I'd just arrived in Seattle, I feel low. The drive up here was the worst thing in the world, with every mile I just kept thinking about how much I already miss Alice. I stood outside the hotel, which looked nice, but I don't really care about how it looks.
It could be a cardboard box for all I care, it still wont have Alice inside. I walked in with my stuff, one of my 'body guards' was signing me in, one of the others checked out the premises, while the third one was stood next to me and Charlie.
"Right, well here we are. John, Keith and Bill will be keeping a close eye out for your step father. I'm going to head back to Forks to keep an eye on Alice, is that ok?" Charlie asked me.
"Yes, please keep her safe for me Charlie." I pleaded him.
"I will Jasper, now take it easy and try not to worry. I wont let anyone near Alice." Charlie said before he walked towards the door and got into his car to drive back.
I quickly looked around the lobby of the hotel whilst I waited for my key. There was a indoor swimming pool and a gym, I would be using them a lot I feel. What else is there to do since I'm not aloud to leave the hotel, I might as well spend these next few weeks trying to improve my body just in case I do bump into my step dad. That way I'll be able to stand up for myself a little better.
"Here we go Jasper, your key, and your room is on the 2nd floor." Keith, or was it Bill who just told me this piece of useless information.
I was escorted up to my room, and wasn't left alone to unpack. I know Charlie said they would keep a close eye on me, but did they really have to be this close.
It was almost suffocating having these strangers stick to my sides. I've never liked being watched closely, I like to have my space. The only person who's ever been close to me as possible is Alice, but she was aloud to get close to me.
I wanted Alice close to me, I loved having her hold my hand, kiss my cheek, be by my side all day every day. But three guys who I don't even know apart from their names, out of the question I want them to leave me alone.
But that wasn't going to happen anytime soon, so I guess I'll just have to get use to this for the next 4 weeks.
I didn't bother unpacking my stuff, I'll just be lazy and live out my bags for the next few weeks, I've stopped caring at this point now. I just got out my swimming trunks and an old pair of loose jeans and an old grey shirt, I walked towards the door.
"Where are you going Jasper?" John said as he practically ran after me.
"Off down to the gym, try and pass the time." I said in a low tone, great so not only are they here to watch my every move, they want to know all my intensions as well.
"Ok, well lets go." he said and escorted me down to the gym, I can see this was going to get annoying. I wonder if they'll want to sleep in the same bed, or want to know what I dream about in the morning.
We quickly and silently walked down the stairs and into the gym, luckily I was aloud to go and get changed by myself, but I had to be quick apparently. I felt like I should just take my time just to piss them off.
Once I was changed I went over to one of the treadmills to start off with and then I'd make my way over to the weights.
I spent about 20 minuets on the treadmill, I slowly came to a stop and got myself a drink of water. John was following me around like a lost puppy, Keith was at the other end of the gym keeping a close eye on everyone who was also in here with us. I suspected Bill to be in the lobby still.
I laid down and got myself ready to start lifting some weights, I watched as John looked at my weights, he looked surprised that I started off with quiet a heavy amount. I was skinny but I could lift a lot, I just didn't have the arms to prove it really.
"So how come I'm not aloud to contact Alice?" I asked John, he looked caught out by my question.
"Well, now a days people can hack in to emails and cell phone conversations. We had a case once were someone managed to get a hold of letters that people were using to communicate with. It didn't end well I can tell you know." John said in a low voice, just in case anyone was listening in on our conversation.
"But how come I'm not aloud to text her, I can understand the rest of it, but why cant I do that, people cant hack into peoples texts can they." I said, trying to find a loop hole in this situation, surely there must be some way I can talk to Alice.
"No they cant, but what if your step dad got hold of Alice's cell?" John asked raising his eyebrow at me.
"You've got a point there." I muttered, ok so maybe there wasn't a way out of this 'no talking to Alice' deal.
"I'm not saying he would, but why risk it?" he said as he glanced around the room.
I didn't say anything, there wasn't much else I could say. So instead I just continued to lift the weights, I just happened to glance up at John to see a puzzled expression on his face.
"What?" I asked him as I averted my eyes from him and back to the weights.
"Nothing, I just never would have thought of you being the 'work out' type." John said as he moved round to sit down on the bench nearest to me.
"I'm not, but I'm not just going to sit around and let others look after me." I said as I placed the weights back on the stand and sat up.
I stood up and walked over to some more weights, John followed me of course.
"I see." he muttered, I turned to look at him with the weights in my hands.
"See what?" I asked him.
"Well its obvious, you feel that its your fault your step dad's coming after you and Alice and your angry at yourself because you cant stop him on your own. You seem to think its your responsibility to look after Alice, but how can you do that if you cant look after yourself right?" John said as he analyzed my feelings perfectly.
I looked at him, he smirked at me as he leaned against the wall.
"What, are you a therapist as well as a body guard or something?" I asked him, was this guy for real.
"No I've just seen a lot of stuff similar to this, guys who want to improve themselves just to prove that they can look after themselves."
"Hey, I don't need to prove anything to anyone." I said in a stern tone to him, I don't care who he was but he cant make an accusation like that.
"But you are, your trying to prove it to yourself. Why else would you be in here about 10 minuets after arriving, and I can guarantee that you'll be in here all day every day until we leave." John said, proving to be a smart ass now.
I scoffed at him slightly, ok maybe he was right. But that wasn't the point, I'm the one who's put Alice in danger, so I have to be the one to get her out of it.
We were silent for a long time, which was probably a good thing since John was such a know it all. I just focused on my work out.
It was about an hour and a half later that I'd done everything in the gym, now it was time for the pool. I went and got changed into my trunks and went straight to the pool, with John and Keith following me.
"Hope your going to eat after you've finished in here." Keith said as I walked over to the edge of the pool. I just turned and looked at him, I gave him a quick nod and then just dived in. The good thing about this pool was that it was connected to the gym, therefore used for doing laps, which I was quite good at since I was on the swimming team at my last school.
John and Keith watched me closely as I did laps across the pool, Keith looked impressed at my speed. I'd kept my speed quick for all the 38 laps that I had done.
I decided to do an even 50 laps before I got out the pool and headed for the shower room. At least I could a bit of time alone for more than 3 minuets, I stood there and let the warm water trickle down my body as I thought about Alice.
I miss her so much, it was painful. It felt like I'd just lost half of my heart and my entire soul. I felt like all the happiness and joy had just drained away once I let go of her hand earlier today.
Why was this so difficult, surely this couldn't happen every time someone has to leave their partner. I hated being here, I hated being away from her, I needed her more than oxygen, more than food, more than anything that the world has to offer.
I could feel a cold tear run down my cheek, I quickly wiped it away and tried to pull myself together. But it was no good, the more I tried to calm down the harder it got.
In the end, I was leaned against the shower wall with my head in my hands. The tears seemed constant, they wouldn't stop. My unhappiness wouldn't come to an end. I just wished Alice was here, I wanted to feel her body against mine, to have her thin arms wrapped around my neck, to tell me that she was ok, to tell me that she loves me.
That's all I wanted, to see her, to talk to her. Just to hear her voice again, I wanted her so badly I was finding it difficult to breath. My lungs felt clogged from my sobs, my eyes felt raw from the chlorine that I hadn't washed off my hands properly yet.
When all my tears were gone I was able to stand up properly and try and get a grip. I shook my head vigorously to try and hold myself together, I needed to be positive, if I felt to negative about the whole thing time would go slower. If I just concentrated on building my body strength up hopefully time would move faster.
I ran my hand through my soaked hair and turned the shower off, I grabbed a towel and quickly dried myself and then got dressed. I knew John and Keith would be outside waiting for me so that they can take me to go and get something to eat.
I didn't feel like food at the moment, I didn't feel like doing anything to be honest. When I felt ready I walked out the shower room to join John and Keith, like I thought they were stood as close to the door as possible ready for me.
"Ready to eat?" John asked me, I just nodded.
"You ok kid? Your eyes are red." Keith asked me as he placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Yeah I'm fine, just the chlorine, makes my eyes itch like crazy." I lied, Keith just nodded and headed off towards the restaurant, John didn't seem to buy my excuse though, he looked at me with a slightly worried look and walked along side me.
"Remember Jasper, it's ok to be upset. Your only human after all." John muttered to me before he walked over to our table and sat down next to Keith. I watch John closely as I walked over to my seat and sat down.
The waiter handed me a menu and asked me what drink I wanted, water I answered. I glanced across the menu to see if anything grabbed my attention, but food wasn't the main thing on my mind at the moment.
"So what you eating kid?" Keith asked me, my eyes moved up from the menu so I could glance at him for a short moment.
"Actually I'm not really hungry." I muttered to him.
"Well you have to eat something, you cant let yourself starve just because your upset." Keith told me, he was right but I wouldn't tell him that.
"Fine, I'll just have a cheese sandwich." I murmured, something small that was enough to keep me alive even though I didn't want to eat. Keith nodded and told the waiter what I wanted when he returned with my water, which I gulped down quickly.
My food didn't take long, and as soon as the plate touched the table I ate as quickly as I could so that I could get back in the gym. If I was to bump into my step dad I need to be ready for him. So I can kick his ass.