F A L L

I watch your descent into madness.

Another day gone by, another day he didn't tell her.

Another smile she gave him, and he had hoped that this happiness would last forever.

But when that phone call came, his world shattered.

A moment in time,

Frozen, unmoving,

If I had tried to reach out…

Would I have caught you?

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A car crash.

Of all things to disable her, it had to be a car.

He couldn't bear the look in her eyes, bear to remember he would never hear that voice that made him do the stupidest of things, and walked out of the room.

You can't speak, can't tell me a thing,

And I feel as if I've lost you to the dark.

Something's on your mind, and I wait.

Would you tell me?

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She opens her mouth, as if to tell him something.

There's panic in her eyes, and some hesitation as well.

And when nothing comes out, both are bitterly disappointed.

You look desperate, so unhappy,

If you had something to say, couldn't you tell me?

Even without words, you could've written it down.

Why do you hesitate?

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Her eyes are dark, and somehow, something is completely different about her.

He watches her painfully, knowing she could never tell him what was wrong anymore, and all those years of friendship was telling him that she was very much unhappy.

All those years of love was telling him that she was going crazy.

You're obviously tired,

You obviously want to say something,

So I'm here, waiting.

As I watch you kill yourself from the inside.

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He visited her whenever he could, and there was always at least one person there visiting her.

And even with all the attention, her smile was obviously fake to him, and somewhat troubled.

He was getting really worried.

You smile without a word,

Like you know I'm worrying about you again.

What is the truth?

Why won't you tell me?

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One contemplated death, while the other mused about life.

Life, so dark, took away his everything, leaving him in a situation he could handle by walking away, but didn't.

There was no "because". Everything was simply what it was.

His world was getting dangerously close to shattering, and suddenly, he realized he had not spoken to her since the crash.

The darkness in life,

Golden-pink petals of dawn, reaching out.

Awake, stuck in a nightmare he could leave from,

But instead chose not to.

The earth shakes beneath his feet,

His eyes ask the question you will not answer.

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He thinks everyone's getting the hint.

That everyone's catching on to the fact that she isn't being her normal self.

But it was far too slow for him.

Sometimes, secretly, I watch you frown,

When you think no one's watching.

What is the lie? Your smile, or the frown?

I think I know, but I just want you to tell me.

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There was something about the way her mouth was pursed together with determination that made him scared. What was she going to do now?

But he trusted her not to do anything stupid, and when he went home again, he got the call again.

And he cried like a child, unable to push back the tears anymore.

You're suddenly so unhappy with staying where you are.

Why can't you stay still?

Can't you see that I wouldn't be able to bear it if something else happened?

And like that, you were off again, making my heart wail.

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Fate played with his heart again, tempted his rage and silent love.

How cruel it was, to take her everything, her all. To take everything she ever had, except her hearing, to hear everyone, to listen, but unable to do a thing about it.

And when he looked into those eyes that used to take his breath every single goddamned time, he broke internally, and every single time, he silently cried, a tear slipping out from those hard amber eyes.

I'm scared.

Scared of what will happen if I let you go again,

But then again, I never had you in the first place.

Your eyes… Those beautiful eyes with so much love, gone.

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He visits again, after vowing to himself he will bring her back. The her that he remembered and loved.

And he talks. His voice is quiet, sad, reassuring, and a hint of overwhelming hope.

She listens, and gives the faintest smile that she probably didn't even notice was there.

For the first time, I talk.

I tell you that you can start over.

Because it's true.

And I will be there through everything.

Can you hear me?

I… I love you.

You don't even need to say anything, just…

…Thank you.