Chapter 19
"What is she thinking sending him here! Like that's going to help"
"Why is your barrier up? Are you hurt?"
"He almost... Seemed concerned, no I won't let him fool me again!"
"You can tell me Takara, I only want to help"
"What was Hana thinking by sending him here, how is he meant to help..."
"Takara..."
"How am I meant to get rid of my barrier if she sends him in here, its obvious that he is the cause of this so why... oh I see now..."
"I'm afraid of him" I mumbled out loud
"Afraid of who, tell me who it is I will protect you ok, you don't need to be afraid"
"You can't protect me" I whispered looking up at him with teary eyes
"Why not?"
"Because it's you, I'm afraid of you"
"Me? But why"
"Lord Sess..."
"Will you stop that already!" he shouted butting in "will you stop calling me Lord"
"I didn't even notice I was, without realising it I closed myself of from him"
"Tell me what is going on, why are you afraid of me, what could I have possibly done to make you afraid"
"I love you" I blurted out
As soon as the words left my mouth my eyes winded in fear and my hands covered my mouth to stop anything else from coming out, I wished in that moment that I could take it all back or go hide in a deep dark hole until he was gone.
"I'm sorry, I... I didn't mean... I'm sorry"
"I'm so stupid! What was I thinking telling him that?"
"No, I'm the one who is sorry"
"What"
"I never realised, I was to busy trying to keep my land to notice what I was doing to you, I never once thought about how you felt"
"Sesshomaru you don't have to..."
"let me finish" He butted in "even as kids I never cared about your feelings, I should of known you would never just leave without telling me, i... I should of tried to find you but I didn't, and even now when I went and searched for you it was only because my mother asked me to..."
"He.. He didn't come for me"
"I never considered how you felt, and I'm sorry for that, I'm sorry that I hurt you, I am also sorry that things couldn't have been different..."
"But why cant they" I asked with pleading eyes
"My half brother you see, if I do not choose a bride tonight that worthless half breed will take over as the western lord"
"I understand"
"I'm sorry Takara, but I can not allow him to take over, it would be a disgrace to my family"
"Look"
"What is it?"
"My barrier.. It's gone" I smiled spinning around "well I guess I should get ready for tonight"
"What is happening tonight?"
"You're choosing a bride silly, or did you forget, don't tell me the western lord has forgotten the night that he is to pick a bride"
"I know what tonight is for me! But what is it for you?"
"Lady Rikana has requested for me to be there"
"She has!" he said slightly panicked
"Yeah... Why don't you want me there?"
"Oh no it's just..."
"Don't worry, I know you have to choose one of them, just do my a favour ok, don't choose Lady Wicta... she is to nice, or Lady Shikah, she is to... weird, gives me the creeps"
"Who should I choose then"
"Well I don't like Lady Garu, she is only with you for your title and Nakimo is really loud, she would drive you crazy within a week"
"And what about that cat"
"Oh I don't have a problem with Mistress Hitori" I teased
"You can't possibly like her!"
"Why not? She has attitude for sure and one mean look about her so if you married her and..."
"Stop right there, I don't want to here anymore of that filthy cat"
"What is it with you and her, have you met once before?
"No, but she is a cat, they are all the same"
"Well then who are you going to choose"
"It wouldn't be right to tell you before I tell my bride"
"You don't know do you?"
"No"
"Well you better figure it out soon, it will be nightfall in a couple of hours"
"So soon..."
"Yes, so I should umm get ready... I guess ill see you there"
"Yeah, right... ill see you there"
I closed the door once Sesshomaru had left and went back over to my cupboard, I pulled out my white and blue dress and laid it out on the bed then I knelt down on the ground and pulled out my chest then oped it. I pulled out the small metal heart and the locket of hair then placed them onto the table.
"If only I wasn't a servant, then maybe... maybe he could marry me"
I put on my dress then closed the chest again before picking it up and carrying it out of my room; I held it gently in my hands all the way to Sora's house.
"Hello, is Sora home?"
"Sora! You have a visitor"
"Who is it mummy?" Came the small voice
"It's Miss Takara"
"Takara! Why haven't you come to play with me, it's been forever!"
"I'm sorry Sora, I have been very busy, but I brought you some presents to make up for it"
I placed the chest on the ground and opened it for the girl to see.
"I thought you could add everything to your collection of things"
She pulled out the priestess clothes and held it along her body.
"It's just my size!" she shouted excited "none of the other kids will have a kimono like this"
Next she pulled out the old doll, she held it in the air and looked it over before deciding its name was going to be Tara and that it was going to go to bed with her every night, then she picked up the shell and the stones, I knew straight away that she would love them. For as long as Sora has been born she had always loved pretty and shiny things, so I knew that they would fit into that category with her.
"Thankyou Takara!" shouted the young girl as she hugged me
"So am I forgiven?"
"Yep, you know you should be busy more often" she smiled at me
A/N - only 1 or maybe 2 more chapters to go! sorry for spelling iv been looking after my baby nephew the last few days so havent had much time to go over it