Authors note: Sorry for the long wait, but my life has been a busy rollercoaster lately and its taken me forever to get this chapter done, but here it is, enjoy.

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We walked into the front door of the house, it felt so good to be home, Emmett helped me over to the sofa so I could sit down, Alice sat down next to me and watched me as I tried to get comfortable. Rosalie sat next to Alice while Emmett sat in one of the armchairs, he still had the bag full of our meds in, which he soon started rummaging through.

"Wow, you two have got a lot of shit in here." he blurted out, we all watched him as he read all the labels on all the packets. I felt Alice gently place her hand on my knee and slowly made small patterns on my jeans with the tips of her fingers, I turned my head and looked down at her. Alice smiled sweetly up at me, it felt weird sat next to Alice, because usually whenever me and Alice sit together I have my arm around her and she snuggles up to my chest. But we were sat with a small distance due to our injuries, I hated not being close to her, I closed my eyes softly as a rush of pain shot through my chest as I sighed softly.

I felt tired but I'd only been awake for about 2 hours, the only cause to my tiredness was my medication. Alice also looked sleepy, her eyes were heavy and her skin was pale.

"Alice, maybe you should get some sleep, you look exhausted." I muttered to her, she just looked up at me and gave me a weak smile.

"So do you." she replied, I gave her a half smile before I slowly turned to Emmett.

"Me and Alice are going to get some sleep." I told him, Emmett stood up with our medications in one of his hands and walked over towards us.

"Ok, let me give you a hand up the stairs, you can barely walk let alone climb stairs." he was right, so I didn't bother to argue with him I just let him practically pick me up off the sofa, I turned to Alice who was already on her feet with Rosalie by her side. Me and Emmett aloud the girls to go up the stairs first since we'd take the longest getting up them, Emmett pretty much forced me to take it one step at a time with him stood one step behind me just in case I fell since I couldn't hold onto the railing beside me for support.

It took awhile but we finally made it, I made a silent pledge to myself to not attempt the stairs again until at least my leg was better or at least I had a sense of balance but at this point in time, maybe it was best I stayed upstairs. I hobbled to Alice's room to see if she was in there, which she wasn't, then Rosalie's head popped out from my bedroom.

"We're in here." she said, so I made my way towards my room with Emmett close to my side. Once in my room I saw Alice sat on the end of my bed taking a few of her tablets, I slowly moved towards her, Emmett still stayed close.

"Do you want a hand?" he asked me as I reached round to undo my sling, I opened my mouth to say yes but Alice interrupted me.

"It's ok Emmett, I'll help him." she said smiling up to her big brother, Emmett just nodded, smiling before he left the room, shutting the door behind him. I turned my attention back to Alice as she slowly moved her hands around my neck and took of my sling, after placing my sling on the bed, Alice turned back to me started unbuttoning my shirt. I sighed deeply as I watched her undress me.

"What's wrong?" Alice asked me with a worried voice as she gently started to remove my shirt from my shoulders.

"I just hate being helpless like this." I murmured.

"Your hardly helpless, your injured, its completely different and besides you've never complained when I've undressed you before." Alice said adding a hint of humour into our conversation. I smirked at her as I moved my arms out of the sleeves.

"Yeah, but that was different, we cant exactly do anything like that until we're both feeling better." I explained raising my eyebrows at her, Alice smiled weakly I could see a pained expression deep inside her. "What?" I asked her.

"Nothing its just, what you said about not being able to do anything until we're both better." Alice paused as she folded my shirt and placed it on the chair, when her eyes met mine again I nodded her to go on, "Did my dad tell you how long it might take for you to get fully better?" she asked me, I just shook my head and Alice sighed. "He told me that, that it will take a few months at least." I raised my eyebrow.

"How many months are we talking?" I asked, Alice looked up at me before she broke eye contact and started undoing my trousers.

"He said it would take at least three months, four at the most. Just thinking that, that seems a long time before we can, well you know." Alice muttered as she helped me sit down on the bed so she could finish off getting my trousers off.

"I know it does, but look on the bright side, with all our medication we'll sleep the time away." I told her trying to cheer her up, Alice giggled slightly as she helped me into bed, I then sat back and watched her get undressed herself. I still feel a little embarrassed when she looks over and sees me watching her, I always go red at the cheeks and she always roll her eyes at my embarrassed expression.

When Alice took her shirt off for the first time I saw her bandaged bullet wound, I felt a sting on guilt strike my heart, so brutal that my eyes started to fill with tears, I had to look away so that Alice didn't see me upset. I kept my eyes down, I stared at my stitched gash wound that was spread across my upper body, and all the little cuts and scratches that covered my pale skin. All the bruises stood out well against my paper white skin, the bruises were across between a deep purple and a dark blue surrounded by an infectious red.

I was brought out of my thoughts as Alice's small soft hand grazed across my cheek gently, I turned my face to the side of me where she laid next to me in the bed. I gave her a half hearted smile, and in return she gave me a concerned look.

"What's wrong?" she asked me in a soft gentle whisper as she moved a little closer to my battered body, I just shook my head slightly.

"Nothing darlin, just tired that's all." I replied and lifted her hand up to my lips, letting my lips touch her cold skin was so relaxing. Alice moved to look at me properly, she leaned towards me and kissed my cheek before capturing my lips with her own in a soft, loving and tender kiss that made me feel as if I were flying. I hated the fact that this was all we could do for now, but I was determined to make the most of it, I kissed Alice back with as much love and affection in my aching body, I ran my tongue across her bottom lip before gently sucking on it. I heard Alice moan softly so I gently grazed my teeth against her lip and listened to her moan grow louder, she parted her lips and slid her tongue into my mouth. I could feel her taste every centimetre of my mouth, I let my good arm slip round her body, her bare skin softly rubbing against my own made me yearn to have her. Every, single, inch.

My eyes soon rolled back inside my head as I felt my lower body ache for my lover, I was itching for her, I needed her so badly. A part of my mind was telling me to just do it and forget the pain, but the sensible side of my brain was telling me to not be so selfish and to remember that Alice was hurt too, I wouldn't want to put her through anymore pain. I've caused her more than enough already, and that sickened me down to my very core.

We parted for air for a short while before Alice's lips attacked mine again, but with more heat, passion and lust than before. Her hands were all over me, not that I minded, they travelled down my sides to my hips, then they moved inwards towards my already wound up member. When her fingers reached their treasure Alice hesitated, I could feel her lips just stop before she pulled herself away from me.

"Sorry." she whispered, I was confused what did she have to be sorry about, I'm the reason we cant take this further.

"What?" I asked her, moving closer to her in our bed, Alice turned and looked at me.

"I shouldn't get you wound up like that, its not fair on you." she muttered, I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Not fair on me? What about you? I'm the reason all of this happened, its my fault that we were almost killed, and its my fault that we have to wait for months before we can have sex." I said in a stern tone.

"Jasper"

"No, I refuse to let you carry a burden which is not yours to bare, end of. I love you too damn much to just sit here and lets you blame yourself for things that you had no control over." my voice was harsh, but my words were true and the meaning was full of love and Alice knew that, I could see it in her eyes. In return to my little lecture, Alice just gave me a small smile.

"Your cute when you get all worked up like that." she whispered to me before she kissed me again.