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Chapter 17
DIMITRI'S POV
I feel a throbbing in the back of my head as I come to. I see lots of machines connected to me, and the noises the machines are making. I hear the steady drip of an IV, and the most important thing I hear is my heartbeat. A heart beat, a constant thrumming sound in your chest. A sound that signals life and vitality. I hear mine beating and I know I am alive, and I am happy for a brief moment. I can't describe to you the grief that took over me in that next second.
Roza, my life, is gone. I held her in my arms, and there was no life, no heartbeat, no breath. She was gone. She is gone. I am alone. I failed her. I failed her in life and love. I literally felt my heart break, the pain was unbearable. The emotions all swirling in me were screaming to come out. There was anger, guilt, love, sorrow, despair. I realize the world is a different place now for me. It's one without joy or happiness. It's a reminder of all I have lost. The part that hurts the worse is knowing that I once had her, and I lost her. I let my need to do the right thing drive the most important person away. I let my Roza go. If I would have never left, she would still be here. We would have been together. It's time I will never get back, and the pain and regret I feel right now I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I think of all this while tears stream down my cheeks.
I try and move. I need to see that the proper arrangements have been made for my Roza. The IV comes loose of my arm, and the alarm goes crazy. Next thing I know, there are nurses running in and doctors. My sister Viktoria walks in. She looks at me, and her face lights up like she has just seen a miracle.
"Dimka, your awake." She says. Her eyes begin to water.
"Viktoria, how long was I out?" I ask. I feel the throbbing still at the back of my head. I put my hand to the back of my head, there is a bandage. The doctors tell me I need to sit back, and relax.
"Dimka, you were in a coma for five days. We have been taking turns sitting with you. I just left to go get me something to eat. Momma will be so happy that you are awake. I should go call her." She is smiling now.
"Viktoria, I need to leave. I need to visit my Roza. Was all the proper arrangements made and upheld to the upmost standards? I ask need to make sure she was cared for properly in her death. She deserved a service like no other.
"Dimka, how am I supposed to know if the arrangements have been made and upheld? It's not until tomorrow. They have been working hard on it all week, Lissa is completely stressed out and has thought about calling the whole thing off." She seems aggravated now.
Anger feels me. "Lissa wanted to call it off?" How dare she disrespect the woman that held my heart in her hands. She was my soulmate. "I need to talk to her, I need to make sure that Roza's funeral is handled in that of a royal's."
"Dimka, Roza is not..." she tries to finish.
I snap, all those emotions that were trapped in the pit of my stomach come out in that instant. I push everyone away from me. I pull all the IV, clips, wires off of me.
I start yelling. I see everyone back up. Viktoria stands there, obviously used to my anger issues. "Roza was more important that any Royal moroi. She was more important to me than other person on this planet. I will love her until the day I die." I let my breathing slow down. All eyes are on me. They are waiting for my next move.
"Are you finished?" she asks. I can't believe she has this attitude with me. I am about to start in on her again when she speaks.
"SHE IS NOT DEAD! SHE IS ALIVE!" she yells at me.
"No, she is not. I held her in my arms. She died." I begin to tremble. The sorrow feels my body again.
"Well all I can say is, she doesn't like to stay dead apparently because she died and Lissa brought her back. I heard this isn't the first time either. It's liek she has nine lives or only thing I can think is maye death doesn't want her." she says cracking a half smile.
All the despair and sorrow that I have been experiencing since I woke up, is now replaced with longing, desire, and craving for my Roza. She is alive. I have to see her. We are meant to be together. I can't stand another moment without her.
"Where is she?" I ask. The doctors and all are finally calming down. They are trying to get me to lie back down on the gurny, but that is not happening.
"She is back at the Royal Court. Lissa and Christian are getting married tomorrow. She asked me to give this to you when you woke up." She hands me a small paper that reads:
I'm sorry I failed you. I'm sorry I was not strong enough for you.
I love you Always.
Roza
I read what my heart wrote to me, she doesn't see herself very clearly. She is the strongest person I know, and she could never ever fail me. The most important thing was that she loves me and always will. I start looking for my clothes. I found them in the closet.
"What are you doing, Dimka?" Viktoria asks.
"What do you think I am doing? I am leaving. I am going to the wedding." I say more determined to make the space between Roza and me disappear.
"Momma is not going to like that, Maybe I should come along and keep an eye on you. You know you were in critical condition. You have to have someone watching out for you." she says.
I laugh. I am too happy to argue with her. I know she wants to go to see Adrian. Viktoria and I have yet to have a conversation about him. We will, and I wil have more than a conversation with Adrian, but right now I am trying to get myself to my love.
"Let's go. Call momma. We don't have time to go to the house. We are leaving straight for the airport." I tell her.
22 hours later we arrived at the court. The wedding had started, but we had to change. I gave Viktoria the key to the princesses dorm room, to get a dress. I knew Lissa wouldn't mind, and I ran to my room to get dressed myself. We met back up about an hour into the reception. We walk into the ballroom through a side door.
Viktoria spots Adrian and beelines it to sit next to him. We talked about him on the plane, and I warned her to be careful. I came to realize you have no choice in who you love. I would never have put myself (the responsible, respected, strong, emotionless Gaurdian) and my Roza,( the quick tempered, sarcastic, outspoken, sexy, beautiful student) together. We were meant to be. Things happen for a reason, and you can't control it. I am no one to judge anyone. I have made huge mistakes. I nod my head as she sits next to him. I trust her, and if all else fails I will enjoy inflicting the most longing and enduring pain he has ever felt in his life. I explained that as well to my sister, and asked her to relay the message to Adrian. I don't think I have ever seen Adrian so shocked in my life. It was funny to see him caught off gaurd like that when my sister walked up to him. They hugged and quickly sat back down. Roza was standing to give her maid of honor speech. I stay hidden in the corner, just listening to the words she speaks. Hearing her voice, is like winning the lottery. She controls the room, without even trying, and has no idea the effect she makes on every male in this room. I listen to hear speech:
When Lissa and I were little girls, we dreamed about our wedding day. We discussed centerpieces and honeymoons and where to hold the reception. We dressed up in gowns, veils,and gloves and practiced walking down the aisle. Sometimes we even stole flowers from the dining room table, to use as our bouquet.
We even knew who the groom would be. It just depended on who was on the cover of our teen magazines. It was all so easy back then because our imaginations had no limits. And a twelve-year age difference between you and the celebrity groom you'd never met could never stand in the way of true love.
As we grew up, the style of the gown changed as did the color of the bridesmaid dresses. The goal was simple, to find the man who was perfect for you; your soulmate; and declare your love in front of family and friends. How wonderful that your dream has come true. I am so proud to have you as my best friend Lissa. I wish nothing but the best for you and Christian. I love you both. Congratulations to you and may you spend the rest of your lives fulfilling each other's dreams.
Everyone stands and claps. She hugs Christian and Lissa and walks out. I notice Lissa has spoted Viktoria and scans the audience. She sees me and smiles. She goes to tell Roza and I shake my head. I put my finger up to my lips, like a mother would do to a child to get them to stay quiet. I smile at her and she understands. I want our reunion to be private. I follow my Roza out the side door. She stands outside in the cool weather in a strapless gold dress. She looks breathtaking. She shivers, and I crack a smile. My Roza never thinks about things before doing them. It's freezing, and she gave no thought to grabbing a coat. She looks like she is about to turn around and go in, and I can't wait any longer.
ROSE POV
"Roza."
My whole body stills. I can't move or breathe. I must be imagining things. I turn around, and I see that most gorgeous god in front of me. He speaks again.
"My Roza."
I can't help but let a sob escape my body. I feel like I am going to pass out. He must realize this when I start to go down and walks forward and holds me up in his massive arms. The strength and comfort I feel from his touch gives my body a renewed energy. The touch of his hands on my arms, sends all those electric currents dancing on my skin. The connection is back. My soul, my life, my love is back. I quickly throw my hands around his neck, squeezing him with all the might I can make my body produce. He's here, and I won't ever let him go. I am literally holding onto him with dear life.
"Roza, I can't breathe." he says.
I loosen my grip a little, and lean back only seperating our faces. Everything is still touching our whole bodies are touching. My face is only a half inch from him, I have to look up into his eyes. I see his smile.
"I guess you missed me huh?" he says jokingly.
I pull him down to me, and kiss kiss was rough and demanding, at the same time soft, sensual, and intimate. I wanted more and so did he. He pulled me tighter to him. This kiss was like no other kiss we have ever had. It laid all our feelings on the table. At this moment, there was nothing or noone else in this world but us. I could have kissed him like this forever, but it came to the point that I could not breath. He must have realized this, our lips parted, and he pulled back only moving himself an inch or so. We are both left trying to control our breathing.
We didn't talk right away after that. He grabbed my hand in his and pulled me back into the rececption. We walked in and a slow song began to play. Dimitri pulls me to the dance floor, and wraps his arms around me. He begins singing the song in my ear. It is one of the moments that I will remember for the rest of my life. In that moment I feel safe, loved, adored. I feel like this is where I belong, I feel like this is home:
Somethin' in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feelin lasts, the rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
It feels like home to me, It feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, It feels like home to me.
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through dark there is light
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waiting for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never though that I'd love anyone so much
It feels like home to me, It feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
The song could not have been more perfect for us. Dimitiri moved his lips away from my ear and placed the gentlest kiss to my lips. I did not want to let him go now or ever.
Lissa and Christian made there way over to us. Dimitri thanked her for healing him. The doctor's told him that without her, he would have never woke up. He held my hand as everyone else came up to us. He never let me go. We manuvered around the crowd, talking and smiling with friends and family and guests, our hands always joined. It was almost time for Lissa and Christian to leave for there honeymoon. Alberta, Alex and Eddie would be accompanying them. As maid of honor I had things to attend to here- (that was my excuse anyway); The truth was I had been thinking of going back to Russia to see Dimitri. Lissa understood and gave me her blessing, and I arranged for Eddie, Alex and Alberta to accompany them as their Gaurdians on their getaway. And although Mia has no idea yet, she is going too. It was a gift from Christian for being his best man. He wanted Eddie and Mia to have some time alone, before they come back and its all business and no play again. The Queen suprisingly accepted without protest. Lissa had used a little compulsion, and the Queen was none the wiser.
Lissa noded at me, letting me know it was indeed time. I had to let go of Dimitri's hand, and go help Lissa slip into her departing dress. I convinced myself it was okay, and he would be here when I got back, but the action wasn't so easy. Lissa came over and pulled me from him.
Christian smiled. "Rose, I promise I will protect him with my life." We all thought that was funny. Moroi are the protected, not the other way around, but I did take comfort in that, and I honestly did believe Christian would never let anything happen to Dimitri while I was gone.
I hurried to pull Lissa's hair down. We stripped her out of her dress, and put her in a cute sweater dress. She looked gorgeous. I don't think I have ever seen her happier in my life, and couldn't pass up the chance.
"Lissa, I would like to make a toast." I say. Lissa looks at me like I am crazy.
"Come on Rose. We don't have time for this right now. We have like twenty minutes before I have to be on the plane." she says trying to rush me.
"No, Lissa I am serious. Just give me one minute." I say seriously. I grab the bottle of champagne sitting on the table and grab two flutes. I fill them both to the top.
"Lissa, I have never been happier for you in my life. You are one of the most amazing people I know, and I am so lucky to have you in my life. I have never seen you happier in my life. I know it is because of Christian. They say love makes a person glow, and I can see it. Christian's love has changed you, and the way you look. I love you both and I can't wait for you to come back. Stay safe, and have fun" I say and take a sip out of my glass.
Lissa however doesn't take a sip. "Lissa, my feeling are hurt. I put a lot of thought into that." I say acting upset, but not really caring that she didn't drink.
She just smiles. "Rose do you know what else they say makes women glow?"
I drop my glass. "What? Are you serious? When did you find out?" I start throwing a gazillion questions at her.
"Slow down, Rose. I just found out today. I haven't even told Christian yet. I am going to tell him tonight." she says.
"Your pregnant! You're really pregnant?" I ask.
"Yes the doctor confirmed it. It may have had a little to do with my bridezilla outbursts this week."
I'm about to ask her what the doctor said. She cuts me off. "I'm fine, the babys' fine. We are fine. Don't worry. You need to concentrate on making sure your guy is good, not me. I have all the protection I need." she says reassuring me. I think about Dimitri in that moment, and she realizes my sense of urgency now.
"Okay, Okay. Let's go. I am ready." Lissa says. She hugs me and tells me she loves me.
We walk out and Christian meets Lissa. They head out to the door and the crowd gathers around them. Rice falls all around them as they reach the Limo. She gives me one last look, and gets in.
I look around for Dimitri, and don't see him. I scan the room three times, and my heart now feels like it's going to jump out of my chest. He is gone. He is not here. What happened? Where did he go? Is he okay?
Adrian walks up to me with Viktoria on his arm. He must have noticed my distress.
"Little Dhampir calm down. He's okay!" he says.
"Where is he?" I ask.
I hope ya'll enjoyed this chapter. I think it was my favorite one to write. Will post more soon! :)
Jenn