I walked towards the venue thinking of the setlist. I didn't know if we were going to keep bullet colored butterflies or not. I made it to the dressing room as I decided to just keep it.
"Hello sleepy head" Lyn-z said.
"Yo" I said sitting down.
"Little short?" Avenly asked pointing tp my dress.
"No it's fine"
"Whatever" Chibi said.
"Ok well I say we have a party night tonight to celebrate our first concert and the fact that I don't have to go to school tomorrow" I said.
"Not a good idea" Morgan said.
"Since when what is up with you lately? Really after that thing between you and me after Calvin you haven't been the same" I asked. Everyone probably thought I was drunk.
"Nothing you broke away from everyone we all have I have Jonnie, you have Trace and the twins, Avenly and Brandon have each other. It's what happens as people get older Helli"
"Really because last time I check I was the one that was getting thrown under the bus" I said standing to look at him.
"We all agreed that was fine even you said it was fine" He said standing too. I knew what was going to happen.
"Ok everyone calm down!" Brandon yelled.
"What is happening to us" Avenly asked standing up.
"We all got a life and realized that we can't actually do this forever" I said. I looked at everyone in the room.
"Ok look at what is going on around us" I held my arms up to signal everyone around us.
"Everyone here is fine and I am in a corner did you realize that?" I saw everyone drop their eyes.
"I need to go" I got up and went for the door but was stopped by Morgan.
"What about the concert?"
"If I don't get a break I will explode on someone and I don't think you want that to happen" he sighed and moved. I walked back to the bus and found my cig stash. I grabbed the cigs, a lighter, and my ipod. I had an hour before the concert started. I put on som short shorts under my dress and headed to the stage. I sat down on the stage and looked for the song. I turned on about a girl by The Academy is and took my shoes off.
"Great time now for the show" I whispered before doing a few cartwheels. An hour later a security guard walked over to me.
"They are opening the gates now"
"Thank you" I said grabbing my stuff and walking backstage.
God I just blew up at my best friends for no reason!
I wanted to punch myself. I looked at my shoes as I put them on. I had to go appoligize. I stood up after putting my shoes on and walked towards the dressing room. Everyone but Morgan was there.
"Where is Morgan?"
"He said he needed some alone time" Jonnie said. I looked at everyone. This didn't sound good. I practically ran towards the buses.
"Morgan!!" I knew Morgan to do stupid things when he was pissed.I smelled the cig smoke and knew someone was behind the bus,sure enough there he was smoking a cig.
"Now I know why you smoke" he said taking a drag but coughing half way through.
"Morgan what are you doing?" I asked taking the cig and getting rid of it.
"You are so Right we are all growing apart" He said.
"dude no I am wrong I know you guys were together and I was in school and with the twins and Trace. I know I am wrong please just forget about it and let go back to the venue the concert is about to start"
"Helli do you ever regret going with the band?"
"Never why? Do you?"
"I dropped out of high school we all did you stayed and now if something goes wrong what am I going to do in life?" He asked.
"You will be a musician because we are way too good for them to just drop us like that" I said.
"I hope you're right" he said getting up. I just stared at him.
"Don't ever smoke again" I said.
"I won't I got better things to help me through" He smiled and held his hand out for me. I gladly took it and we walked back to the dressing room.
"Where did you go?"Avenly asked Morgan.
"Dumbass here was smoking" I said sitting back where I was.
"Why does it matter you smoke too"Brandon said.
"I am stopping I stopped altogether when I found out about the twins and I had my first cig since then this morning"
"I won't anymore I promise"Morgan said.
"Ok good look I don't want to fight anymore I'm sorry I blew up on you guys, I guess I just miss my family, but there's something I need to tell you" everyone in the room looked straight at me.
"What happened?" Avenly looked down at my stomach.
"Avenly I have 2 kids already don't need anymore" Sh looked away redfaced.
"What happened?" Morgan asked.
"Um Well as you know I basically just graduated high school right?" everyone nodded.
"Well I received numerous offers from international colleges" everyone was just looking at me.
"We need to cancel the tour after this one"
"What?! You can't just cancel a tour because you want to go to college!" Brandon said.
"I knew this was going to happen look who has the same voice as me?"
"Ok now look I really want to go to college and I will be going to either Serbia,Russia, or of them we have performed in yet so maybe in my off time we can do a tour there but I only need a year off I can get a faster degree because I already have my associates degree" I was standing and Brandon was standing as well and about to say something until Avenly was in between the 2 of us.
"Ok fine then how about we just deal with the tour at hand and stop worrying about the future" I froze.
Flashback
"Calvin what is going to happen?" I asked. We were alone in the bus because everyone had gone out to eat.
"Don't worry about the future worry about what is going on right now"
"I love you" I said.
"I love you too" He kissed me.
End Flashback
That was the night that lead to the Twins. I didn't even realize that I was crying until the tear dropped onto my hand. I looked down at my hand then back at everyone else.
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah just let me fix my makeup" I turned and sat down at the mirror table for the dressing. We kept a bag of basic make up in all of our dressing rooms. I fixed my make up and just stared at the floor. I think everyone just sat there watching me. This happened every once and awile and I told Trace every time but I had never had a replay of that night. I needed to tell him. I turned the chair to get up and everyone was standing behind the chair.
"Are you ok?" Lyn-z asked. I just nodded and walked out of the door to call Trace.
Lyn-z
"What just happened?" I asked.
"I don't know she's been acting weird lately I think something is going on" Morgan said
"What are you guys going to do?"
"She would never miss a concert and Brandon she doesn't want to cancel that tour it hurts her to do that" Avenly said.
"Well she is telling us now?"
"She just found out 3 days ago that she got the scholarships she decided what she was going to do 2 nights ago" I said.
"Well I will apologize when she comes back in"
"Ok w-"
"TBM your on in 5" A guy yelled.
"Ok that's our cue see you guys in a few" Chibi said walking out with the band following.
"Ok now look she will be back in a few just talk to her" I said.
"Ok"
Helli
After my talk with Trace I sat there talking to the twins.
"So then Bandit hit the drum and the drumstick flew out of her hand and almost hit Grandpa" I laughed.
"Yeah and Grandpa told her to play bass instead"
"Well I have been hearing a lot about bandit what about you 2?" I asked.
"Well I am playing drums" Dimitri said.
"and I am playing guitar grandpa said I will be playing like you, daddy, uncle Ray, Uncle Steve, Tom, and him in no time." Slash said.
"Yeah and Bob is teaching me how to play house of wolves" Dimitri said.
"Oh well that's good well Mommy has to go the concert just started and I have to go on soon"
"Ok bye mommy we love you!" they both yelled.
"Bye I love you too tell everyone I said hi"
"Everyone Mommy said Hi!" They yelled. That meant they were all at our house again.
"Bye" I hung up and decided to go back inside. I walked in and saw TBM heading towards the stage.
"Good luck guys!" I yelled to then. They all turned and waved before continueing towards the stage. I walked into the dressing room. Everyone stared at me but said nothing.
"FYI I'm fine nothing to worry about so you can speak or do whatever I know you want to do"
"What happened?" Jonnie asked. Morgan was most likely mentally hit himself in the head.
"Just memories" Everyone that had turned away and looked at me again.
"What memories?" Avenly asked. I looked her in the eyes then at everyone and back to her.
"Fine" I basically just told her to wait a sisters we had our own little language to talk when people were around.
"You two are weird" Steve said.
"What are you expecting?" Avenly asked.
"Yeah one of us pent most of her life in an adoption home and has been going through a ton of crap" I said.
"The other is a 16 yearold mom with issues and a lot of depressing" Avenly said.
"Thanks" I said.
"No problem" She smiled.
"Ok well Morgan how many songs are you doing?" I asked.
"Let' do 2 or 3 and the rest you can have"
"K you starting or ending?"
"I guess I'll start tonight"
"Ok well whatever set we run tonight we are running the same one in 2 weeks"
"Ok" Everyone was just looking around the room.
"I say we play a game" I said.
"What game?"Jimmy asked.
"Calm yourself and I don't know something with beer" I said.
"What is with you and the alcohol?" Steve asked.
"I haven't drank since I don't even know when" I said.
"Ok fine what are we going to do?" Steve asked.
"I don't know first thing is who's in?" I asked.
"I am" Jimmy raised his hand.
"Me too" Steve said. I looked around and no one said anything else.
"Ok fine everyone can stay here while we go get the beer" I got up and followed Jimmy and Steve out the door towards the bus.
"Do we have any Malibu?"
"No we only have beer and what ever you brought"
"I didn't bring Malibu" I pouted.
"Whatever" Jimmy said.
"Just bring something" Steve said disappearing to the back to get the beer.
"Hey Helli can you switch sets with us?" Jimmy asked.
"Sure go tell Chibi though"I said.
"I will come on let's go" He said walking out. I just grabbed the bag of stuff I had and followed him back to the dressing room.
"ok well what are we doing?" I asked.
"Just drink I am don't want to play a game" Jimmy said. I grabbed the bottle of JD I had and drank straight from the bottle.
"Helli don't get shit faced before we go on please" Avenly said.
"Ok wait Jimmy you still need to tell Chibi"
"Ok I'll be right back" he took his beer with him and walked towards the stage.
"10 on him just walking on stage no matter what they are doing" I said.
"I'll take that bet" Morgan said. We sat waiting for him to come back. He came back 5 minutes later.
"She said fine and the crowd says hi"
"Did you jst walking on stage?" I asked.
"Yeah they just finished their second to last song" He said with a duh tone.
"Pay up Morgan" He groaned before giving me a ten dollar bill.
"Next band 5 minute warning!" Someone yelled.
"That's our cue people and before we go Does anyone know about the 2 of you dating?" I asked Jonnie and Morgan.
"Yeah lots of people someone in the press does but we haven't confirmed it yet" Morgan said.
"Ok then my plan shall prevail!" I said before running towards the stage JD in hand.
"Helli! Wait for us!" Brandon yelled. I stopped and they all ran into me.
"Thanks guys" I said as they all got off of me.
"Sorry what's with the JD?"
"Jimmy will drink it if I don't" I whined.
"Fine fine just go to your place when it's time" Avenly said.
"I will when it's time to go" I said walking towards the stage. I got there as TBM walked off.
"Jimmy walked on the stage unannounced why?"
"He wants to get shitfaced so he wanted to switch with us"
"Ok well I will be back for the song"
"K" she went to grab something before she came back to sing with well tonight Morgan.
"You're on!" We all ran on stage me with the drums and I started playing the second everyone was ready. We ended fast.
"Alright everyone give it up for Chibi!!!" Morgan yelled and the crowd screamed.
"Ok well this is the first concert of tour do you know what that means?" He asked. The crowd yelled. We had the tradition of first concert of the tour. Everyone loved the idea and that's why every first concert is always sold out.
"Alright now who is it going to be this time?" I was looking for a few people to bring up on stage.
"I got one!" I said into my mike.
"Ok go get 'em!" Morgan said. I jump off the drum platform and walked towards Morgan.
"Who is it going to be?"
"I don't know they have to catch me first don't they?" I asked.
"Yeah wait take the mike" He handed me the wireless mike he had.
"Everyone going to catch me?" I asked. Every one screamed.
"No I don't think so" I shrugged. This was a seated theatre so there were aisle.
"No hey no one move from their seats ok?" everyone yelled 'yeah'.
"Ok" I walked to the back of the stage getting ready to jump. See all of our fans knew I was very acrobatic and dramatic and liked to be big but the thing is I HATE TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION. So when I am on stage I am hidden from everyone else. So I was standing at the back of the stage looking at the balcony and back of the crowded place looking for a nice group of people to bring on stage.
"Ok we have a balcony so I'll just take over singing from here" I said. Everyone switch, that's another thing we were very spontaneous we would usually play songs that popped into our head.
"Ok here I come" I ran and did my jump off the stage with a cartwheel. I hit the barrier and landed in the aisle. The crowd cheered as I ran though the aisles towards a curtain that I knew could hold my weight. I was tipsy and climbing up a curtain to the balcony.
"Dude what are you doing!!"Morgan yelled into the mike. I laughed and kept climbing. I was on the balcony now.
"Sorry I didn't want to take the stairs" I said into the mike. I walked to the couple.
"May I ask for your names?" I said.
"Missy and Calvin" I smiled.
"Would you like to join me on stage?" I asked the 2 of them.
"We would love that" They both said.I grabbed a few more people before we all took the stairs down the stairs to the stage.
"Alright we have our stage guests now who is ready to fucking rock!!!" I yelled into the mike. The rest of the concert went great.
"So what are we doing?" Jimmy asked as we walked to the bus.
"I am calling Trace and then going to bed" I said taking out my phone and walking ahead.
"You're no fun!" he yelled from behind me. I laughed and kept walking.
"Trace speaking"
"Hello baby" I said.
"Hey how was the concert?"
"Awesome I climbed some curtains the usual really" We both laughed.
"That's cool so when's next break?"
"When we get back to LA"
"Well no flying at least"
"True well I can't wait to see you"
"Yeah well we should be careful the girls got Mason,Andy, and Blake to try and talk me into a 'vacation'"
"Wow they must really want something to happen"
"Yeah well not time yet"
"Very true" I said as I walked on to the bus.
"So did you tell everyone about the college scholarships?" He asked.
"Yeah they aren't happy"
"Well it would be cool for you to just take a long break like that seriously when was the last time you had a break longer than 3 months?" He asked.
"I don't even remember"
"Well then break is a must maybe we can rent a place where ever you go and that would be nice"
"YHeah I guess"
"I have one request though"
"What?" I said after laughing.
"Please go somewhere they speak English for my sake" I laughed at that.
"I was going to decide on Australia anyways"
"Ok good I don't think I can handle Russian or Siberian or what ever they speak there" I laughed.
"Yeah well then we better see where we can rent down there soon"
"I will get right on that" I yawned.
"Hey I'm really tired so I'm going to go to bed"
"Ok night babe"
"Goodnight tell the twins I love them"
"I will bye" I hung up and I jumped on the bus going straight to my bunk. I fell asleep soon after.
The Next morning
I woke up and the bus was moving. I sat up and looked at my phone. Someone was calling.
"Hello?" I asked wearily.
"Hey it's Gee" Gerard said.
"Oh hey man what's up?"
"Apparently not you but do you know what's up with the girls and the metro guys minus Trace?"
"Yeah but I don't want to talk about it"
"Just promise me you're not preggos"
"I swear on my own life I am not pregnant and won't be ever again or at least for a very long time.
"Ok good"
"So whats new?" I asked him.
"Nothing just sitting around you know"
"Yeah I know its so hard now that you decided it wasn't fun to go touring anymore" I joked.
"You're right it is we all miss it" Gee said.
"What ever hey I'm tired I'm going to bed"
"Ok night Helli"
"Night Gee"
I woke up and we were in Salt Lake City Utah. I had gotten a call from Bert about a month ago and we decided we were going to meet up today. After I got dressed and got in the car we had rented I headed towards Orem. It was a 45 minute drive and I knew I was meeting them at some random restaurant on state st. I parked and walked in. I saw them sitting in a corner. We were by ourselves in the restaurant. I walked towards them.
"There's a murderer in the restaurant!" I yelled. They all turned to me.
"Look at you" Bert said as I made it to the table.
"How long has it been?" I asked.
"Too long" Dan said. They all stood and hugged me.
"No kidding so how have you been?" Quinn asked.
"Not good lately" I said sitting next to Dan.
"Having problem's with Trace?" Jeph asked.
"No..well it involves him but its not either of our faults"
"What?" Quinn asked.
"Well all of the girls want to send us on a real honeymoon but Trace and I agreed we didn't want one"
"Really so you already know he's good in bed?" Bert asked.
"Really so you already know Gerard is good in bed?" I shot back causing everyone but Bert to laugh. He blushed a little.
"Anyways how are the twins?" Jeph asked.
"They are great but they are a lot like Calvin"
"How so?" Dan asked.
"Calvin had a way with words he scammed so many people into saying or doing things. The other day before I left the boys scammed me into making them cookies AND cleaning their room for them" The guys just laughed.
"Well I hope they don't turn out exactly like him" Dan said without thinking. There was an awkward silence that settled after that. I had my head down and when I looked up they were all looking at me.
"I hope so too" I said with a single tear slipping down my cheek.
This chapter is dedicated to allie. I stopped updating because i was tired of people slamming my stories. I also stopped because i am a 14 year old sophmore in high school hat has all but one friend, who i have known and loved (i do think hes nice and fun to hang with and we could be in a great relationship together) for about a year, and he's not exactly the most popular but he enjoys doing what he does. he plays clarinet, drums, he's in marching band and drumline every season,he's a thespian and is working on the school musical right now, and yet it seems i am his only real friend? i don't know why this world hate me so but i used to be involved in so much and when my parents got divorced almost 4 long years ago i gave everything up and sat in a corner wishing i could die. i went from being the extremely smart,popular, fun kid to be around to the i cut, i wish i was dead already, goth child that every parent tells their children to stay away from. I was 9 at the time and when my mom moved me to the worst gang town in the state when i was 11, I met some friends. They were 7 or 8 years older than me and loved to party. I got caught up in being KID FOR THE FIRST TIME IN SO LONG. the only problem with that was that it meant doing stuff u arent proud of. I still look back at those years and wish they would come back, but they never will. all my friends from down there are across the country being famous or in my best friends situation hes a producer in Cali that i occasionally talk to. Now that I am in high school i have new friends and new problems. I am a teenager in my least favorite day of teh year is valentines day. Why? because around the clock i get calls or texts or emails or ims or something from friends asking for advice about their relationship problems. Why they call me? I can't tell you but its depressing seeing how they always are happy with their significant other and im like a third wheel. I have NEVER been in a relationship and for the first time since the thought crossed me I broke down crying this valentines day because everyone was happy but me. now why did i just rant forever about that? because this is my outlet for expression my problems because seeing as everyone comes to me for all of their problems i never have anyone to go to for mine. If you just read this entire thing please message me because i need help with this story. And for Allie I write thank you if i hadn't gotten your review i would have never started writing my friend ever reads this, Kitty Jizz and you would make a great couple seeing as how much we supposedly aren't good for each other as you claim even though we are carbon copies.
XOXO
Helli