for her.

She opens the door and I can't help but look at her. Even at bedtime Roza is so sexy. She looks happy to see me. "Hi Comrade! Are we making house calls now?" She says.

I can't think of anything to say. So I say the most common thing I can manage. "Hi, Roza, can I talk to you for minute?"

She moves back a little gesturing me to come in, while saying "Sure, come on in."

The only place to sit is on her bed. Good thing she has more clothes on then last night, or my control would be no more. I really should buy her a chair for this room. You can tell she is in a great mood. She bounces to the middle of her bed like a little kid and sits indian style. I sit as close as I can to her. I can smell her shampoo in her hair. I grab her hand and start to plead my case.

"Roza, I know I hurt you. I am so sorry. I can't take it back. I can only tell you what I was thinking. It's still no excuse, but it is the only reason I can give you, and you deserver to hear. it." I wait for her response. She nods her head, so I continue. It's now or never.

"After what happened in Spokane, after I saw you, the only I could do was think about you. It was a 24/7 Rose-a-thon in my brain. All my feelings for you that I have been trying so hard to fight off came boiling to the surface. I couldn't take Tasha's offer, I knew that. I cared for you too much, to even give Tasha false hope. No one could make me forget you. The day in the gym after our talk, I lost my control. I kissed you, I dont regret it. I would do it again in a second. I can't change who I am. After you left, I realized how complicated things are. I needed time, time to figure out what to do about our relationship. I needed the best advice, from the best advice giver. I went to see my mother and Grandma. I didn't know what was going to happen or when I would return. I could not have you waiting for me, waiting for a decision that might not have been what you wanted to hear. I spoke to my mother, and she could see how much I loved you. It took me a week and a half to realize there was no fighting it, when it comes to you I have no control. That scared me. It scares me."

She grabs both my hands now and inches towards me closer. It looks like she is about to start crying.

"Please dont cry Roza. I love you Roza. I love you so much. The only thing I knew was I had to get back as fast as I could. I needed to see you, I need to hear your voice, and touch your hair." I reached out and cupped her face with one of my hands. "We can make this work, I want to make this work. Please say I am not too late, I see all these guys lined up waiting for you, and I want you to know I am here to fight too. Fight for you, and fight for us."

ROSE POV

I am sitting here looking into his eyes, and I can't help but start to tear up. I love him so much it hurts. Literally, I feel like I can't breathe. I start to remember the first day he left. It was horrible, I didn't want to move. I felt like all the good was sucked out of my body and left with such sorrow. I felt alone. I can see he is telling me the truth. I believe he does love me, but I can't ever be that girl again. I can't be alone again. I knew there were people here for me, but he became what I lived for. I didn't want that to happen. It was wrong, Lissa was/is my first priority, but my heart was not syncing with my head. I look into those deep brown eyes. Things have changed. I have changed.

"Dimitri," the tears fall down my cheek, and he wipes them with his hands. "I love you with everything that is in me, but I dont know if that love is enough to fix this. You left me broken. I can't even describe to you how it felt. My world was over. I am a gaurdian now, I can't ever put myself in that position again. I am just now letting the the pieces mend back together. I need time to be whole again. I need time to figure out what I want my life to be, and who I want to spend my life with."

He leans down and our foreheads are touching. He whispers to me. "Rose, I can do that. I can be patient, I can wait for you. You deserve that. I am going to fight for you and fight for us. I won't go away, and I am not giving up."

He leans in and kisses me softly on the lips. I can't control myself. I wrap my arms around his neck and deepen the kiss. All I smell is him, he is intoxicating. The kiss ends a few moments later, and he starts to get up. He is about to walk out the door and looks at me.

"Roza, I have never been more proud of anyone in my life, then I was of you today. Sleep well my love." and he walks out the door.

I am completely wired now. This is not good. I don't know what to do. All I know is I have feelings for Alex and Dimitri, but I am now a gaurdian. All decisions I make now have to be weighed heavily. I can no longer afford to be impulsive not when peoples lives and emotions are in my hands. I turn off my lamp, and try and get some sleep. Tomorrow is a big day. We go to Court to learn my new job as a gaurdian.

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