It was now week 3, and I was going insane without Alice. I needed her right now, I wanted to touch her, to speak to her. To feel her soft lips against mine, to feel her soft breath against my skin when we hugged. I hated myself for putting Alice and myself through this misery, but I didn't have much of a choice in the matter. All of this happened so fast and I could not control it.

I sat in the windowsill of my room and looked out into the streets of Seattle. It was raining furiously outside, I watched as people walked the streets, their coats and bags blowing in the wind, cars splashing passers by.

I was wrapped up in my woolly jumper that Alice had bought me once, I leaned my head against the cold window as I watched the water droplets hit the glass. I was so tired, I hadn't slept in 4 days and I hadn't eaten much either, so I was feeling weak. I'd been in the gym constantly since I arrived here, and I was starting to see a difference in my body shape.

My arms and chest bulged out slightly more and my muscles were obvious in thin or tight shirts. I would have been in the gym now wasting my time doing something more rewarding than sat looking out the window, but the gym was closed today for cleaning and so was the pool. So I was stuck doing nothing, which was getting me even more down.

When ever I felt like this, I found the best way of dealing with it was to be on my own, but unfortunately I had my guards here with me. John was sat in the chair in front of the desk, and Keith was stood next to the door. The room was silent, they could tell I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone about anything so at least I knew they were wise enough to not talk to me.

I just wish they would be wise enough to leave me alone all together.

I spent hours just sat at the window, glaring at the glass until a certain police car caught my eye. Charlie's car. I sat up properly as I watched Charlie exit his car, he had someone with him, in the passenger seat.

I couldn't see who it was as whoever it was with him had their hood up to protect themselves from the rain. I got up from my seat and watched as they both walked into the lobby of the hotel, I then decided to make a move. I made my way out the room and downstairs, maybe Charlie had some news about my dad. And then something struck me, what if there was something wrong with Alice, what if he got to her.

I started to run down the stairs towards the lobby, I burst through the doors. The lobby was deadly silent, and there they stood in front of me, Charlie's companion took their down and revealed themselves.

Bella.

I walked over to them, I have no idea what my facial expression was like, but I didn't know if should be happy to see Bella, or worried in case something had happened to Alice. But surely if something had happened to Alice Carlisle would be here instead of Bella, so hopefully it was good news they brought with them.

But then again, if it was good news, like my step dad had been arrested then wouldn't Alice be here. I had no idea what to think, my brain was going into overload.

"Hello, Jasper." Bella said, bringing me out of my thoughts.

"Hello, Bella. What are you doing here?" I asked them both.

"Well, I came to see how you were and Bella tagged along as she needs to go to a book store here in Seattle." Charlie told me, I just nodded.

"I also come with a message." Bella said to me, this caught my attention more, I stepped closer to her as she handed me a letter.

"Alice asked me to give this to you since she knew I was coming here." Bella said to me, I took the letter from her hands and looked at it. I decided I would read it in private, if I got any privacy at all.

"Well, I'm going to go to the book store and find some new books. I'll meet you back here in about an hour dad." she told Charlie, she waved goodbye to us both.

"Bella!" I yelled as I ran after her into the pouring rain.

"Yeah?" she asked me as she turned around, pulling her hood up.

"If I write Alice a letter, would you give it to her please?" I asked her, she smiled softly at me.

"Of course I will Jasper." she said, her eyes gleamed up at me. She could obviously tell how much I missed Alice by the pleading sound of my voice when I asked her.

I took a deep breath, I needed to ask her one question.

"How's she holding out?" I asked Bella in a low voice.

"She's, she's not the same, when you left she stopped smiling, stopped laughing. She didn't leave her room for three days, she couldn't sleep, wouldn't eat. Carlisle and Esme are really concerned about her, they have to make sure she eats. And now she actually is trying to sleep, she keeps waking up in the night screaming. Esme's spent a few nights sleeping in the arm chair just to keep an eye on her." Bella looked distraught as she spoke to me, I didn't want to hear that, but I needed to know. But hearing those words tugged of my heart strings painfully hard, causing a sharp pain in my chest.

"She cried for days, she misses you so much Jasper, but at least its only one more week." Bella said trying to cheer me up as she could tell I looked heartbroken from her words.

"I miss her so much, Bella." I whimpered, Bella looked at me with a worried look. We were silent and the rain started to pour down harder

"I'll be back in an hour, so that gives you time to write that letter." she said softly, I just nodded to her and walked back inside.

I almost ran up to my room and grabbed some paper and a pen, I sat down and quickly started writing.

My Dearest Alice,

I miss you so much, but I love you more. I know that you feel upset but it wont be long until you are back in my arms, and I can help make you feel better. I cant wait to come home, as my time here in this hotel, or should I say institute, is going far too slow and is driving me insane. But when I saw Bella holding a letter for me from you, a little bit of life sparked back up in me again, knowing that within that letter are you words of love makes me feel more alive.

I am writing now before I read you letter as I don't have much time to write down all my feelings for you, it would take years upon years to put all my love for you down on paper, but I only have an hour. Keep heart baby, it wont be long, only 7 more days, try and sleep, stay positive and remember how much I love you.

Only you can understand how much I need you right now, I cant think straight without you by my side keeping me whole. I promise you this my love, when I return you and I will catch up in every way possible and I can prove to you how much I love you and how much I need you.

You are my body and soul, my love an my life. Before I met you I felt lost and unstable, but now that you are in my life I can finally breathe. I am now whole and secure, you are the light in my darkened life and you help me keep away the shadows of my past, it is just a shame that shadows do not go away, they just hide, waiting for a chance to return.

I feel terrible about myself, as I am the reason you and I have had to part for so long. If I could of done anything to prevent any of this from happening I would have, but I have a feeling that if you and I didn't meet I wouldn't have put you in danger, but I am addicted to you Alice, from the moment I first saw you I knew that you were the one and only.

When I return I will do everything in my power to end this nightmare that my step father has dragged us into, and I will make sure that we can carry on our life together the way we should. I love you and I want to and have to spend the rest of my life with you.

If I wasn't being watched over like a hawk, I would get a cab and leave for Forks to be with you, but I can barely blink without being watched with a careful eye.

I will be home soon, and you and I can be together forever, just a few more days. Keep your chin up darlin, and I will soon kiss away all your pain.

Always yours, forever and beyond, all my heart and all my love,

Jazz

Xxx

I put the pen down and folded the paper and wrote 'Alice' on the front. Time went by very quickly while I was writing, Bella would be back to pick up the letter in 5 minuets, so I then decided to make my way down to the lobby to wait for her. I left the letter that Alice wrote for me under my pillow so that the snoops would not see it and read it, just in case it was from him.

I waited downstairs in the lobby with Charlie for Bella. I looked up at Charlie, he didn't look happy.

"Any news?" I asked him, trying to break the silence.

"No, he hasn't made a move which means he either knows about the plan, or he's just taking his time. But there is still time, I just wish I knew what he is up to. There's been no signs of him anywhere, I know for sure he hasn't left Forks, that I do know." Charlie reported, this didn't make me feel any better. I hate the fact that I'm being forced to stay away from Alice because of him, but to find out that he's not even attempted anything just makes me pissed off even more.

Before I could comment, Bella came into the lobby completely drenched. She walked up to us smiling, she saw the letter in my hand.

"Hey Bells, you ready to go?" Charlie asked her, Bella just nodded and turned to me.

"Here's the letter, and thanks again Bella, you're a life saver." I thanked her.

"It's my pleasure, Jasper. I hate seeing my best friend in such misery, and I would do anything to make her feel better, and I know for sure that reading this will cheer her up just a little bit." She said, smiling warmly up at me.

We all said our goodbye's, it wouldn't be long until I would see them again that I was happy about. It felt nice seeing some old faces, it cheered me up slightly and knowing I had a letter from Alice to read made my heart swell with joy. I couldn't wait to be alone and read her words to me.

So I made my way back to my room, with excuse that I was going for a lye down. John and Keith still followed me but stayed on the outside of my room, just in case anything went wrong, I sat on my bed and took the letter out of my pocket. I ran my fingers over the neat handwriting on the front that spelt my name. I then proceeded to open the letter and I prepared myself to read.