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Chapter 20 Realizations

JPOV

Rosalie and Emmett's party at Bella's house was today and I was nervous, completely nervous. But that's what happens when you meet the love of your life's parents and daughter. I've met girlfriend's parents before, but this was different. I wasn't just meetin' random people I would never speak to again later in my life, this was it, Bella was it for me and I wanted her parents and her daughter especially to like me.

I was runnin' late because I spent way too long in the closet trying to figure out what to wear then realized that they ain't gonna like me for my fashion sense, so I just settled on the closest Wranglers and shirt and ran out the door. The whole way there I was sayin' a little prayer that they wouldn't immediately hate me once they saw me, like past parents have, and the closer I got, the more nervous I became.

I arrived at her house and parked the truck and tried to settle my nerves a bit. When I looked back up to the house I saw Bella walkin' out to me, so I turned off the truck and jumped out to meet her.

She walked up and kissed me, "Hi babe, are you ready?"

I nodded quickly.

She laughed. "No you're not. Maybe this will help," she said as she wrapped her arms around me, which I instinctively returned. "I love you cowboy, I know they will too," she whispered. I instantly felt better, because being enveloped in her love usually makes me feel like I could jump a building much less get to know the family.

She pulled away, "ready now?"

I smiled and nodded and she led me to the door. Midway I stopped and pulled her to me again and gave her a kiss. "Thank you darlin' and I love you too." She smiled and as we walked closer, the nerves reared its ugly front again, but when I reached for the door it swung open and there was Emmett, big goofy grin and all, and those nerves were shot to hell.

"Well it's about damn time, I thought you weren't ever gonna come in."

"Thanks man."

"No problem bro, glad you can make it."

"Me too."

"Emmett, you know my boyfriend Jasper don't you?" Bella asked.

"Ya, known him for years, and now he's with my baby sister. Brave man."

I smiled. "Hell, I would've dated her a lot sooner if you introduced me."

"Maybe if I'd known you were her type… nah I still wouldn't have." He clapped me on the shoulder, "don't hurt her."

"I won't, I promise."

"Okay," Bella said suddenly. "Thanks for the scare tactic Em."

Emmett grinned. "Thanks for ruining our moment Bells."

"Anytime. Now can you quit blocking the doorway?"

"I could, but what would be the fun in that?"

Bella smiled back at him deviously, "Rose!"

All the humor left Emmett's face as Rose's voice came from behind him, "Emmett, move and let them in."

"Yes baby," he said as he moved out of the way.

"Thank you," Bella said sweetly as we passed.

"I'll get you back."

Bella laughed. "Not likely, you've been saying that for years."

We walked into the livin' room where Rosalie was talkin' to an older couple who I assumed was Bella's parents. The woman had honey colored hair and reminded me of my own Momma, sweet smile with lovin' eyes for her children, by blood or by marriage. The man had blonde hair and was obvious by his body language that he adored his wife and was very proud of his family. As we walked in they both stood and walked over.

"Mom, Dad, this is Jasper. Jasper this is my Mom, Esme and my Dad, Carlisle."

I held out my hand to Carlisle and he took it, "nice to meet you sir."

He smiled. "Please, call me Carlisle."

I nodded. "Carlisle." I turned to Esme and held out my hand, "nice to meet you too ma'am."

She grinned and gave me a hug. "You can call me Esme; ma'am makes me feel old, even if it's a sign of respect. And I am glad to finally meet you."

When she pulled away I felt Bella put her hand in mine. "Are you ready to meet Alicen?"

"Definitely."

She led me down the hall to Alicen's room. "Alicen I want you to meet someone," she said as we walked in.

"Okay."

Bella picked her up and hoisted her on her hip. "This is Jasper. Jasper, Alicen."

"Howdy Alicen."

"Hi."

Alicen was a cute child. She had dark curly hair with familiar blue eyes that I couldn't place.

A dark haired child came runnin' in and grabbed Bella's jeans. "Auntie Bella, Mommy said she wants to see you."

"Okay. Jasper this is Jackson, Emmett and Rose's son. Jackson, this is my boyfriend Jasper."

"Hi Jasper."

I smiled. This kid was like a little Emmett, a dark haired brown eyed jokester in the making who will be a great big brother.

"Do you mind watching them for a minute?" Bella asked.

"No I don't."

She left the room and I sat back and watched Jackson and Alicen play with blocks and toys. Alicen, I noticed, was really calm for a toddler. She's a leader, guiding Jackson on where their imaginations are goin' with their toys, yet didn't freak out when he didn't follow her exact directions. I'm not an expert on children but there is somethin' about this little girl. I couldn't see any of Bella in her, but then Bella never said that Alicen was adopted.

I looked around the room and saw this decorated ceramic pot. The picture beside it looked familiar. I walked over to take a closer look. The woman in it had the same shade of hair as Alicen, and looked really familiar, though I couldn't place exactly how.

"Hey Alicen, who's this?"

"That's my Momma."

"I thought Bella was you're Momma."

"She is. But that Momma had me."

So this was Alicen's biological Mom which explains why she doesn't look like Bella. How do I know this woman? The last time I saw Emmett before I started datin' Bella was at his and Rose's weddin'. I met someone there, had slutty wedding sex. That was it. I met Alicen's Mom. Now wait, Rose and Em got married less than four years ago.

I suddenly got a shiver down my spine. "Alicen, how old are you?"

"I'm three."

Okay, so if she was carried to term that would be nine extra months plus those three years… That would be right around the time of the weddin'. Oh shit.

My Momma always told me when I was younger I was unusually calm instead of hyped up on energy like the other kids, just like Alicen is, and from the picture Alicen's Momma has straight dark hair, Alicen has the same shade of hair but curly, like mine. Those familiar blue eyes, I recognize them because I look at them in the mirror every mornin'. Shit. Could Alicen be my kid?

"Hey guys, lets go into the living room. We have some news to tell everyone." Emmett said suddenly.

The kids jumped up and raced out of the door.

"Jazz?"

I turned around.

"Hell man you look like you've seen a ghost."

"Sorta. That woman, what's her name?"

"That's Alice, Bella's best friend. She died giving birth to Alicen. Why?"

"I knew her. I slept with her at you're weddin'."

"That was you?"

"Yes and I think… I think I might be Alicen's Dad."

"Emmett!" we heard from down the hall.

"Just a second." He called back then turned to me. "Get your shit together man, we'll talk about this after me and Rose makes the announcement."

"But what about Bella? I don't want to lose her and this could-"

"Stop. Rose will keep Bella busy while we talk and you definitely need to talk. Now wipe that look off your face and let's go."

As we walked down the hall I did the best I could to look normal, but what could you do when you just find out that you could be a parent? So the scared shitless look wasn't fully gone as we walked into the livin' room with everyone else.

Emmett ran over to Rose and sat down while I stood over by Bella.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

"Uh, yeah, I'm fine," I lied lamely, yet she kept watchin' me like I was gonna explode or somethin'.

"So we went to the doctor the other day and have some great news to tell everyone. Jackson is gonna have a little sister." Rose announced.

Esme came runnin' over to her as Emmett came walkin' to me. "Oh sweetheart that's great, have you picked out names?"

"No not yet…"

"Hey sis I'm gonna steal your boyfriend for a couple hours, 'kay?" Emmett said.

She nodded and kissed my cheek. "Okay, I'll see you later. Love you."

"Love you too, darlin'."

She smiled a little then turned to Emmett. "Be nice."

He grinned. "Always."

We walked out to the backyard and sat in a couple chairs by the lake.

"Talk to me man; tell me how you think you're Alicen's dad." Emmett said.

I sighed. "Remember your weddin'?"

He smiled and raised an eyebrow.

"Right, of course you do. Well at your weddin' I met someone for some-"

"Slutty wedding sex?"

"Yeah. Well I met Alicen's mom."

"Alice."

I nodded. "A little mental math and the timeline seems right. I wouldn't think it possible until I saw Alicen. That kid has my eyes Em. I don't know what to do. Bella means everythin' to me and I don't wanna lose her or her to think that she's losin' Alicen."

"You just gotta talk to her Jazz. She'll understand, maybe not right away but she will."

I nodded. "Yeah, I hope she will. I love her so much I can't stand to be away from her."

"Yeah, I know what you mean."

"Hey, Em, what happened with Alice?"

He looked out over the lake. "Well she was sick for a while, then found out it was morning sickness. The pregnancy was normal, nothing seemed wrong. But when she went into delivery things went south. She had intolerable pain and uncontrollable bleeding. She died once Alicen was out. The doctor said it was from an aneurism. Bella was there through the whole time. I've never seen her so scared."

"Shit."

"Ya, she had to be escorted out and when they told us the news she passed out. She was devastated but what made it worse was that her boyfriend wasn't there for her when she needed him most." He shook his head in disgust. "Anyway, Alice gave everything she had to Bella, including Alicen and my sister refused to give up the only thing she had left of her best friend."

"What happened with the boyfriend?"

"Edward? When Bella came home with the baby he flipped. They got into a huge fight and he left."

"Unbelievable."

"I know. I still want to pummel his ass. But the thing about my sister is, she has a big heart. It's been bruised from guys hurting her but it seems you healed those bruises. You are good for her, and I think she knows that. Don't underestimate her, Bella's strong, she can handle anything, but she's been through enough. Do what you gotta do, but if I was you, I'd figure out a way to make it work for her."

"I don't wanna take Alicen."

"Let her know that, but you need to tell her soon."

"So what do you think I should do?"

He sighed. "I don't know. But I do know a secret like that can eat at a man and if you wait to tell her, it will make things worse for both of you."

"So I should tell her tonight?"

"It'd probably be best, man. Just be there for her if she needs you, you know? Be yourself and follow her lead once you tell her. She loves you and it isn't your fault that you didn't know you had a daughter. Just be upfront with everything and you both should be fine. I'm here to talk if you need it."

"Thanks, Em. I didn't know you were so wise."

He laughed. "I've learned a few things growing up. That and it helps you that I'm close with my sister. You want a beer?"

"Definitely."

We went inside and grabbed a beer, which I chugged. I did need to tell her everythin', I knew that but I was scared shitless. I would be crushed if things didn't work out but Emmett was right – waitin' would make it worse so the sooner the better, and I thought the best time would be when everyone left and Alicen was asleep… I just hoped she took it well.

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