A/N: So, who missed me? ...No one? oh alright then :(. I jest :). Well you'll be pleased to know my laptop no longer has an awful virus on it so I can resume writing. Thank HEAVENS for external hard drives. Back up your work people. Back it up now o_O. I would like to thank you all for all your kind words! And I would also like to invite all you lurkers out there to post a review. They really are like an Edward hug :)

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Chapter Eleven: EPOV

She was warm in my arms. Staring up at me with her hands resting limply on my chest. I saw her pupils dilate and her lips part.

She bit her lip softly and her breathing increased.

Fuck I wanted her. Hell I was hard and I'd barely even touched her.

She looked back at me like she wanted me too. I had to kiss her.

I leaned forward...

Then my Dad coughed and the spell was broken.

What the fuck was I doing? This wasn't any girl.

This was Bella.

I jumped back about two feet. I couldn't defile her like I had so many others.

She wobbled on the spot but before she fell my father was at her side.

"Come one dear, come through to my study. I'll check your head out then I'll drive you home" I barely heard him. I was trying to clear my head, and get my raging hard on under control.

I shook my head sharply and ran my fingers through my hair.

If I had let myself continue she would've been ruined by now. I shuddered at the thought.

I glanced up and saw Bella looking at me over her shoulder. She really was beautiful. Bloodied or not.

But that's not what forced the air from my lungs.

She was fucking hurt. She looked utterly defeated.

She thought I didn't want her.

She thought I'd rejected her.

And I fucking had.

Running my hand through my hair again I took a deep breath and looked at her again. Her large eyes shone with unshed tears and her bottom lip trembled.

She shook her head sadly and let my father lead her to his study.

Shit Bella...

She didn't show to up to school the next day and maybe that's best. The entire school was in a flurry about her. Apparently Jessica's a fast worker and had spread quite quickly that Bella had had a klutz moment and hit her head.

And apparently she'd had the audacity to blame the "totally innocent" Jessica who had only been trying to help.

Bullshit.

Luckily I wasn't alone in rebutting these claims. Tyler had really stepped up and come to Bella's defence.

Goes to prove that not all Jock's are heartless. His two friends Emmett and Rosalie had jumped up to Bella's defence also.

And just like that I had three new friends to sit with at lunch. Alice loved having another girl to gossip with.

Apparently I'm a failure at discussing clothes.

So for the rest of the week it was me, Alice, Tyler, Emmett and Rosalie.

No Bella.

I really hoped she was alright; I'd spoken to my Dad after he'd returned from dropping her at home after the accident.

He said she had a mild concussion would have a headache for a couple of days. He seemed off though, like he wasn't telling me everything. But I knew better than to push him on it.

So the week was pretty uneventful. Being new friends we had the exciting task of getting to know each other better.

Tyler was captain of the football team (GO FORKS SPARTANS and all that jazz...).

Emmett was the star quarterback and was hopelessly in love with Rosalie. They had no qualms about showing their love at the lunch table, in class, in the library, in the gym, in Emmett's Jeep...you get the picture.

Rosalie was a total ice queen. But I respected her, she gave it to people straight and took shit from no one. Which was colourfully demonstrated when Mike Newton got a little too close to her in gym.

Let's just say Newton won't be walking straight for a while...

Alice adored Rosalie and in her own way I think Rose like Alice back. They were scheduled to go to Port Angeles next week I think...

Even with all this happening I could only think of one person.

Bella.

I just had to see her and explain...

Explain what Cullen? Explain that you lead her on only to reject her without a word of explanation...

Yeah, this could take some work.

Come Friday I was going out of my mind from not seeing her.

Ever perceptive Alice picked up on my distraction and felt no qualms about questioning me about it.

"Edward? What's wrong? You've been lonely emo kid all week and quite frankly I'm sick of it" She stood in front of me all 4 foot nothing with the most petulant scowl she could come up with.

"Forever to the point, aren't we Allie?" she just scowled at me. I sighed "I dunno Allie, it's just this girl..."

She rolled her eyes "Who'd you fuck this time? Was it that bitch Jessi..."

"Fuck Allie! No one alright..." She genuinely looked shocked.

Shit was I really that bad?

"It's just. There's this girl. I really like her. And I fucked it up, big time Allie... and I just don't know..." I slumped my head into my arms and groaned.

"So it's Bella yes?" My head snapped up.

"How the fuck do you know?"

"I didn't. I just took a stab in the dark but you just confirmed it" She smiled kindly and plopped down on the bench next to me. "What happened?"

"Well, you heard what happened on Tuesday right?" She nodded and scowled "Well I took her home to have Dad check on her. She freaked out at the thought of hospitals. Then we er...kinda had a moment."

A moment? Cullen you're such a pussy.

"I wanted to kiss her. I went to kiss her. Then I froze." It sounded pathetic to my own ears. "I couldn't do that to her. I pulled away and I think I really hurt her Allie." I groaned "I fucked up Allie" I rested my head on the picnic bench in front of me.

I felt Alice rubbing soothing circles on my back then she spoke

"Yeah, you did."

"Not helping..."

She giggled. "BUT, you can fix this. She likes you y'know" She gave me a smug smile.

I looked over at her "How'd you know that?" Had Bella said something? Were they friends? Did Bella really like me?

My chest swelled with hope.

"I just know Edward." She tapped her forehead discreetly and leaned in and gave me a kiss on the cheek "Love you," and she danced off pulling out her cell phone. Probably to call Jasper.

I had to fix this...but how?